Day 343, Consequences of using money as we do right now.

List of our delusions that have become our way of living:


I am making a living. { No, we are not making any living on this planet, we are destroying life actually, all we do now is try as hard as possible to make MONEY and making money stands for destruction of life in this world right now, even when one is making money with very good intentions}

I earn a living. { Why do I have to "EARN" my living, who came up with this idea? was he or she someone that gave life instruction/command for me to have a life, and if so he or she must be someone that was before life?, which of course is impossible, because there is nothing before life or beyond life and certainly not the human.}

I work for my bread. { There are just practical things we HAVE to do in order to survive, and these we can term work, but work as we understand work right now as in: "MAKING MONEY" is delusional, why? because it supports the system of money, and NOT life. Now, one may argue that money gives one the ability to right now buy the things one needs to survive with, which by the way have become more, our needs have increased with this money scam, lots and lots of products are being made to fit into the description of "our needs" that are actually not necessary, they only exist because someone wants to make money, which in their turn helps with the exhausting of the earth resources. Thus buying one's needs, or surviving, or believing that this means one's life is supported within this money system , is actually at the other end of the polarity, taking life/exhausting life/destroying life. The reason most of us don't see this, is because we don't pay attention to all that is here and question what we see and hear, and even when we do, we don't do anything about it, to stop it and then change it.}



                                                           

I have to work. { Here, again we use the word work as meaning: "making money." just have a look at it, all we do is either striving to one day  have a work/job or we are working or we want to change work/job to get a better paid work/job. Is this all we came here to do, to just be born, go to school, study something so we can than use that which we have studied in order to have a work/job? That's it? Is this all what the human being is good for? According to the brainwashing, this is our purpose in life. Just have a look at it, it is all that we do. We spent more of our times working then anything else years on.}

I have to have an income. { The most successful brainwashing ever in the history of mankind, in order to convince the slaves to continue being slaves without much resistance.}

I need money. { Again the most successful brainwashing, actually believing that we  NEED money in order to survive, overlooking that all the things we really need to survive with/ all the resources we are using, are and were already here and NOT ONE human OWNS any of these!!!!! We just have to use them in the best possible way, but we don't, we abuse/misuse/destroy that which was here before the brainwashing happened and that are really actually what we DO need to survive with. We have made money the middle-"man," stripping/separating our direct relationship with what is here as the earth resources to work with and expand and learn and grow.}

I need money to buy things. { yes of course now that we have imprison our own lives, with this money we can place it as a big need, I mean have a look at how far we have come  to accept and allow this delusion/illusion, so far that people and animals and plants and lots and lots of other lifeforms have to die/be murdered/be killed in order for us humans to continue with our delusion of having to "need" money, so much so that it has become our reality, because we are living the delusion, making it real no matter what, destroying ourselves and everything else along the way.}

I am rich. { It may look like that for awhile, that someone can be "rich" in this system of money, but eventually poverty will be encountered along the way, because the very system that one is using to get rich with, is the system that takes and takes and takes from life in order for someone to be able to call themselves "rich" within this system. So when there is nothing more left to take, the rich will be EXTREMELY poor. So poor that the word poor itself is too poor to call it poor.}



                                                          

I am poor. { The other end of the polarity, wherein our delusional great brainwashing as "money" as we know it, hold its grip.}

I have power. { No. We don't have power with this money at all, we are weak, very weak. We only told ourselves and came to believe it whole heartedly that when one is in a position of having lots of this illusionary thing called money, that one have power, but actually it implies that one have placed oneself through/by using this money in a position where one can abuse others. It makes abuse so much easier. Thus the power that is talked about within this current system is actually none other than the power to abuse others. It is not real power as in GIVING. This is what LIFE does,it GIVES unconditionally. Our current creation of money only takes. So only when we give money the REAL power to give as life gives, then money will have real power and us using this money as in giving with it, then our usage of the money is real power. Then we as humanity can empower ourselves and lead ourselves into living exchanging what we have become as a humanity that have learnt how to give and live it as its own expression wherein through the human as it express itself it is giving life to life back.}

I own things. { No we don't "own" things. These things we "own" were the things we have stolen by using the the scam called money as we know it right now. And as a matter of fact we cannot "own" anything, because we came with nothing and we will leave with nothing.}

I own a big house. { No we have to get out of this illusion of owning things, and just start to get use to USING things in the best possible way till we are no longer here.}

I don't have a house, just a shack. {yes unfortunately within this system of money, lots of people will live in these shacks, because apparently the middleman called: "money" is not here to support its creator, which is the human being, it is the creation of the human to enslave itself, imprison itself. Through its own creation the human will practically see/realize and understand that it did not gave its creation responsibility to/towards life, because we as humans ARE irresponsible. Our creation of money as we know it is just our reflection.}

I live in a mansion/castle. { of course this is one of the pleasures of some within the current monetary system, where these few can live in mansions and castles and probably having poor people to clean their mess up and taking care of these mansions and castle for them, all they have to do is give a very small amount of their money to these poor people and whuala, the abuse can continue, and they can now justify that they care about the poor people because at least they are giving some of them a job.}

I live on the streets. { unfortunately this is one of the consequences that happens in this monetary system, because it is a system that does not support ALL equally, give to ALL dignity and respect and value for being alive, life expressing itself within and as that one body.}

I live in a foster home. { this too, again unfortunately is one of the dilemma's of the current system where because of problems involving money some children will end up in the foster homes and some eventually with some foster parents. And by the way, here we think and believe that we are solving this problem by introducing these systems within the money system, but CHANGING THE MONEY SYSTEM  itself that produces these problems, we don't even consider.}


I am in the army, they pay good. { now here we are at the lowest degradation we can get, because we are willing to even murder others to get this illusion called money, put ourselves down getting commando's from others to go and kill in the name of our countries or whatever ideology, but as long as we are getting paid, we will do it.}

I am a victim of war. {many many men/women/children will be and continue being victims of war within this current system, because war itself is a way of making money for some people.}

I have a big business. { big businesses are the corporations in this world that are sucking huge quantities of money in, leaving little to very little to the average man that also have to work within this system, not realizing and understanding that there will come an end, because all these businesses exist because there are buyers and the buyers need money to buy things with, thus if there comes a time where they cannot buy anymore, because the corporations themselves have override the buying capacity of their own buyers, they too will perish and go falliet=(bankrupt).

I have a very small business. { Small businesses are little by little closing their doors, because they cannot compete with the large corporations in order to hold their businesses alive so to speak, and again don't forget that people are all brainwashed to only look for ways to "make money." It is all about how can I make money, or more money. What can I sell to make money? We merely never ask the question how can I support life in the best possible way?} 

I am going on vacation. { Within this system when one have money, vacation is seen as a great thing, to leave the workplace for awhile and go as far as possible. What is also very troubling within this whole vacation system is that those with money or living in countries where they have a job and can afford a vacation mostly choose to go somewhere where they can buy more with the currency of their country in another country, this is one of the abuses that are being overlooked within this system. People are always looking for the cheapest tickets, the cheapest hotels, the cheapest everything just so they can save more of their money in their own pockets. Thus going to a country where their currency is stronger than the others is always the primary choice, especially when going far away. Here the power to abuse in money is clearly seen.}

I am staying right here where I live, because I can't go on vacation, don't have money. { Here we are now, where we can invent all kind of ways of transportation but yet again money as the middle man rules, because the resources are NOT being used for support, for enjoyment and learning purposes of our reality, only when one have money can one travel to a distant destination on this planet.}

I eat anything I want. {Yes, with having lots of money and living in a country where food is readily available one can actually say that, one don't have worries anymore about where one's next meal is going to come from.}

I have nothing to eat, I am starving. { unfortunately within this world many people will go through this abuse and unacceptable situation because as long as one have to have money in order to get food and not get food directly from the earth itself for one's nourishment, one will eventually die of hunger and no-one will care nor know. One's death will be on a chart in the form of a number together with the rest of the people that died of hunger where some people will use these charts to evaluate how many people are starving and how extreme or not poverty is at in particular moment, but actually care, we don't. So one's death will be just a topic for discussion as it has been for long time now, either for the one's that want things to continue as they are or for those whom want things to change for the betterment of mankind.} 

I have debts, lots of it. { Debt is the engine of this monetary system, and this very engine always run dead at some point where a new engine is needed, only this time when using the word engine and comparing the situation with a car as I am doing here,.........the roads are all messed up, the car is corroded,lots of destinations that one used to drive to are none existent anymore. Thus even if some wants a war in order to reset the same old system with debt as its engine, the world and the resources are already too exhausted to carry on with the same activities we are involved with/in at the moment, even with very small percentage of humans left and within that, even for them the food and air and water would be poisoned.} 

I have no debts and have lots of money. { No, unfortunately this is also a delusion, because one may appear to have no debts personally and it may be so too, but unfortunately where one lives and the money one uses is always DEBT, if there was no debt one would not even have the money, because all debt will be paid and no more money will exist. Thus the word: "buying" is actually = paying debt.}
  

                                                                        

I was able to go to an university. { Of course again, when one have money and living within such system as ours, going to a university is a piece of cake. The only problem is that the universities are all within fitting the design of the system we live in itself, meaning: " with the current knowledge one will be prepared to move into the system to be effective for the system and university is where one can achieve the highest level of education, thus one is then knowledge-wise and information-wise better equipt to function at the highest levels within the current system. Thus the design of education is to imprison one within the parameters of the current system, getting out of it is almost impossible. And most of the people educated on this level will be the loyalists within the system, and will even defend it, because their reward within the system is much better then the rest of the levels beneath them.}
 
I have no education. { Again with having no money of course education too will be a very challenging thing to get, and this is for this system a "good" thing, because now these people that have no education can go do the jobs that those educated one's do not want to do, the so- called: "dirty jobs/lower jobs." One will find then later in ones life educated people giving speeches and creating programs to help the lower educated people and feel all good about themselves, but yet at the same time some are helping them with good intentions, but most actually are exploiting them to get them to do what they themselves won't do with the simple words as these: " someone got to do these jobs too." This "someone" is never them.
 
I am a scientist. { Who knows how many human children died in third world countries that could have become great scientist and came up with great ideas, but then again at the moment we will never know, because there is this have's and have not's dilemma to deal with and on top of it, there is this whole race problem too in regards to this, that people believe that those whom are poor somehow won't be able to be smart. But how can they know if we have never given them a chance to reach their highest potential, they were born in poverty and will die in poverty as long as this current system we participate in continues to exist.}

I am a simple person, not smart. { being born in poverty many and many will be simple person, but this word: "simple" is actually an euphemism for "stupid." We feel guilty about what we allow and because we don't want to "hurt" the people's feelings and call them directly that they are stupid because of course they cannot afford an education and cannot read and you name it, we will call them "simple." I mean, how bizarre is this, leaving people who needs our support for their own vices just in order for us to feel guilty about it, as if supporting our guilt is somehow a solution? } 

Conclusion:

Thus within this list I have made if one noticed it may appear as if I am blaming some people or all of us but in reality I am giving a sarcastic view of what is really going on within the world we live and what are the things we accept and allow and some things we are thinking but we don't talk about them, and some things we just do and don't care about the consequences they may have, because we haven't gotten to the point where we can see yet what all the consequences of doing or not doing something will lead us into. We all know that this list can be made very very long, but as what I have written here, I find that we all can understand it, because most are things we see within our world or things we know about.

Solution:

The first and most thing that we have to do is look for a way to come together and agree together as to where we want to lead ourselves within this world and we form a bog enough group and from and within this group we appoint individuals whom for now will go and be on the political platform and effect the changes necessary to bring about a change that will benefit all equally. One thing is certain at the moment. We cannot continue like this, because we will lead ourselves into destruction. Therefore have a look at our proposal LIG and join us to perfect it more and more as we go along, because working together as one, will be the only way out of our own accepted and allowed consequences.



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Day 342, The Charlie HebDo scenario words and phrases used.

Within this blog about this incident that took place on January the 7th, 2015, lots of words of Hate and separation and that breed violence,have been said and fed to the public to entice the public even more into reaching within themselves and pluck out as it were all the hatred that they have been accumulated throughout their lives, to get them to accept some form or retribution or revenge that according to some MUST take place. Now understand that this blog I am writing here is not to criticize people and blaming people. This blog is for us to have a look at the specific words we use in our daily lives and also words we allow to be part of our daily lives. I will also be copying and pasting some comments on some of the videos leaving out the names of ones writing these comments, just for purposes of letting is see what kind of words we use and how we breed violence within ourselves expressed through words.

I am going to use some words in capital letters and some colored in RED in order to show the words that are not words that should be lived by all of us in this world. And when I get to the solution parts, I will highlight these solution words in GREEN.

I will start with this topic by placing few of the videos done about  incident.

Within this above video the TomoNews US, a Youtube Channel news that specializes in making animated news headlines.

Their video is called: 

" Paris terror attack: Jihadists shoot dead 10 Charlie Hebdo magazine staff, 2 police" 

  

So with this title of the video itself we can see 3 words that have been used over a few years now to work on the fear of people, and these 3 words have gotten more weight since the 9/11 incident that took place in USA.

Now here are some of the comments placed beneath this video:

" Typical for ARABS ..99% of all muslim-terrorist are ARABS ..

this kind of shit is typical for Arabs# It's not a 'muslim' thing, but an Arab thing." 

"  fuck you fucking racist motherfucker do you know the fact that USA acually killed 500k innocent children in Iraq for oil??? it's a FACT and there are sooo many proofs! Terrorists killed 3000 ppl in 9/11 while USA killed about 2 million ppl in Iraq and 500k of them was children!!!!!! Which is worse now? muslims or americans? PSS FACT: USA also used nuclear weapons in Iraq and even until this day it effects ppl there!!!! " 

" I'm not american. And I'm a muslim, and I hate Arabs.

 You're like cancer. You're destroying Islam from inside." 

" I'm not trying to push an agenda, but if those staff or someone who was recording the shooting had a firearm to protect their fellow person this tragedy could have been prevented, or at least had a more preferable outcome."

Now here is a link to another video, and this one I cannot place it here since it is not a youtube video, but a video made by : "The Telegraph." 

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/europe/france/11337006/Charlie-Hebdo-Paris-attacks-A-timeline-of-events.html 

So lets have a look at the words that are being used here that are words that breed violence and hate, even though they may appear as cautious. Within that report the following were said and I quote:

 

" With one of the gunmen saying shortly before his death that he was funded by al Qaeda, President Francois Hollande warned that the danger to France - home to the European Union's biggest communities of both Muslims and Jews - was not over yet. 

"These madmen, fanatics, have nothing to do with the Muslim religion," Hollande said in a televised address. "France has not seen the end of the threats it faces." 

Now I am going to place two links here and for those that will watch this, understand this is for purposes of investigating the words that are used and what is being said and what is being aimed at with the words, what the kind of outcomes can come out of these words as consequences in reality.


First I am placing a few information about the AK-47 itself. This piece of information is taken from wikipidia.

" The AK-47 is a selective-fire, gas-operated 7.62×39mm assault rifle, first developed in the Soviet Union by Mikhail Kalashnikov. It is officially known in the Soviet documentation as Avtomat Kalashnikova (Russian: Автомат Калашникова). It is also known as Kalashnikov, AK, or in Russian slang, Kalash.
Design work on the AK-47 began in the last year of World War II (1945). After the war in 1946, the AK-47 was presented for official military trials. In 1948, the fixed-stock version was introduced into active service with selected units of the Soviet Army. An early development of the design was the AKS (S—Skladnoy or "folding"), which was equipped with an underfolding metal shoulder stock. In 1949, the AK-47 was officially accepted by the Soviet Armed Forces^[9] and used by the majority of the member states of the Warsaw Pact.
Even after six decades the model and its variants remain the most popular and widely used assault rifles in the world because of their substantial reliability even under harsh conditions, low production costs compared to contemporary Western weapons, availability in virtually every geographic region and ease of use. The AK-47 has been manufactured in many countries and has seen service with armed forces as well as irregular forces worldwide, and was the basis for developing many other types of individual and crew-served firearms. More AK-type rifles have been produced than all other assault rifles combined.^{[3] "}




 Now I am going to place two links about two videos placed on the website LiveLeaks.com

On this website they are claiming that the incident was a Hoax or staged. Because they are saying that when the one of the terrorist shot the policeman on the sidewalk there was no blood coming out and where there should have been some blood at least coming out.
Now all these videos and words used are going to play a major role in peoples believes if what happened and what did not happen and at the end of the day, we will not really know what exactly happen, because the real truth is, we were not there and we don't actually know whom these people that committed these crimes really are.


I will place two links to this website where they showed the images before youtube and others blurt the whole scene where the policeman was laying on the sidewalk and was shot apparently to the head.

If it was a hoax or not, what this video is showing, I find that they do have a point and have to be considered a good piece of investigation in relation to the whole incident.
Thus the first link is where they let us see that there was no blood coming out of the body of the policeman and the second link is about a accident that happened in Yemen where a AK-47 went of and killed 3 people and you will see the blood there immediately. Thus here viewer discretion is advised.

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=98f_1420759102





This is the second video link:


http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=092_1385087034


So what we can learn from this incident and many others that went before this one, that when we use certain/specific words, because we are in a state of emotions, we will breed hate and violence, that can lead to consequences as what happens in our world today and also in the past and will continue to happen if we do not change ourselves and become Self-Responsible human beings.
The bottom line about all that is happening in this world are due to US not taking our responsibility to/towards life. We do not honor life, we do not respect life. Some may have "good intentions,"but these good intentions mostly lead us nowhere, because they are not effective enough, because they are not practical enough or mostly not practical at all.


We must take our power back by first of all when we see that we are reacting to news or any other information outlet, to take long deep breaths, ground ourselves and then start researching all the information and as I did here with just a little research look always at the words that are being used, and ask yourself are these words that will have an consequence outcome that can be a best outcome for all practically or not and one will understand something about oneself and about the world we accept and allow ourselves to live in. Because all this barrels down to what we ACCEPT & ALLOW ultimately.

Everything that happens on earth that we will term: " bad/negative/wrong," are our own creations, our own acceptances and allowances.
We are the ones that accepted and allowed that we must be slaves to a system that we ourselves have created and now we act as if we cannot change this system. I am using the word "system" here, but this word in itself as I am using it here is plural. It stands for all the man-made systems. What we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves is what we are putting within and as the systems we create, thus the systems we create reflect what we accept and allow within ourselves.
All the words I have marked in red here are words that have an actual real manifestation in this world where they lead to certain actions that will ultimately harm life or are harming life.
These words we use are not words that honor life or give life respect, oh no, these words are dishonoring life and are harming life through us, the bearers or words. Through our words we live, through our words we deceive ourselves, blind ourselves, harm ourselves.

Conclusion: 

 In order for us to discern information effectively we must learn to use our common sense and look through the maze of information especially now in this information era, where information can change the course of where we will lead ourselves to either rise or fall. 
Thus I implore you to investigate all information and make sure to use your common sense and head the words that are used to ignite or work on your emotions and when that happens and you know it, you become aware within yourself that you are reacting emotionally, to forgive that within yourself, because one must understand that no-one can place an emotion within anyone in this world, you can only manipulate people to harvest their own self-created emotions in a way that will have certain outcomes, with certain specific goals, but yet these individuals must give you their permission, either passively without knowing which is what happens in most cases or forcefully. But yet again if one pays attention to oneself one will notice that the emotions are happening only within oneself alone.

When one becomes aware of this, that no-one can place an emotion within one and that it is oneself that can create it within oneself, one will start to see that it will take all of us humans to forgive ourselves for our creations, of what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves that is having a physical manifested play out in the world outside, the reality we live in where we portray as "good people" vs " bad people" without seeing/realizing and understanding that these people are both within each of us within our minds, within our personalities.
Thus I leave you here with some questions that at the same time our own answers.

Questions:

 

When I am capable of hating is it not the same for another as me?

When I am being angry at another or even at myself,  am I not being violent?

When I am arguing with another to proof my point of view, am I not at war with another?

When I use words deliberately to get people to stand next to me, to manipulate people to also go against what I am against at, am I not breeding hatred?

When I within my own mind judge other people and races and believe systems as something terrible am I not doing the same as them judging me and my race and my believe systems?

 When I allow men/women/children to be killed in this world, what does this tell me about myself? Am I a coward or am I afraid to stand up within and as myself and say: " no more!" 

 Why do I think and believe that it is always someone else that is the "bad guy." an not me, but yet I do not come up with any practical solution that will make sure that "bad guys" are none existent in the world we live in?

Why do we human kill each other in the name of our believes and our opinions, our projections about others?

Why does the words we use end up being real manifestations in our reality here on earth, and when we see this, why do we not stop it and change ourselves and change our words and thus through words change the reality we live in, using words and living words that will support and honor and respect life in each one of us and in everything?

Why with all the mothers and fathers "feeling love" to/towards their children have love not been a way of living by the children, as the word implies living in peace with oneself and one another and having compassion and care? Do we see this in the world at large, or are we going to continue sorting out little and very small incidents where some of us have had some intention of compassion in a small way or did some compassionate work here and there in the form of charity, to use that as a proof that we care and have compassion, when we are aware that in the greater scale of things, in the lives of ourselves as humanity, in the lives of the animals and plants, these little small contributions of compassion and care are nothing more than a "feel good experience" or to proof ones believe as it being something "good."?

Solutions:

All these manifestations of harm in some form or another are, if we are true to ourselves; manifestations of our own accepted and allowed mindset. We are seeing and going through consequences of accepting and allowing the fears we have within ourselves to take form and become real physical manifested forms in reality. Now these forms can be many forms, and this incident of what happened in France is just one of them, because the people that committed them were just like you and me, they also experienced hatred sometime in their lives and have decided to act on it, between me and you they are just the doers, but yet their starting point is the same. Thus it must be understood by all of us, that if we want to change the world, we must start by ourselves, changing ourselves one by one till all this is done, it may take time, but it will take less time than the time we have dedicated our lives accepting and allowing our status quo wherein the world is like it is right now with all of us here. Self-forgiveness is the tool here and this must be done in Self-honesty. We must stop at looking at problems and start looking at solutions and find ways to bring about these solutions and especially solutions that will benefit all life equally, not just the human life, but literally all life. Than and only than, words like: "respect, love, compassion,care," will have a practical meaning, where they are manifested in the way we live with each other and everything else and within the systems we will create.


Thanks.


Larry Manuela

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Day 330, Very Naughty Children??

I have recently found that my children have become very naughty children. They are out of control.
This bothers me a little because I am not there to really be of help and can't be there either. They live in another country.
The day the mother took that decision to leave with them, I already told her that, looking at how they were already behaving here, that things might get worse and whuala......this is exactly what happened.

I wanted to bring them here to me, but now that I know this I don't want to do this anymore, I have doubts about it, because I on my own have financial problems to cope with and then to have two children who don't listen and do what they find fit them best whatever that would mean, I don't want that.






                                                                   

So the question I ask myself is how am I going to take my self-responsibility towards myself and then to them, because this is not a simple challenge and no matter how I put it, I am responsible for them.

There are children that are "normal naughty" = they do kids stuff......but my children are beyond this.

My daughter is into boys right now, she is 14, but these boys are not just boys, they are sometimes man older man and I am talking about problematic boys/man.....street/ganster types. That is what she is attracted to, as most girls go through in their teenage years. She steals and love to bring trouble into peoples lives They're vengeful and want to make another pay all the time if they find the other hurt them either emotionally or physically.

My son is fighting continously at school just to be a bully and is contiously talking about wanting to kill people, and I am not talking about "kid stuff " here. He is 8 years old.


                                                       

I see that they have adopted within their lives all that are harmful towards themselves and others as themselves and brought it to an extreme level and live it out as if it is a normal thing to do and to be.

I am writing this, because I am aware that some people may have the assumption that this can be impossible and they are just kids doing kids stuff. If one was lucky enough to have children that are easy to talk to and they listen, then one can say it is just "kid stuff" but it is when one is really into the situation itself with kids that are already on the extreme end and  one have not gotten much of an influence in their lives that one will see that it is not as it can be with children that do listen more easily to their parents. So for those whom think/believe that this is just "kid stuff,"  and that the problem I am having with my children is just like any other parent in the world is having with their children, I can assure you it is not.

The worry I am having is how do I fix this problem when I myself is also having problems that have to do with money. Because by bringing them to me, means that I am going to be leaving them alone at home when I am working and cannot afford "babysitter" at the moment. And besides that---------- I work 3 shifts, thus they are going to be alone at nights and that would be a wonderful opportunity for my daughter to do whatever at home when I am not there.

So I can see that in this situation money also plays a very decisive role, because of lack of money I cannot make certain decisions well.
I am also aware that if I leave them there, they will be lost, and will be a challenge maybe to help them change themselves.




Self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about my children becoming very extreme naughty children that are out of control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like it is my fault that they have become this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that what is playing out in my life is the outcomes that I am experiencing in my life where I have not taken my self-responsibility as I should have done and also within this in the lives of the children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to blame myself and the mother for what is happening with the children.

I forgive mysellf that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel emotionally sad about the whole situation, because I am aware that I do not want them to get lost along the way and ruin their own lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it is my fault that they are the way they are and that it is my fault that they have made the decision to change themselves to be the way they have become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am too late to help them help themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the chance to really sit and have a look at what are the possibilities for me to take some kind of action that would result into that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the backchat: " I'm getting tired of this S***"  to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself because I am aware that because of not having enough money puts me in a position wherein I cannot do much to support the children as I would like to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that most people won't understand  the situation and will give some advise that most of the times can be applied only with children that do listen, that are doing just "kids stuff."


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people that do not have children that are extreme in a way of being naughty but do not appear like they are extreme, and that  these people will think and believe that what they apply with their children will work with my children to.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that most child psychologists have very nice theories but when it comes to the actual being in the moment with the child that does not listen the theory does not work and within this I feel like a little frustrated because I experience the psychologist then putting it on me that I must be doing something wrong in the application of the theory.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my own children to be very naughty without actually really be with them and live with them as they are now, because they are not living with me in this country.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear wanting to have them be with me, because I think and believe that I might fail, when the reality of the matter is they are not here, so how would I know if I would fail or not?


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if they were with me that they would not have turned into what they are now according to the stories I am hearing from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes experience a little bit of disgust to/towards people that say to me that they are lucky that their children turned out to be "good children," and that they don't have to go through all this that I am going through with mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when the people are telling me that they are lucky with their children turning out to be "good children," I am busy in my mind backchatting and saying to them in my mind: " are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very angry at people whom want to give me an advise that has to do with a future projection of positivity and telling me not to worry because everything is going to be alright, when I am aware that without me taking my responsibility to/towards my children and all children in this world and to do whatever it takes to make sure that the possibility exists that they will come to the realization for themselves that they have to choose life above anything and anyone else, would be a living  reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have memories of me being with my children and sometimes when they do not listen to me, that I have to raise my voice to go above their voice in order for them to then be quiet and listen to me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this.



more to come soon.........................


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day 298, Who am I in relationship with the word: "Animal." Part 13

Here in this blog I am continuing with the following word that I have placed in the first blog I have written and wherein I have placed a list of words for a start that I do not really understand as whom I am in my relationship with these words. To see the list and that post, see the link here:

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/02/day-286-what-is-understanding.html




So lets see what the dictionaries online have to say about this word:

                                                     

an·i·mal

 noun \ˈa-nə-məl\

: a living thing that is not a human being or plant

: any living thing that is not a plant

: a person who behaves in a wild, aggressive, or unpleasant way

Full Definition of ANIMAL

1

:  any of a kingdom (Animalia) of living things including many-celled organisms and often many of the single-celled ones (as protozoans) that typically differ from plants in having cells without cellulose walls, in lacking chlorophyll and the capacity for photosynthesis, in requiring more complex food materials (as proteins), in being organized to a greater degree of complexity, and in having the capacity for spontaneous movement and rapid motor responses to stimulation

2

a :  one of the lower animals as distinguished from human beings

b :  mammal; broadly :  vertebrate

3

:  a human being considered chiefly as physical or nonrational; also :  this nature

4

:  a person with a particular interest or aptitude <a politicalanimal>

5

:  matter, thing <the theater … is an entirely different animal— Arthur Miller>; also :  creature 1c

— an·i·mal·like adjective

 See animal defined for English-language learners »

See animal defined for kids »

As is written here in the defintions about what an animal is according to the observations by us the humans, and the giving of names to what we observe, I realize that that is basically what we do all the time, or have been doing throughout time, trying to understand what is here only through observation.

Now I am not saying that we should stop or whatever, but I am saying that we should be also trying to see directly at what is here without our minds trying to interpret what is here all the time for us. We do not see at all that the animals and everything else that is here is equal to us, their bodies are all composed from/of the same substance of the earth, just like us and they are alive because of life that is in them just like us. The only difference is in the designs. It's like having different kind of shoes, but SHOES is what all the kinds of shoes are. No matter what color they are and what size. They are designed to fit feets. Thus the animal may not be like the human in it's design, but they are equal in substance and equal in expressions of life as us. They ought to have the same right we have to express ourselves, but yet we humans because of our believes and our separation with everything and everyone, including ourselves within our own minds and bodies have come to see the animals as NOT equal to ourselves. And because of this we abuse them and murder them even more, for lots of lots of self-interest reasons. The  reality of the matter is; that we should be serving them, instead of trying to exterminate them, especially when we are destroying their living habitats and taking away what is here provided by nature for them to take care of themselves, because in our design we have been given more to work with then them. This does NOT make us more or less then them, it is just a matter of design. Let me repeat this. We are not more or less then the animals, we only differ in design and this difference in design does NOT make us more then them, does not give us the right to abuse them and harm them. Having certain capabilities because of ones design does not mean that one is better then those whom have other capabilities in their designs. If one have been given more to work with, one should be using that to support others that has less to work with within their designs.

Self-Forgiveness & Self-commitment statements:


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I was a child to kill certain wild animals as if their lives meant nothing and that they were like a disturbance to my life and the life of other human beings, or just because of wanting to kill something, thus therefore the wanting to kill and murdering them.

I realize that as a kid I have done terrible things to lots of wild animals without having any feelings whatsoever about their lives, and have incorporated this killing and murdering of animals through what I have seen within the culture I have been born into without ever questioning it, if this is what is best for the animals or not, and in reality it is NOT at all what is best for the animals.

Therefore, I commit myself to through writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life in self-honesty to investigate more deeply this murdering and killing of animals I used to do and to eredicate all traces of it within me, all the memories of it and continue on my path to become equal and one with all animals domestic and wild.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that animals are less then me thus giving myself the permission to abuse them based on this believe and use this believe to justify why I must kill them.

I realize that I have given myself  permission to kill animals through a investment in a believe that I have accepted and allowed to be part of my life without ever questioning the believe.

Thus within this, I commit myself to stop all believes that are still existent within me about not only thinking and believing that animals are less then me, but also about anything else, and change myself to be/become a human being that actually really care for all life on eath equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge  my life in comparison to that of the animals as having more value and worth to be here.

I realize that through the believes that I have accepted and allowed  from with the culture I was born into have made me come to treat the animals as having no value and worth for being here.

Therefore, I commit myself to stop all memories that I can find that still exist within regarding this point and forgive each till I am clear within myself about this point and make sure that I live to support the animals as my equal in worth as my equal in value and as my equal in expressing life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see in the past the killing and murdering of animals as something that is normal, because I have accepted and allowed what I was seeing in the culture I was born into as most people were doing it as if it is a norm.

I realize again that I have accepted lots of harming traits to be part of me through copying behaviours of other people like me within the culture I was born into as a form of a norm.

Therefore, I commit myself to eredicate all traits that are still maybe lingering within me as memories about this point of harming animals  as an accepted norm, till there exists no more traits and thus no more norms within me at all and that I transform all of it into real actual doing my best to live with all animals as my equal here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only have an understanding about animals through observation and never had a true direct understanding of them as my equal, and thus within this also accept and allow the observational understanding of the animals in the scientific communities as viable enough to understand the animals in fact, for real when this is not so.

I realize that because of my superficial and limited understanding of animals as in only observing them, opens the door to allowing abuse to be done to them, because in the observational understanding there is no direct seeing understanding, it is a understanding based on separation.

Therefore within this, I commit myself to little by little turn the limited understanding of what is here as observational understanding into direct seeing understanding till I stand within and as myself as an equal to all animals and thus have an trully in fact understanding as equal with the animals, and this can only happen through my self-introspection and self-investigation through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitments to life in self-honesty to stop and than change all memories that exist within me that limit me to not only see the animal as my equal but also live with the animal as my equal.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe in religious believes where I was told that animals are a form of a slave to me the human, and that I can enslave them to do whatever I want with them, either to eat them or to just have fun killing them or use them as entertainment for myself and others as myself.

I realize that because of my acceptance and allowance of religious believes in the past have contributed enormously to my treatement of the animals in my life, wherein I was more abusive to them then caring to them, especially the animals that are being labled as " wild animals."

Thus within this I commit myself to not only stop all traits of this believe that I have accepted and allowed in the past to be part of me and make sure that I transform it into a living application that will be what is best for the wild animals and all animals, that within my living with the animals I support them and serve them as my equal.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the animals by their design and see them as less then me because of certain design some of them have and also being jealous about some of them that have within their design some capabilities that I as a human does not have within my design, and that I would have liked to also have within my design.

I realize that I judge some animals when I see them having less capabilities within their design in comparison with mine and on the other hand, I become jealous of them when I see that they have certain capabilities that I have not within my design that I perceive and interpret as a great capability and that would give me an alteration within my design so I can feel powerful about myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life in self-honesty to go through all the comparisons I have accepted and allowed to be part of me that I use to empower myself in order to abuse other living expression on this planet and transform that into actual real infact practical support where empowerment becomes supporting solutions that will contribute to all the expression on planet earth to express themselves to their utmost potential, without harming and abusing them.




Self-Reward:

Within this writing I have come to see/realize and understand that I have done lots of harm in the past to wild animals and that exist still in me these memories that I have to delete within me so I can not only look at the animals as my equals but in fact treat and live with them as my equal and make sure that I support them as my equal and support all the groups of humans that are doing their best to come with practical solutions that are best for all animals.



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Larry Manuela

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