Sunday 30 November 2014

Day 335, Very Naughty Children Part 6

Now I am going to write the self-commitment statements belonging to the last part of this series where I have written self-forgiveness statements:

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/11/day-332-very-nauthy-children-3.html



                                






Self-commitment statements:

 

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the belief that I cannot take my self-responsibility, I stop--------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that by following this self-created belief of not being able to take my self-responsibility, I create a consequence for myself wherein I do not move or direct myself to move myself to/towards solutions that will be best for myself and also at the same time be best for the rest.

Therefore, I commit myself to make sure that I become effective in slowly but surely direct myself to move myself in the direction of seeing solutions where there are problems.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into sabotaging myself into not taking my responsibility, I stop------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that by sabotaging myself I am able to avoid responsibility to/towards myself and others as myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to make sure to focus in moments where I am aware that I am sabotaging myself or about to do so, and stay focus on a practical point, in order to not let myself get carried away within and as the sabotaging itself of myself.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into wishing/wanting and desiring for things to be easy as in; an easy way out, I stop------------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am wanting/wishing and desiring things to be easy, because when things are easy there is not much responsibility involved in it, and also less things to do.

Thus within this I commit myself to make sure I  just take the things as they come and look for solutions about the problems that may arise.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into taking some responsibility for the things and people I alone value, I stop----------------take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I take some responsibility to people I alone value, because I have come to learn through copying that people that are close to me alone are people I should care more about, does making my range of responsibility as small as possible and leaving everything else out.

Thus within this I commit myself to expand my responsibility to go way beyond what is close to me alone as what I have learned to be of value or more of value than the rest of what is also here.


When and as I see myself going into the same mind/set and patterns that governs my behaviors, I stop--------take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am letting myself continue within the same mind-set and patterns, because that I do not have to change.

Thus within this I commit myself to push myself to direct myself to set myself free from my own self-created mind-set and patterns that governs my behaviors, in the little things, the almost unnoticed things.


Thanks,


Larry Manuela


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Saturday 29 November 2014

Day 334, Very Naugthy Children Part 5

In this blog, I am going to workout specifically the commitments related to the second part of this series, wherein I provide the link here below:


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/10/day-331-very-naughty-chuildren-part-2.html


                                                              




Self-Commitment statements:


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into blaming myself for leaving my kids behind, I STOP---------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am blaming myself because I am experiencing doubts within myself for leaving them behind, when I was aware that I had to made that decision, because it was not the first time.


Thus within this, I commit myself to instead of keeping on blaming myself, I use that energy to look for ways to communicate more with them and also to find practical solutions to help myself in moments where I am aware of myself blaming myself till I completely get rid of this blaming game.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into having self-doubts, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am having self-doubt, because I am believing that I cannot trust myself.

Thus within this I commit myself to work on my self-trust by using practical little chores to start learning how I can trust myself, till I am living self-trust as the whom I am.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into seeing the point of not being able to trust in another, I STOP-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I am seeing the point of not being able to trust in another, because I am projecting the not trusting myself and look than for a way to attack it in another instead of looking for solutions that are practical to work on my own self-trust.

Thus within this I commit myself to look at what it is exactly I am not trusting in another, because that would be an indication for me to look for that same point within me so I can work it out within myself, because I also have that same point within myself and is just being mirrored how it looks like, thus I work it out within myself till I delete it within myself.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into my memories of what I could have done or not have done in regards to leaving my children behind with my ex. I STOP------------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am going into my memory database to look for ways to see if I could have done it differently, and if I could have made another decision and try again to fix the relationship between me and the mother, but I can still not see that in that period that things would have changed, thus I do not have to keep on looking at memories involving that.

Thus within this, I commit myself to find practical ways to let go of this memory to what could have been or not and just focus on what is here now and do my best to live with what is here now as it exist right now, and if there are problems within the lives of the children to support them with it, and be practical and stable and do my best to be constant and consistent within my communication with them.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into looking at the situation about my children as hopeless, I STOP-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am seeing the situation about my children as hopeless, because of judging them from hearsay instead of actually communicating with them and in that moment look for practical solution with them, as for now that is all I can do because they are in another country, thus I cannot go and have a one on one conversation with them and be live in person with them, and there is not need either as long as I make sure I communicate with them constantly and consistently.

Therefore, I commit myself to keep on communicating with them constantly and consistently even when it seem as if they are not interested in communicating with me, I just don't give up on them and continue, because one day it will make sense to them.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into thinking and believing that i cannot solve this problem or deal with it, I STOP-------- take a deep breath and bring myself here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that it is just a believe-system I have created to cope with a situation that seem too far away and because of the geographical distance I think and believe that I cannot solve the problem with the children. Therefore I can have an excuse as not being able to pay too much attention to them.

Thus within this I commit myself to make sure I pay attention to them and also give them more attention, and do my best to stay constant and consistent.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into feeling a relief because of not having to practically have them with me and have to take practical responsibilities to/towards them, I STOP-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that this experience of so-called relief is a thought construct that I have created within myself to protect myself against myself in order to not have to take my responsibility.

Therefore, I commit myself to make sure that when this happen again to not participate in it and make sure that I find practical ways to resolve it, and make sure that I do exactly the reverse thereof, thus making sure I go and in that moment call my children or send them a message and have a conversation with them, anything that will involve some sort of responsibility.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into not wanting to fix anything, I stop take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am using this not wanting to fix anything as an excuse to not have to do anything about the situation and giving up within myself.

Therefore I commit myself to push myself especially in the moment when I do not want to resolve or fix anything and just go and do it.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the backchat of: " I don't want to deal with this shit right now, on top of all the shit I am already in," I STOP---------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that this backchat is supporting my irresponsibility to look for solutions.

Therefore, I commit myself to make sure I push myself even when I don't feel like it or not to take my responsibility to/towards my children as I should have all the time and look for ways to support them in whatever they may be going through.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into feeling like I will disturb my living alone and not wanting to have my children with me, I STOP.......take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I try to avoid having my children coming to live with me, because that will mean that my comfortable life of being on my own alone will be disturbed.

Thus within this I commit myself to not let myself get influenced by what I want in my mind and just look and focus on what will be best for everyone involved practically and if it is doable or not and that is about it and from there make my decision and stick to it.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into postponing myself to commit to anything that is important and serious, I STOP---------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I do not want to commit because with commitment comes responsibility and I avoid taking responsibility.

Thus within this, I commit myself to push myself to be a responsible human being and make sure to commit myself to starting with little commitments till I can take more bigger ones.




Thanks.



Larry Manuela


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Sunday 23 November 2014

Day 333, Very Naugthy Children Part 4

Now I am going to start with writing my commitment statements within this blog in relation to the first blog about this problem I am having with my children. Here is the link to this particular blog I wrote:

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html




                                       




Self-Commitment statement:

When and  as I see myself going into or I am about to go into letting myself feel guilty, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, I make sure I focus on my physical breath here till I am calm and relaxed within myself and I am sure that there is not energetic movements within me, I then communicate with my children.

I see/realize and understand that I am feeling guilty for them becoming extreme naughty children, because I think and believe I have neglected them and have abandon them and leave them behind alone with the mother, even though I am aware that I had to leave.

Thus within this, I commit myself to whenever I am about to going into or I am about to go into to stop myself in that moment and remind myself that I have to breathe and make sure that I touch something with my hands, it can be anything that is close by and in reach or I can touch myself to help me stay focus when I am busy breathing and bringing myself back here to ground myself and then when I am satisfied and sure that I am just here breathing and grounded, I then move myself/direct myself to communicate with my children.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into blaming myself that my children has become extreme naughty children, I STOP----------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I see/realize and understand that I am blaming myself, because of what I perceive myself to be of my fault that they have become the way they are.

Thus within this, I commit myself to stop perceiving myself as the point of blame and fault initiator of the way they have become and make sure I find solutions as to how to communicate with them that will form a relationship that will result in what is best for all, by being stable and constant within the way I communicate with them.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into interpreting myself as being the only one who is to blame for the outcomes in relation to others in my life, I stop------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I blaming myself as in; taking everything on me, instead of looking at the whole situation constructively to come up with practical solution that will have a result that is best for all.

Therefore, I commit myself to constructively look at a situation and do what I can in that moment that will lead or have an outcome that will be best for all participating in that particular situation.

When and as I see myself judging and putting down other people's remark or advise on how to deal with my children, when they themselves do not have children that are in anyways like the mine, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I am judging other people concerning my children, especially when I am aware that they themselves do not have the experience of dealing practically with children that are in this way, because I see the people giving me the advise as unreliable and/or without practical personal experience in dealing with children that are in this way.

Therefore, I commit myself to take all information I can gather and take them as information that are constructive and look how I can implement them with my children to see which one will work best, because I am aware that I haven't tried everything yet and all kinds of ways, thus it is to just try all of the advises that seem probable and see which will work best and keep the ones that I see are practically working out for me and the children.


When and as I see myself going into reaction of anger and resentment to/towards others for giving me advise and telling me that my children are just doing "kids stuff," as if they have experience with being in their presence to have such a judgement, I STOP.............take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize the anger to/towards people using the words: "kids stuff" is because of me interpreting them as judging me being incompetent and making the situation with my children seem as if it is something worse then it is.


Thus within this, I commit myself to not judge myself as being incompetent and as someone that makes things seem bigger then they are, and just look at the situation as it is in fact and out of that see how I can fix it and come up with solution that will have an outcome that is best for all, and to remind myself to keep looking at it without judging it, but simply as how it is right now, right here.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into judging other parents that give my advise of how to deal with my children that are extreme naughty, when they themselves don't have children like this, and wherein I judge their advise of not being valid, I STOP-------------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I judge other parents that don't have children like have giving me advise on how to deal with them as invalid, because of the very fact that they themselves do not have children that are in the extreme behavior my children are, thus within this their advise would probably not work, without me even try the parts out that I didn't put in practice yet.


Thus within this, I commit myself to incorporate and put to practice the parts of the advises the other parents give to me to see if it can work with my children too, and everything that works with them, I keep on building on them till I get a best way of dealing with them and not only dealing with them, but actually solving the problem that is existent within and as their behavior.



When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into judging psychologists of not taking me serious and giving me theories, that when I put them in practice don't work with my children and they then put it on me as if I am the one probably not implementing it correctly, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I relied too much on what the psychologists are saying instead of finding out in the moment of application what are the changes and where there can be alterations and modifications to suit my children best, so that change can possibly happen, instead of immediately writing them off as ineffective.


Thus within this, I commit myself to not write off advises or theories of psychologist immediately when they are not working practically, but to see if I can change them and modify them to suit me in helping my children help themselves changing themselves.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into  judging my children as being extreme/very naughty, without actually being there living with them, because of them living far away from me in another country, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I m clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that my judgement of my children are coming from hearsay from the mother and my older sister whom have had the experience of being with them, but yet I am also aware that this is their own personal interpretation of the behavior of the children and not that they have investigated the underlying currents and reasons of the why's and how's they are behaving in this manner, and if it is something that is more a momentary reaction to/towards certain situation or event or that it is the way they have become and are living it out.

Thus within this, I commit myself to mostly look at the situation of my children in regards to their behavior as what they will actually tell me within their own words and how they look at things from their own perspectives, and based on this I can only support them with advising them with what can work for them and what not and how they can be effective themselves in making sure that they in their own lives can live in a way that have a result that is best for themselves and also for others, thus that they are not a obstruction to others as themselves.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing my own fear of letting my children come here to live with me, because I might fail in bringing them up, I STOP---------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am in fear of failing in raising up my own children, because I see my own life as a failure right now, being on myself, thus how could I be of any support to them in this kind of situation.

Therefore, I commit myself to not see my own life as a failure first and solve the problems I have first and when I am certain that I am ready and that I can let them come live with me, I do that. For now my focus is going to be on my own fear of my own self-perceived failure.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into feeling disgusted by people that say to me that they are lucky to have had children that are not like mine and that theirs are "good children", I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I feel disgusted by people telling me that they are lucky to have children that are not like mine, because I am of the understanding that there is no such thing as "good" or "bad" children, that there are only consequences we have come to interpret as "good" or "bad" so we can fit into the society we have come to accept and allow as the way we live with each other.

Thus within this, I commit myself to not letting myself fall into the feeling of feeling disgusted with other people that say to me that they are lucky their children turned out to be "good children" and are not like mine, because within me I am aware where they are coming from and do understand their judgement, thus I just make sure that I stick to being stable and direct in a consistent and constant manner with my children communicating to them to rewards of living in accordance to principles of live, that are best for all, and that by sticking to that application within their own lives will one day be part of the way they express themselves and will be having as result always what will be best for all.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the backchat of : " Are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "good" about the state of the world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse then us," I STOP---------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I am having this backchat within me as a form of a defense mechanism as to get back at the person that is saying to me that their children have turned out to be "good children," thus using what is in fact so, but just to get even with another in my mind, as if I am telling them in a way, that their children also did not turned out to be "good children" anyways, because the world is painting another picture that is real that is not in alignment and accordance to any children being "good children," nor anyone for that matter.


Thus within this, I commit myself to look at this defense mechanism I am using within my own mind in the form of a backchat to get back or even with people as a way to take revenge on them, and instead of this making sure I become constructive within and as myself to look for solutions that when are implemented will have a result that would be best for all participants involved.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into being angry at people telling me that everything is going to be alright, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I get angry at people that give me positive remarks and positive forms of consolidation, because within me I am aware that nothing in this reality happens by itself or in itself or by chance, it is all consequential.


Therefore, I commit myself to work specifically on the emotional reaction of anger itself, because I am also aware that it is unnecessary and that i just have to look at the reality as it is in fact happening, without judging it, and within this to see if what I am looking at is what is best for all or not, and if it is not, I am aware that I have to look for a solution that will bring about what is best for all here.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into letting a memory pass through where I see myself raising my voice to go above that of my children, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am having this memory in regards to my children, because in my mind it means that they are not listening to me and that I have to look for ways through my voice to make them listen to me, and this is because of myself not liking people raising their voice at me, thus now finding myself like forced to do to others what I don't like happening to myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to work on my own judgement and fear in regards to voice tonality and volume and how I have programmed myself to react to that in fear instead of looking at it in ways to can be a tool to help myself getting rid of my own fear and taking a stand within and as myself and direct myself here in a moment to do what is best for all.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into not trusting myself that i can do something, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am not trusting myself because of the fears of failing I have created within myself and hold on to as memories so I do not get into changing myself and directing myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to get rid step by step of the fear of failing that I have created to exist within me as me as the mind as energy, and that I become effective in having patience and endurance and that I just stick to the practical aspect of making something happen, till it happens and make sure to make sure to use the equality of equation of: " 1+1= 2 " as a measurement.



Self-Reward:

Within this writing I have come to see/realize and understand that most of what I perceive as problems with my children being extreme naughty are solvable and that I have only some fear issues to take care of by myself in order to be effective in communicating with them, and that things will change for me and for them when I have taken out the fears that are existent within me in regards of me being able to help them helping themselves in regards to their behaviors.





Thanks.



Larry Manuela



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are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," - See more at: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html#sthash.yqywpGcG.dpuf
are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," - See more at: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html#sthash.yqywpGcG.dpuf
are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," - See more at: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html#sthash.yqywpGcG.dpuf







Sunday 16 November 2014

Day 332, Very Naugthy Children 3

I am now continuing with more self-forgiveness statements, and possibly the beginning of some self-commitment statements.

Here is what I left off from the last post:

" I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility, because it implies commitment, and I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself not committing myself to anything or anyone, thus therefore avoiding responsibility to myself and others as myself as life here as one as equal as all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always wanted to commit myself but then again in the middle of the commitment when things are seemingly not working out as expected them to work out, I start to look for ways to leave or find an excuse to leave or making it possible for the other to find an excuse to put me out of the relationship with them, because in that matter I have then made it possible for me to not have to take my self-responsibility to/towards life."




                        





So now continuing with more self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to think and believe that I cannot take my self-responsibility and that it is too hard and difficult, wherein I postpone almost everything wherein I am personally involved, as in where I have to bring my contribution within my participation, therefore avoiding taking my responsibility towards myself foremost and also to/towards others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself into making it harder for myself in order for me to have an excuse to not take my self-responsibility to/towards myself here and to/towards others as myself here.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish/want/desire things to be easy and to try to look for an easy way out, when I am aware deep within myself that there is no easy way out, and that actual practical work is required to be done in order to bring about that which is best for all here, practically/physically and factually.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hide away within myself in order to avoid having to place myself in a situation where self-responsibility have to be taken by myself, just because I have interpreted it and define it within myself as something that is hard to do, instead of just doing it and get it over with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that just because something is appearing to be hard, it automatically means that it is something that I should not give it my time and day and thus avoiding doing it, thus within this devaluing it within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only take responsibility for things I value without seeing/realizing and understanding that the values I give to something or someone is actually tainted/limited not pure as in the life principle of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that, that which seemingly through/via my mind interpretation to be hard, is actually just that, a mind interpretation and not an actual physical manifestation as fact.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself in order to keep on going within the same mind-set and same patterns that governs my specific behaviors to/towards myself and others as myself and within this not actually changing me, to be and become that which is best for all life.


Thanks.


More to come in the next post....


Larry Manuela


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