Day 218, Being Nice Part 2

Now i will continue where i left off, 2 days ago.

I will place here my last sentence for context:

I commit myself to whenever i see myself going into or i am about to go into a slightest feeling or anger and rage to immediately STOP myself in that moment directly and take a deep breath and continue doing so till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and if necessary to hold on to something that is physically here so i don't loose myself within my mind as these emotions.

                                                                     

That was my self-commitment in regards to the dimension of fear, now i will continue and will walk the dimension of Thought.

Thought-Dimension:

** picture of myself becoming very angry and fighting 

** picture of myself getting beaten

** picture of my mother sitting sad in a chair after having heard that i died fighting

** picture staying only indoors, afraid to go out because i might get in trouble and become rage

** picture of myself becoming this good guy/nice guy

Self-forgiveness statements as solutions:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a picture as thought in my mind of me becoming very angry and fighting, wherein i win the fight in order for my survival, without seeing/realizing/understanding that for this to happen i MUST HARM that which is real, that which is the physical existence of which my body is made of and exists as, and also the other body i will be harming when in physical fights, putting myself in a position of an abuser of LIFE.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a picture of myself within my mind where i am getting a beat down by another, giving me the possibilities that can be derived from what can happen also as in making sure that fear remain within me, and that i am fear. I realize that my mind is continuously feeding fear within me in order to have enough conflict/friction and in this then remain as fear within me. Thus i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let conflict/friction to exist within me as me as the mind as energy in order to create more and more energy within me so in this matter i remain in the grip of energy and never take my directive will to stand within and as this fear and drop it within myself completely, because it then cancled itself out.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a picture within my mind where i see my mother being all sad sitting in a chair when she hears that i have died due to a fight i got myself in.

I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand in the past how close i was to really getting myself into trouble and harming not just myself but others as myself, whether it would be my family or other peoples family just because i within myself i let fear and rage rule my decision as stand for life within and as myself.

I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed msyelf to see/realize/understand that by not facing myself as in self-honestly looking at myself i could never see the real me that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become as this anger/rage personality that have been sitting there in the blackwaters of my mind hiding waiting for the tune in order to rise again to have a final storm. By this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide this anger/rage personality without seeing/realizing/understanding that by hiding it, it doesn't mean that it is gone, but it is hiding to not be found.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let anger/rage as personalities to take refuge within me, holding on to that which is against LIFE within me as a means to whenever the time comes to use them to do so, without having an inkling of an idea whatsoever what it will affect as an outcome to all of life if i were to set myself to ignite into anger/rage.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a picture of myself playing the role of a good guy/nice guy for purposes of personality protection, without seeing/realizing/understanding that the personalities i was trying to protect and guard are the very personalities i don't want to act upon, thus keeping them alive by puting a fals face, making my life a reality showcase, a movie.

I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to let the anger/rage to live within me as my memories as my consciousness as my mind as a thief that is waiting for its moment to come out and steal the moment when i am off guard.

Self-commitment statements:

I commit myself to whenever i see myself having thoughts as pictures of anger/rage within me to just STOP  and take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure that in this process to touch something that is physically here, to remind myself that i am HERE and to not loose myself within my mind.

I commit myself to stop all fears within me little by little as they come up that can turn into anger/rage till i am free from my own energy creations within me, that i have accepted and allowed to be the whom i am in this world in this reality, never giving me the opportunity to be the whom i am as the human physical form that i truly am as the real BEING of planet EARTH.

I commit myself to let go of all the images that appear within my mind of what could have happened or what can happen and forgive myself to letting them exist within me, because by not writing them out i am keeping them alive within me as me as the mind as energy.

I commit myself to digg deep enough and push myself to find the missing pieces within myself that have lead to me creating myself as a personality that hides within me other personalities that i in reality don't want to see myself living or act upon in this world in this reality, because parts of me is aware that these are distructive to life, all of life, because i am super imposing harm to life as that which supports me as this human form and all of what is HERE as matter.

I commit myself to little by little STOP myself to not be a good guy/nice guy, but just be whom i am without having to put up a personality and instead just be what i am comfortable being, which is;  a quiet normal guy.

I commit myself to let work on the fear and to pay attention to this fear that is trying to protect these personalities so i can always be clear if i am in personality act or not and in so doing be able to direct myself into a living application within that moment to not let fear take over nor anger/rage till i am clear and stable within me, and till i one am without none.

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Day 217, My life vs ALL Of LIFE.

Before i continue what i started yesterday i had a cool realization today, so i will share this realization today and tomorrow i will continue with the deconstruction of the dimensions i have to walk in regards to the post of yesterday about Being Nice.


It is as follow: '' MY life as what i see/perceive/interpret as of more valuable is impossible without ALL of LIFE.''

In this whole of existence every little thing is dependent on the WHOLE, they cannot exist as a singularity without the support of the whole, thus if I support only what I term MY life, and does NOT support what is the whole,  which is ALL of LIFE, I am automatically  abusing MY life and ALL of LIFE. Thus my life MUST be equal in support as what the WHOLE is doing, the moment I use/abuse the whole for MY own life( thus self-interest steps in,) I am trying to be NOT part of the whole of which I cannot exist without as this singularity, that I call MY life.

Let me use our own body as an example.

                                                                




My heart pumping blood to give oxygen to the rest of the parts which the whole of the body consists of and exists as, MUST always do what will be BEST for all the other parts. Now this heart and all the hearts of all the people and also the animals, this is its functionality within the bodies to make sure that all the parts receive their nutrients and oxygen.  Now the functionality has its purpose and importance for the heart itself and for all other parts, but the heart cannot do what the lungs can do, that is not the purpose or what the function of the heart is, only the lung can do what the lung is designed to do, and so is this applicable to all the other organs and parts of what the body consists of and exists as. So all the parts cannot express themselves individually independently from the whole, they rely on each other for their own individual existence within their unique expression and functionality. All these organs and parts are aware that if they do NOT make sure that the whole is always at its BEST as it express itself as the whole where each of them is part of, each of them will be in trouble if something goes wrong with the whole that they are part of. Thus their individual contribution, which is their fuctionality within the body MUST be to support that which is BEST for the WHOLE of the body.  Can you see this...??

Most of us, we know this, but yet when it comes to systems and the lot we create in this world as a respresentation or an extension of ourselves is NOT aligned to this order, this: '' taking care as BEST as possible for the whole that I am part of...!!!! ''   

 Suddenly each part see themselves as having more value then other parts in our case, this whole that is called humanity. Where each human is part of, thus HUMANITY which is the whole of what we are as parts as one human body each.


So what does this mean..??

It means that somehow we are NOT our bodies as we may say and belief and act as if we really are, because we are NOT living like our body itself is living by itself where each part of itself always does what is BEST for all the parts of what the body consists of/ exists as. There exists no disputes and fights for superiority between the parts, like; 'the heart for example and the lung or the brain and the liver, where they will demand more value or importance or deserve MORE because of their functionality.' They are aware that,  if something like that is to happen/occur, the whole body will collapse and none will have an existence, no matter how superior they may see themselves to be if this was real of course. Now, this is REAL intelligence...!!!

Why are we not living as a whole body together with other bodies, each individually exactly in the same way our own bodies are existing as a totality of parts together as one group that form one BODY and each part individually working to maintain always what is best for the whole body that each is part of...?? What is wrong with us, what is keeping us separated from living as this wholeness, this oneness, this equality, where each part have equal value no matter what their function is, be it a simple function or a more complex function, their value/worth IS equal and their support to each is also equal so each part is equally supported to express themselves to their optimum, that will contribute to the expansion and growth of all parts in perfecting themselves in their unique expressions and manifested forms, where none will be left behind or lacking in any kind.


We should have been learning from our bodies, but we don't. Even now that we know much more as in how our bodies function on a biological level, but yet still we don't use the system our bodies use, we don't take its way of functioning as an example and implement it in our systems we create outside of ourselves, what a shame..!!


We are devided and conquered through/within/as our own MINDS. This is where we are separated...!!

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Day 216, Being Nice.

Problem:


Now within this writing i am going to go into finding out why it is i have created myself to be this nice guy that everyone, or at least most people like around them.
It was very early in my childhood that i can remember that i have created this character/personality, because it kept me out of conflict/friction.
Before i created this nice guy character/personality i, by myself was and still is a quiet guy, i don't talk that much and when i do is because i am asked something or i really have something to share, i am mostly introvert as what is being used in psychological terms. As a kid i realized in terms of my survival that being this introverted kid and quiet made me went through a lot of other kids wanting to take advantage of me, in the sense that they thought/believed they could push me around and bully me, which of course they afterwards found out that beneath that quietness was a ruthless/don't give fuck/ready to go to the extreme, in terms of fighting kind of guy. There is another thing too that i have noticed about me when i used to get angry like that, that if i experience pain, thus if i am fighting and someone hit me and i feel the physical pain, that pain ignites more rage within me, like it is food for the rage, and this is what makes the people i am fighting with really scared, because it looks like i don't feel pain and thus i am not going to STOP.

                                                                

I fought 4 times in my life for real and all of these took place when i was in grammar school. And all of them was fights between me and guys that bully others. The first time i found out what i could become when i become angry, was when a guy that loved bullying others threaten me in the classroom, he pointed at me and told me that he is going to fuck me up when school is finished, when we have to go home. Now the moment he said that, this rage took me over, i just lost it, i jumped from my desk all the way over another desk and then jump literally on him and started hitting him with my fist and elbow, hurting him badly that he was bleeding out of his nose and i broke his lips too. But when i was attacking him like that it was like there were mixed feelings within me going on, of hate/rage/anger and also sadness, because i could see real fear in his eyes, and i wanted him to like show me more of that fear, because within me i experienced like; ' if i don't make him fear me enough he will never stop fucking with me, so i am going to show him what  going through fear really feels like.' I was the kind of person that when i get angry i don't care if i am going to die or not, or if i am going to get hurt or how many people i am going to be fighting, i just don't give a damn anymore, i am ready to die in that moment and would really go to the extremes and i don't care where i am.  Thus that day i found out what rage and anger really meant, and it scared the hell out of me, that i could become like that, but that didn't change me yet to become this nice guy, i continued being quiet but not nice, just a quiet ''normal'' guy.

Now i am going to tell the story that really made me change and took this character/personality of a nice guy ever since. It was in the schoolyard and a guy that bully other kids came to me out of nowhere and he said to me: '' if you fuck with me, i am going to kill you.'' These kind of things kids were saying to each other back then already too.  Now to me, this was like a serious thing to say  to me, that you are going to kill me. So i heard it, but i couldn't imagine that someone would really say something like that to someone they don't even know and with such a conviction like they mean business, but just because they see you quiet and think/belief that they can control you and have power over you, they will say these things to scare you, and if you get scared then they are going to abuse you. So i asked him very slowly, but i already became very angry, i felt this rage coming up within me, because i took it as a life-threatening situation, and to me that means, that it is going to be him or me, one of us is really going to die today, so i said:'' WHAT THE FUCK did you just say..??''  And he repeated it of course to try and look tough.  Well the moment he repeated the sentence i just lost it. I grab him by his throad with one hand and lift him literally up and put him against the fence and i said to him: '' well today you are going to understand what it means to die,'' and i just couldn't control this rage that took over me, it was like a complete possesion, i saw his eyeballs turn into his head and they became all wet and red, and he couldn't do anything, he couldn't breathe anymore and other kids that were there started to hit my arm and screaming at me to let him loose, but i just couldn't, and lots of kids started to scream and get all hysterical/emotional about the whole situation and my teacher got out of his classroom and ran towards me and had to really do a lot of work to get my hands off of his throad, he said something to me, that i don't remember that made me come to my senses and i just let him go, and he fell down and gasped for air and was like trying to vomit or something, in that moment when i came back so to speak to my senses, i was very sad, a total regret went over me, i felt really sorry for what i did, because i knew if there was no-one there i would have literally choked him to death. After that day that guy remained in fear of me and also he stopped bullying people.  And this was the day, that i decided that instead of being quiet like i am in my natural state all the time and getting fucked with because of it, it would be better to be nice, act nicely, because back then, when i was a kid, being nice was a good thing, i could see that those that were nice, were always treated nicely and with some sort of respect. So i took that character/personality to hide my quietness behind it, to not get into conflict/friction, so i don't have to kill anyone or get killed by someone. Now in a sense one can say, it is  a ''good thing'' that i have chosen to become this 'nice guy,'' because i could have become this very angry/mean/tough person, figthing other people that bully others all the time too, but back then, i also saw that being tough would still get one into conflict/friction, so i decided to NOT choose that one. I didn't like conflict/friction, i hated it, and tried as much as i can to avoid it, and being a nice guy was a perfect way to go.


Now i am going to work on the dimensions in relation to this problem, and within each dimension i put the self-forgiveness statements as SOLUTIONS, and the self-corrective/commitment statements as REWARDS.



FEAR Dimension:


** Fear of getting bullied
** Fear of loosing all sense of care or compassion
** Fear of loosing it, and killing someone
** Fear of getting killed by someone, before i kill them
** Fear of living as whom i am as a quiet guy
** Fear of  rage and anger within me


Self-forgiveness statements as SOLUTIONS:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being bullied when i was a young boy, and because of this exactly the opposite occur 4 times in my life when i was a young boy.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing all sense of care and compassion if i were to become angry and in rage, because what i experienced myself going through for the first time i got in a real physical fight.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing it, and be able to in this state of mind kill someone else, because i saw within me that the fear feeds the rage within me to an extent that i would have killed someone without any remorse at all in that moment i was posessed by this rage.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear underneath the fear of killing someone else also the fear of being killed by someone else and both of these fears i use as fuel to be effective in the fight and determine and certain with each blow so i won't make a mistake and get killed.

I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear living as i am naturally as a quiet guy, going about his own business and just being an observer and questioner of his sorroundings.


I forigve myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear rage and anger within me when i found out what they could do to me when i am completely taken over by them.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let myself be controlled and taken over by rage and anger.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let myself be carried away by rage and anger so much so that i would kill someone just to not be killed myself.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have rage and anger existing within me  as a kid and not dealing with them at all never ever in my life, but only lived to suppress them as being a nice guy.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect rage and anger to death, that it means to me that to get angry and in rage i must push all the way through to try and kill someone, otherwise the anger and rage won't go away or STOP.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to never understood how it is that anger and rage existed within me at a so higher level as a young boy, because my parents didn't show me that kind of rage and anger ever, so i couldn't understand what these emotions were doing existing within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to instead of investigating the anger and rage, i resolve it in suppression and trying to play the nice guy all the time and avoid any slightest hint of conflict/friction that could result in me getting angry and in rage, wherein i could kill people or be killed by people.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body and body of other people by letting fear/anger/rage control my desicion, where i will be totally out of control and even ready to die/giving up my own life for that matter.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to, when i went into regret that i did not follow fully on changing me as fear/anger/rage, but instead just changed me into a character to avoid getting into fear/anger/rage.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself that when i get angry and in rage and i experience real physical pain if i am hit, instead of stopping i use that pain as a means to energize more anger and rage within me, to a level that i will not feel the physical pain anymore, and become fully posessed into and as anger and rage.


Self-commitment statements:


I commit myself to investigate more deeply and pay attention to slightest of hints that can come up within me that will make me remember why it is i was so angry and in rage when i was a young boy.


I commit myself to whenever i see myself going into or i am about to go into anger or rage or even a slightest hint that i am going to be angry and because of this anger rage will follow, i immediately STOP, take a deep breath and continue focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and don't give the energy within me attention till nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I commit myself to whenever i see myelf going into or i am about to go into fear that could lead into me becoming angry and in rage that could lead in me getting into a fight that can lead to me killing someone or someone killing me, i just immediately STOP, take a deep breath and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I commit myself to little by little to workout the fear that is within me to kill someone else or being killed by someone go and self-forgive myself for letting myself accepting and allowing such thing to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I commit myself to stop fearing being whom i am as comfortable within and as my human physical body, which is a quiet type of guy.


I commit myself to little by little investigate myself into and as fear or when some hints of anger accur within me, so i can digg out why i am having them and especially how i am creating them within me and where they are coming from and to what character/personality they are attatched, and in so doing to desolve myself from such emotions that are certainly not what is BEST for all LIFE.

I commit myself to do my utmost BEST to stop acting and trying to be a nice guy character/personality and whenever i see myself going into or i am about to go into playing this character/personality out, to just STOP myself and take a deep breath and bring myself back here and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, so that little by little i will be just here breathing as the human physical form that i am without having to play any character or personality.


I commit myself to find out within myself where this anger and rage originated from, because as of right now i cannot see where it orginated from, because i know it was not from my parents, thus that they did something to me that made me suppress my anger.


I commit myself to whenever i see myself going into or i am about to go into a slightest feeling or anger and rage to immediately STOP myself in that moment directly and take a deep breath and continue doing so till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and if necessary to hold on to something that is physically here so i don't loose myself within my mind as these emotions.



I will continue in the next post on the other dimensions, stay tuned.....................



Thanks.  



Larry Manuela

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Day 215, Ever Increasing Human Population..??

Problem:



I was watching a short film today and  the man said that a lot of the reptilian population are going extinct because of what the human does, and he gave as reason the increase in human population.

When i look at this deeply i see that it is not so much because the human population that is increasing, but more so that it is about HOW the human live with each other and everything else which is the problem.
The human doesn't have a clue how to live on this planet at all with its fellow planet companions. One thing we are very good at is TAKING a.k.a. CONSUMING. As a matter of fact this is all we have been doing and nothing else but that. 

                                                                             

We built cities, roads, come up with new technologies, all of it for the purposes to consume the earth of all its resources, thus the more we become, as in increasing in human population, the faster the consumation happens, that is common sense when consuming is all we do and know how to do.

When i was a little boy what i was eating i had a relationship with it, i watched it grow, i was part of it coming to life, i planted it, took care of it, and it was more then enough. Now we just go to a supermarket and we just buy stuff, we have no relationship whatsoever with it at all, most of us don't even know how to grow anything, and our children don't either, more and more we are devoiding/separating ourselves from reality.

We are very much spoiled and used to this system where we just need the money and when we get the money, we just go and buy stuff with it, that is all we have to do. And we become very demanding too, when we have the money to buy stuff, because we think/belief that our money is very precious, and if we don't get the stuff the way we liked it with our money, we become very mean people, people that have no idea whatsoever as in how the things we buy are being made and whom is making them and in what kind of working conditions they are involved to make these things so we can just come with our money and demand things using our money.



Solution:



Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become this human being that is part of this whole group that is called humanity, that just know how to buy things and do not know at all how these things we buy are really made and by whom, making us always because of this an irresponsible race of beings that does not care at all for ourselves nor for others as ourselves.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes in my life, to be angry at some people that are sellling products, when the product turns out to be not what i expected, just because of the amount of money it cost me to buy the product to later found out it was not worth that money, without me having any ideas whatsoever into how much time of work went into making it and what were the conditions the people that worked to produce the product were working in or anything related to the product that went before the existence of the product, only the price and how long the product will last me is of importance to me. Thus within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to only be interested in the price of the product and the durability of the product in accordance to the price the product is sold for.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall in the trap of letting people tell me what the cost of something really is, when in reality i know within myself that i never ever in my whole life made any desicion with other people about what a product should really cost, and was brainwashed so extensively that now i can compare prices with each other and thinking/believing which one is cheaper or more expensive when all i know about cheap and expensive products is in accordance to the price the sellers gave them, which is all system brainwashing. I realize that i don't have the real value of any product that is being sold in this world at all, i only know the price as i see it on the product and compare the price to past prices and then reach a conclusion that it is now more expensive or cheaper, meanwhile the old prices were all made in the same way in this system, which are not real prices but fictional prices, prices that have nothing to do with reality.




Now before i continue, with my self-forgiveness statements, let me give an example about this whole pricing phenomena.


In this crisis one will notice that prices of things go up more then they go down. And they will tell you that it has to do with the market forces and all that none sense. And everything in between the production of the product all the way to where one will come and buy it, all the necessary resources that were needed, the prices thereof have changed and went up, just because the price of oil have gone up. Now understand that the methods they are using to get the oil out of the ground are still the same, and the man-hours for the work done is still the same, and everything else revolving in turning the oil into different other usable products are still the same, only the price of the oil itself have been decided that it must go up. Because of this one will go into the supermarket and buy 1 tomato that was before the crisis € 0,15    and in the crisis it is now € 0,36.  Now all the necessary steps for this tomato to come into being did also not change, thus in the way it has been grown, and planted and everything, just because of the price of the oil that some people have decided that it must go up because it is in a limited quantity, thus every seller of tomato now must also raise their price in order to keep on making PROFIT, it is all about the profit making. So one can see that the resources that are being used, including the  people working on producing them is still the same, the people did not suddenly became  weak or less or something in order to fit into this whole equation, or that the tomato is containing much more nutrients now then before thus it have to comply with this illusion of the price going up. And this profit making illusion is also a major problem, because in reality it is a way of trying to keep being ahead of the DEBT that is devouring everything in its path. Now this is what has been going on, the DEBT has been catching on on many businesses and most of them especially the little ones are closing their doors,because they can't keep up with this DEBT machine, because the buyer also have less money to go and buy anything from them. So this whole stupidity of making profit based on DEBT will collapse, there is no way out, it is inherent within the equation of the system, that the DEBT must come out as being ahead and victorious as in; MORE then the actual money that is available. And the few whom are in control of this DEBT-machine are the REAL profiteers. And with this illusion being supported by all of us, they can in turn get their hands on that which is really REAL, as land and resources of this earth. The money scheme is a good way for us to see how stupid it is to have believes, because by having believes one MUST give-up that which is REAL and of substance..!! One must give up LIFE, in order for the belief to have an illusion of being real.



Therefore we at desteni have come up with this great idea to replace this current system with, and it is the EQUALMONEY SYSTEM. This system we came up with is not a system based on belief and illusion. It is based on what is really really of need for the human and everything else to sustain themselves as BEST as possible, wherein REAL sustainability exists as an actual/factual manifesto, NOT as it exist now as it is being tossed around coming out of mouths of people in this system of abuse when the system we are in is a system of consumation and a rape to LIFE, where needs are turned into profit making by making them very difficult to obtain or even worse, impossible for many, where people starve to death just because they have no money to buy what the earth provides for ALL its creatures to live. We do NOT need your belief in equalmoney system, we need your support, your contribution to it, your coming together with us and help make it real, so when the time is right and HERE, it will be in place and it will be for real OUR system, because all of us worked on creating it. It will be a real decision based on all of us that this is how we are going to live together for now on till the time will come that we will see by living in this system that in reality we never needed money at all, which will be far far in the future, when we have learned to live as the human physical form that we are, the REAL being of earth, and have put down all of our illusions so they won't exist anymore............




Continuing with self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let a world exist where desires and wants go before real needs, especially when the needs pertain to our physical living, what our bodies really require to sustain itself in the BEST possible way.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let myself get brainwashed that DEBT is needed and is necessary in order for us to live here together on this planet, when the real things we need are already here without the DEBT, without the money, they are not existing because of DEBT or money, they exist because of the gift of LIFE, all we need to do  is to share these gifts equally to all expressions/manifestations/forms of LIFE so none will be in any kind of lack.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself and others as myself when i found out what the heck we all accepted and allowed to exist in our names as a system that is against LIFE and not in anyways whatsoever PRO LIFE.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to really believed that we as humanity were the most valuable race on earth, when in reality we are the less, the ones that are not really needed at all as we may think/belief.

 I realise that it may look like we are needed now that we have fucked everything up and we are trying to fix what we have done, like trying to help animals and cleaning the oceans and soil and all of that, and because these other lifeforms are not capable by their design to do it for themselves, we see ourselves as being needed and as valuable or as more then them, but forgot that they were fine the way they were without us imposing our shit on them. Animals and plants they all rely on the support of nature even the human, but these animals and plants and nature don't rely on the human at all, they don't need the human...!! Nature itself also always take care of those species that are causing unbalance to the whole, that is why even without the human as being also a cause of some species to go extinct, some species of animals and plants do go extinct anyways, because they were not contributing to what is BEST for all, their contribution was one of self-interest, much like we humans are doing now. So if we continue like this, we will also be extinct. The difference between the earth making some species go extinct and the humans being the cause is in the unbalancing of the whole life on earth. Earth take care of those species that don't contribute to what is BEST for all LIFE on earth by itself, but the human make species go extinct that DO contribute to what is BEST for ALL of LIFE on earth, endangering ALL LIFE on earth in this matter.

Thus within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be the cause of animals and plants going extinct that are NOT suppose to be going extinct,because they were contributing to what is BEST for the whole of LIFE on earth.


I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand the true implications of my actions to what for outcomes/consequences it will have to all of LIFE on earth, because i accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed into believing that the human life is what is of most importance then any other lifeform.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be part of a species that does NOT care at all about itself let alone care about anything else, without ever doing anything to STOP myself first and change me and then change it, no matter what.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that by the very fact of supporting the way we live now is in fact, affecting all LIFE on earth to a degree where we only harm and destroy all LIFE.




Reward:

I commit myself to make sure whenever i am about to go into or i am into not paying attention and looking at all things as in finding out how they are created and where they come from and who benefited and whom lost something, to just STOP, take a deep breath and bring msyelf back HERE and make sure that i little by little start to investigate all of the things i buy in order to make a real decision as to what to buy and what not to buy, and keep my life simple so i don't buy unnecessary shit that i don't need, and make sure to participate with others that are doing all they can to stop the way we are living now and change it to a way of living that will benefit ALL participants on this planet in the BEST possible way.


I commit myself to STOP myself in the moments i see myself becoming angry at some people that sell products that will break easily and just remind myself that these people are just as blind as i was in this system as believing that this is the way things must be and will always be.


I commit myself to inform all people as best as i can about the ways we live with each other as in bringing awareness as to what extent we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be brainwashed to accept and allow such a system of abuse as representing ourselves as humanity.


I commit myself to make sure i keep on exposing the system of DEBT and how money works in this world till we all get it, and start making real common sense decisions based on physical/practical living instead of decisions rooted in/influenced by believes and opinions.


I commit myself to make sure to inform as best as i can that we are
NOT THE most important species on earth at all, but that we are most likely the ones that are suppose to serve the rest, and serving them is in fact giving, and not slavery.



I commit myself to make sure to expose our designed nature as human beings, so we can all come to an equal understanding and stop ourselves in creating ourselves as this design over and over, and create ourselves as LIFE instead.





Thanks.



Larry Manuela

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