Day 349, Why do I allow limitation?

There has been these particular points about myself that I do allow to exist within me for either to not be in confrontational disputes or to not have to be not liked by others, or be hated by others, or someone that has to be avoided, because I will be seen as a " negative person." Understand that this finding me "a negative person," is just a label we place on people and if one really have a look at our world one can see that the reality out there is NOT positive. We can color it in all we want, but it is not going to magically change because we are a bunch walking along being all positive within our minds. If this was real, with all the positive religion explosion in this world that is going on, the world should have been extremely positive since the times of the Beatles, since the flower era. I am not looking for people to find me a "positive person" either, I am just telling the things as they are, not coloring them in, and if this makes me a "negative person," in people's eyes, it is their own judgment, has nothing to do with the reality that is a fact to be what we will term/interpret as: " bad/wrong/negative." The reality though is that our reality is harmful/destructive/abusive/unequal and these are labeled as "bad/wrong/negative." Here under this paragraph I place a picture that is fueling this dilemma, where with phrases like these people will always keep on brushing people away from them if they see that they are not agreeing with their positive bubble in their heads.

                                                                  

So I have a self-judgement that I fear that others might find me a "negative person," thus I shut up when it comes to the topic of what is going on in the world sometimes. What I did noticed though even within this fear, that when I do go into expressing myself for life, I am not fearful of wording what I'm  aware within myself to be common sense, and I talk loud and clear, and I am certain within myself about the points that I am busy conveying or bringing to the table as is being said.
As I have noticed and it is a fact, people do not like to hear these two words: " acceptance & allowance,"  because they know that these two words place them in a position where they have to take responsibility, and this word too is something most of us do not really want to engage into, especially when it comes to the responsibility to ALL LIFE.

The moment I say the world is the way it is, and not because of some politicians that are doing something or some elite somewhere is doing something, the world is how it is because we are the ones accepting and allowing all these things that we see as "bad/wrong/and negative" to continue  being here, being part of our reality.
We love to find someone else or a group to blame for what is happening, but the moment the blame is shifted and put upon us, ourselves, we want to push it away, and the "BUT's " will start to enter the conversations.

Of course in this world, you have in regards to what happens in the world two kinds of people, The ones that do actually DO something, either that something would be positive or negative, but they are the doers and we have those who just stand by....... the standbyers, the watchers.

Now the standbyers as I am calling us, which is the greater majority of us, which one can call the 99% of us in any particular country are the ones that will allow the 1% to do what they like, and we keep on blaming and blaming, criticizing them just because they are the doers. Maybe we secretly are jealous of them, because they actually DO what they say they will do, they are not just talkers, spewing verbal diarrhea. So even though the 1% is in their actions not doing what will be best for all, they do have the potential though to actually make things happen, meaning, they take action, something the 99% is lacking in extreme measures.
Now just imagine if the 99 % were the doers, all these things the 99% find that are "bad/wrong/negative" in their own lives, that they find the 1 % are doing to them, they themselves just make sure that these things will never happen again and go actually do it themselves, just take the stuff over and stop what is hurting us and change it? And when I say taking it over, I am NOT talking about taking it over by/through force or military force where people can get hurt and harmed, I am talking about taking it over by elections, making usage of direct democracy.
We are actually a humanity full of fears. We fear so much that we allow a 1% of us to put words on paper to actually bring harm instead of harmony, or put words on paper to enslave us, instead of freeing us, put words on paper to control us, put words on paper to tell us what to do and what not to do, limiting our participation in a world where all were born into freely in the same way as everybody else. Have you not noticed that the words on papers are all not words you directly participated in agreeing that they should be on paper or not? But yet here we are allowing all this stupidity to go on. Understand that words on their own are totally harmless, even the words that we have given to things that harm ourselves. It is us living what we believe these words to be, IS what is the problem and IS what is REALLY harmful.

Now let me tell you why that did not happen yet, and there were instances in  history when there were so called: "revolutions,"  but these revolutions were messy and were just a switching of powers, nothing really fundamentally changed, because we still did the same thing, allowing a little group to have the power over us, making decisions that influence our daily lives, and these decisions that are made are always only "good" for a few, these very few individuals that made the decisions, but never that we create a system that allow all of us to not only have a saying, like an opinion but that we literally all are corner stones of making decisions on behalf of all of us, thus that everyone participate in the decision making, because at the end of the day, what the 1% is making decisions about includes all of us, but they just make sure that they the 1% get more instead of making sure that everyone is equally provided for and we can start with the REAL living as a humanity on this planet.
So the reason all of this is going on is because we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves separation to exist, we do NOT see ourselves as equals for real yet. We may talk about it, but actually in fact see/realize and understand that we ARE equals, very very few people can see this and actually strife to bring about this equality that is here.
And this is the why we are still roaming around in this system of inequality, because within and as ourselves we are unequal. We are unequal in our thoughts/words and actions, thus this what we are within is being allowed outwardly too, as anyone in this world can clearly attest now in this era that is called: "information era."

In my next blog I will be working out the points mentioned in the beginning of this blog.


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Day 330, Very Naughty Children??

I have recently found that my children have become very naughty children. They are out of control.
This bothers me a little because I am not there to really be of help and can't be there either. They live in another country.
The day the mother took that decision to leave with them, I already told her that, looking at how they were already behaving here, that things might get worse and whuala......this is exactly what happened.

I wanted to bring them here to me, but now that I know this I don't want to do this anymore, I have doubts about it, because I on my own have financial problems to cope with and then to have two children who don't listen and do what they find fit them best whatever that would mean, I don't want that.






                                                                   

So the question I ask myself is how am I going to take my self-responsibility towards myself and then to them, because this is not a simple challenge and no matter how I put it, I am responsible for them.

There are children that are "normal naughty" = they do kids stuff......but my children are beyond this.

My daughter is into boys right now, she is 14, but these boys are not just boys, they are sometimes man older man and I am talking about problematic boys/man.....street/ganster types. That is what she is attracted to, as most girls go through in their teenage years. She steals and love to bring trouble into peoples lives They're vengeful and want to make another pay all the time if they find the other hurt them either emotionally or physically.

My son is fighting continously at school just to be a bully and is contiously talking about wanting to kill people, and I am not talking about "kid stuff " here. He is 8 years old.


                                                       

I see that they have adopted within their lives all that are harmful towards themselves and others as themselves and brought it to an extreme level and live it out as if it is a normal thing to do and to be.

I am writing this, because I am aware that some people may have the assumption that this can be impossible and they are just kids doing kids stuff. If one was lucky enough to have children that are easy to talk to and they listen, then one can say it is just "kid stuff" but it is when one is really into the situation itself with kids that are already on the extreme end and  one have not gotten much of an influence in their lives that one will see that it is not as it can be with children that do listen more easily to their parents. So for those whom think/believe that this is just "kid stuff,"  and that the problem I am having with my children is just like any other parent in the world is having with their children, I can assure you it is not.

The worry I am having is how do I fix this problem when I myself is also having problems that have to do with money. Because by bringing them to me, means that I am going to be leaving them alone at home when I am working and cannot afford "babysitter" at the moment. And besides that---------- I work 3 shifts, thus they are going to be alone at nights and that would be a wonderful opportunity for my daughter to do whatever at home when I am not there.

So I can see that in this situation money also plays a very decisive role, because of lack of money I cannot make certain decisions well.
I am also aware that if I leave them there, they will be lost, and will be a challenge maybe to help them change themselves.




Self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about my children becoming very extreme naughty children that are out of control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like it is my fault that they have become this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that what is playing out in my life is the outcomes that I am experiencing in my life where I have not taken my self-responsibility as I should have done and also within this in the lives of the children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to blame myself and the mother for what is happening with the children.

I forgive mysellf that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel emotionally sad about the whole situation, because I am aware that I do not want them to get lost along the way and ruin their own lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it is my fault that they are the way they are and that it is my fault that they have made the decision to change themselves to be the way they have become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am too late to help them help themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the chance to really sit and have a look at what are the possibilities for me to take some kind of action that would result into that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the backchat: " I'm getting tired of this S***"  to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself because I am aware that because of not having enough money puts me in a position wherein I cannot do much to support the children as I would like to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that most people won't understand  the situation and will give some advise that most of the times can be applied only with children that do listen, that are doing just "kids stuff."


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people that do not have children that are extreme in a way of being naughty but do not appear like they are extreme, and that  these people will think and believe that what they apply with their children will work with my children to.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that most child psychologists have very nice theories but when it comes to the actual being in the moment with the child that does not listen the theory does not work and within this I feel like a little frustrated because I experience the psychologist then putting it on me that I must be doing something wrong in the application of the theory.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my own children to be very naughty without actually really be with them and live with them as they are now, because they are not living with me in this country.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear wanting to have them be with me, because I think and believe that I might fail, when the reality of the matter is they are not here, so how would I know if I would fail or not?


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if they were with me that they would not have turned into what they are now according to the stories I am hearing from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes experience a little bit of disgust to/towards people that say to me that they are lucky that their children turned out to be "good children," and that they don't have to go through all this that I am going through with mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when the people are telling me that they are lucky with their children turning out to be "good children," I am busy in my mind backchatting and saying to them in my mind: " are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very angry at people whom want to give me an advise that has to do with a future projection of positivity and telling me not to worry because everything is going to be alright, when I am aware that without me taking my responsibility to/towards my children and all children in this world and to do whatever it takes to make sure that the possibility exists that they will come to the realization for themselves that they have to choose life above anything and anyone else, would be a living  reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have memories of me being with my children and sometimes when they do not listen to me, that I have to raise my voice to go above their voice in order for them to then be quiet and listen to me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this.



more to come soon.........................


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Day 260, The '' THEY and THEM '' vs the '' ME and WE/US '' Part- 5

So i am now moving into working out the next dimension, which is going to be the Reaction-Dimension.

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Reaction-Dimension:



***   Feeling a little anxiety when talking about the ''them'' as in; the ones that have control in the world system

***  Feeling a sense of nervousness when having a look at what ''they'' think/belief against what factually is going on and that ''they'' most of the times if not ALL of the time; choose their thoughts and beliefs above the facts of LIFE.

***  I have anxiety reaction when i see ''they/them'' talking about things as war, as if it is a ''normal'' thing and very much something that MUST take place.




Self-Forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety when talking about ''them'' as in; the ones that have control in the world system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety when talking about ''them,'' because i can see within and as the world system that those whom are in control of it, are using it to abuse and to harm LIFE in all kinds of ways.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let anxiety for/about ''them'' within and as my mind to exist and in this way obstruct me from seeing reality for what it is right here and to do what is best for all life in each moment.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see/realize/understand that anxiety can only exist when there is fear within and as me as my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blind myself with and within anxiety in order to not see the fear that is behind it, that i really need to STOP within and as me, as the mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feeling a sense of nervousness when having a look at what ''they'' think/belief against what is factually going on, and that ''they'' most of the times if NOT all of the times; choose their thoughts and beliefs above the facts of LIFE.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see/realize/understand that i too, am NOT looking at the facts of LIFE in each moment of breath, right HERE.


I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to within those whom i call; ''they,'' that they are showing me the whom and what i accept and allow myself and others as myself to be in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge ''they'' without seeing/realizing/understanding, that judging ''they,'' is judging myself, because when i am judging another or even myself it is within and as ME that judgement is existent and not in the other i am busy judging.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a reaction of anxiety when i see ''they/them'' talking about things as war, as if it is a ''normal'' thing and very much something that must take place.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not stand within and as war as to understand it completely and in this matter i can direct this point within and as myself and within and as this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see that i am part of humanity that sees war as ''normal,'' and therefore do not stand up and really END all wars forever more.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame those whom are sending people to war or are willingly wanting to participate and are killing others in war as the reason war exist, when in reality the war starts within myself as the frictions/conflict that are within and as myself as my mind consciousness system that make way for the war outside to manifest, therefore making me and all mankind responsible for any war that goes on within and as this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for letting ar exist within and as me and thus; within and as this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see war as something ''bad,'' without seeing/realizing/understanding, that seeing war as something ''bad'' is just an interpretation of me as my mind consciousness system playing out the program of the ''good vs evil,'' wherein the ''bad,'' that which is  the way of evil must be fought and destroyed in whatever means thus perpetuating and making sure that war continues in the world outside, because inside equals outside, and outside equals inside.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to project ''good vs evil'' outside myself and think and belief that what i interpret as ''evil'' in my mind must then be destroyed in the world outside, because apperently that which is bad is evil and must be eradicated.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that to see ''they'' as the ones doing the ''bad'' thing, either ''they'' actually are doing it or not, STILL makes me responsible for all that happens HERE in this world because i am part of this world as all other creatures that share this world together with me. It is OUR home, not MY home.



Self-Commitment Statements:


When and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into anxiety when talking about ''they,''  I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy as the mind consciousness system.


I realize that i create anxiety within and as my mind in order for me to not put myself in a place of responsiblity to what i can see clearly already that is unacceptable in this world, and then based on this project it on the ''they,'' so leaving me as Self out, then it looks like i am the one free of responsibility, when in reality i am responsible because i am HERE.

Therefore, I commit myself to STOP anxiety within myself everytime it arises and investigate  it/have self-introspection through my writing of Self-forgiveness in Self-honesty to see how i created myself to respond in such a irresponsible manner and understand that which is anxiety completely so i can be free of/from anxiety.

when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into initiating anxiety within me to reach a certain level of fear within me, I STOP----------take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that i am using anxiety as a pretext to stay within and as certain levels of fear, or that generate fear, so fear can continue having its existence within and as me, as the mind consciousness system, perpetuating within this the fear that it exists within all of humanity within and as this world.


Therefore, I commit myself to make sure that i take little by little, step by step these anxieties that pop up within and as my mind consciousness system, to find out through my writing of Self-forgiveness in Self-honesty to find out where they come from and which specific fear they belong to, so i can stop myself as this fear and delete this fear together with the personality/character that holds the fear as its weapon within and as my mind and act as me in my behalf.


When and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into feelings of nervousness about others as myself, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and continue focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that i get this nervous reaction within me when i interpret within and as my mind that ''they,'' only go for their belief and thoughts and not for the facts as how things really function in this physical world.

Therefore, I commit myself to make sure to pay very good attention to my own reactions and then stop myself through my writing of Self-forgiveness in Self-honesty wherein i  based these reactions within my interpretations that might or might not be so in reality and just look at the facts of what is being presented within and as this world as it factually happened or is happening, because when the fact is HERE, then it is not a judgement nor an interpretation but an actual occurence of what happened or is happening.


When and as i see myself going into or about to go into judging ''they,'' to immediately STOP and take a deep breath or many deep breaths if the judgements doesn't stop, till i am clear and stable HERE, and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that i am judging ''they'' when it is because what is existent in the world is also my responsibility and i am trying to put it on someone else, acting as IF it is only their responsibility and not mine, when it is also mine,because i am equally responsible for everything that happens here in this world wether directly or indirectly.

Therefore, I commit myself to always bring my judgement of others to myself to look at what is acceptable or not acceptable and what is not what is BEST for all life and if these are not clearly understandable within myself to use my writing of Self-forgiveness and my commitment to LIFE in Self-honesty to investigate within myself why it is i am not understanding my own judgements and what it is i am trying to protect in Self-interest and to bring it HERE for me to face it within/as myself.

When and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into seeing something as ''bad'' to immediately STOP within this mind participation, and take a deep breath and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that i am seeing something as ''bad'' to keep the program as ''good vs evil'' alive within and as my mind consciousness system, where judgements and justifications and blame, frustration,anger can all mixed with each other and create a wonderful energy mix which is nothing else but abusing my human physical body.

Therefore, I commit myself to throuhg my writing of Self-forgiveness and my commitments to LIFE, to make sure that it becomes clear to me when i SEE something, i see it for what it is as fact without mind interpertrations as in ''bad'' for example and then base on the fact i can direct me in my decision in a moment to choose what will be BEST for LIFE.


When and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into my mind interpretation of what ''evil'' is I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE, till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that i am using the word ''evil'' to come to the conslusion that it is something that must be destroyed and then based on this mind interpretation of what i have defined the word ''evil'' to be, i then project this into the world and then think and belief that it must be destroyed outside too in the world, what i myself will interpret as whati will see as ''evil'' outside.

For this, I commit myself to investigate the word ''evil'' wtihin and as myself and its opposite and polarity to really really understand it through my writing of Self-Forgivenes and my commitment to LIFE in order to end it within and as me.




Self-Reward:


Within this writing i have seen how i am wasting my time focusing on the ''they'' outside myself in judgement and blame instead of bringing to myself as what i see in common sense that is happening in this world that can be what is BEST for all LIFE to myself that which will be BEST in order for me to be able to give as what i have received myself to give to all of LIFE equal to/as LIFE itself have given to me as itself which is itself as LIFE.




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Day 237, Contemplating for Contemplation Sake or Not? Part 3

Now continuing to the next dimension.

In this post i will take on the Imagination Dimension.

Now, before i start on this journey of working out this dimension, i leave a little bit of what i wrote in the previous post here:


Self-Reward:



I see within this writing that i am trying to protect my Self-interest in the form of/as '' my upbringing/my culture'' in order to NOT have to face what these '' my upbringing/ my culture'' have as consequences within my own LIFE and also LIFE of others that i will interact with or communicate with. Therefore now that i can see this, i can gift myself the gift to pay attention to my words and to look at what reaction comes up within me where there is an indication that i might be proptecting these believes/concepts within myself to then immediately stop participating in them and IF they do NOT stop, i will make sure i continue digging to find the core of this fear, till i root it out completely within and as myself.




Problem:


Imagination-Dimension:


*** imagining myself using her stuff in my own way, but then her not liking me using it in my own way, because it interferes with her own way of using her own stuff.

*** imagining leaving her stuff behind like she wouldn't like it, and then have to hear from her that she doesn't like it the way i left it behind


*** imagining going into her fridge to get something to eat, but not knowing what to eat, because maybe the thing i want to eat and if there is enough of it is just for one person, thus i can't eat it, it is hers, and if i eat it, i then ate what she liked, and then i will feel bad about myself that i have eaten the last piece of what she liked.


*** imagining using the wrong cooking pan to cook something with, because she maybe/possibly use it for cooking but only cooks certain/specific foods with it, and NOT what i may be intending to cook with it.





Solutions:




Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagining myself using her stuff in my own way which in turn will interfere with her own way of using her own stuff, which within myself i see as a point ofconflict/friction, thus i avoid using her stuff and just wait at specific times or oportunities to make sure that when i use her stuff it will be in the ''right'' way, thus the way that she might approve it is the ''right'' way to use her own stuff.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place my own judgement on what she will like or not like instead of focusing on, if what i will do will be BEST for me and for her when in this specific point of using her stuff.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let myself give in, into my fear of maybe/possibly getting into conflict/friction IF i am to use her stuff in a way that she will NOT approve.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear Conflict/Friction and due to this fear avoid possible scenario's where Conflict/Friction can derive from it, and just play it safe.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to play it safe to avoid Conflict/friction, when in this case these Conflict/Frictions if they were to appear will only show me the whom i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become that is NOT the being that roam the earth as this Human Physical Form/Body, but just an entity of my own making in my mind.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine myself leaving her stuff behind like she wouldn't like it and then have to hear from her that she didn't like it, like i left it behind, confirming in this way that i fear being found faulty, or fear having to NOT do something right as in being incapacitated.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the fears of '' being found faulty/NOT being able to do something right/being incapacitated,'' to exist within me as me as the mind as energy and that then controls my own decision making in how to move and act in a moment, wherein i will choose to better NOT to take action.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to link ''taking action'' to the fears of: '' being found faulty/NOT being able to do something right/being incapacitated,'' to take hold of me and thus influence my decision making in a moment to move myself and take action.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine myself going into her fridge to get something to eat, but not knowing what to eat, because maybe the thing i want to eat and if there is enough of it is just for one person, thus i can't eat it, it is hers, and if i eat it, i then ate what she liked, and then i will feel bad about myself that i have eaten the last piece of what she liked.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have this imagination of eating what i think/belief might be her last piece of whatever that she have left, just because i have the ''what if?'' attached to it, and this is: '' what if it is the last piece of food that she can buy for this week, or what if she doesn't have more money for food for the rest of the week to come and i eat this last piece?


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to due to my own Self-judgement within myself have made me make the decision to better NOT go there, because i might interfere with her survival, in this case the food she buy for herself to eat.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have this imagination( myself going into her fridge to get something to eat, but not knowing what to eat, because maybe the thing i want to eat and if there is enough of it is just for one person, thus i can't eat it, it is hers, and if i eat it, i then ate what she liked, and then i will feel bad about myself that i have eaten the last piece of what she liked,) existing within me when i in reality did not even went into her fridge at all.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to avoid going into her fridge just because i have accepted and allowed a belief system related to ''my upbringing/my culture'' to stand in the way, where i only see all the ''negative outcomes'' that can derive from such involvement or such action.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my superimposed belief system as ''my upbringing/my culture,'' to avoid ''the negative'' at all times and look only for '' the positive'' at all times, because of the acceptances and allowances that ''the positive'' will lead to ''good deeds.''


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine using the wrong cooking pan to cook something with, because of what i think/belief that she might be using it for cooking, but cooking for only certain/specific foods only, and NOT what i may be intent to cook with it.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have this comparisson within my mind existing of her using her cooking pan for only certain/specific food, because i have been through that myself where people will use some of their cooking pans they have for only to cook certain/specific foods and do NOT like it at all IF someone were to cook what is NOT to be cooked within this pan that they have decided that they are going to cook only certain/specific foods with.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to based my whole reality in a moment of living HERE to a memory within and as my mind, that is only focused on a ''negative outcome.'' 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to even rely on my memories instead of me BEING HERE within and as my Breath and my Human Physical Body/Form as one as equal as LIFE.


I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that to live according to memories within me, is me living according to the past and not Living as LIFE HERE.


I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to trade in LIFE HERE, for memories within and as my mind.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put value within and as my mind as the possible outcomes that i see within my mind as the memories of ''possible negative outcomes'' that exist within me as me as the mind as energy and choose them instead of Living HERE within and as my Breath and my Human Physical Body/Form.



Self-commitment statements:



I realize that i avoid using her stuff and just wait at specific times or oportunities to make sure that when i use her stuff it will be in the ''right'' way, thus the way that she might approve it is the ''right'' way to use her own stuff, thus within this i Commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into attempting to use her stuff, because of my own self-created believes within and as myself as my mind CONsciousness system, I STOP--------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure i Remain HERE within and as my breath focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and then out of this clarity and stability i move or take action and IF it is something i just don't know how to use it or if it is o.k. to use it, i just ask her.


I realize that i focus on what she might like or not like instead of me being HERE focusing on me being HERE and doing what will be BEST for me and and then also for, because eventually it is her stuff that i am about to use, thus within this i commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into focusing what she might or might not like about using her stuff, I STOP------------------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure i focus on my breathing and remind myself that this what i am participating in, is just a mind-fuck, that it is NOT what is HERE, and thus i do NOT participate in what is NOT HERE as physically manifested as being REAL, and continue focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and then from this clarity and stability i then move or take action that will be coming from me being HERE within and as my Breath and my Human physical Body/Form, one and equal.


I realize that i play it safe where i see that a possibility for Conflict/Friction scenario can derive out of it from the point of view of my Mind CONsciousness System in relation to what i have accepted and allowed to be there as Memories within and as it, therefore I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into using my memories to play it safe within a moment to avoid Conflict/friction based on what i see/perceive/view/interpret within and as my Mind CONsciousness System, I immediately STOP,------------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure i focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable from any energy movemen within me, and then from this clarity and stability of NO energy movement i move/walk/take action as me just being HERE within and as my Human Physical Body/Form.


I realize that i have created an Entity within myself that i accepted and allowed to make decisions on my behalf in accordance to what this Entity interpret as what could be Conflict/Friction IF i were to engage within the action/movement related to past memories of what went Wrong/bad in similar scenarios, thus within this I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into comparissons within my Mind CONsciousness System with the memories placed there, I STOP--------------------- take a deep breath and make sure i focus on my breathing and do NOT let myself get carried away within and as my Mind CONsciousness System with its memories and make sure that my attention is focused on my breathing and my Human Physical Body/Form and to make sure i hold my hands together to remind me that i am HERE and then when i am clear and stable and can then move and take action(s) out of this clarity and stability.


I realize that based on my reasoning and findings within myself as my Mind CONsciousness System as the Memories that exists within it as me as energy, i make decisions, thus I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into making decisions based on what is existent within me as memories, I STOP--------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as Energy and then from this point of clarity and stability i make my decision that will be a decision based on my Self-Will and my Self-directiveness.



I realize that based on my own Self-judgement i avoid doing something, in this case avoiding going in her fridge, to choose what i can eat, just because i think/belief that what i might want to eat and IF i find that only very little is left and i eat it, then i ate her very last piece and that to me is NOT a good thing to do, so within this I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into avoidance of doing something or taking an action in this case in regards to her food that she have brought for herself, i just Ask her if it is o.k. or not, and that is it, instead of letting myself being a slave of my own memories of apparent Conflict/Friction that can maybe/possibly come into being, thus i make sure that i do NOT participate and give attention IF these imaginations were to pop-up within me and make sure i focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and then out of this clarity and stability i move/walk/take action and do What will be BEST in that particular moment or instant.


I realize that due to my acceptance and allowance of ''my upbringing/my culture,'' i only see the outcomes within my mind as what can go wrong, and thus making the same choice over and over always to make sure that what i interpret within my mind as a ''negative outcome,'' is always to be avoided, for i DO NOT want/wish an ''negative outcome.'' Thus within this, I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into making decisions link to ''my upbringing/my culture,'' to immediately STOP------------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE within and as my Breath and my Human Physical Body/Form, and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and then out of this clarity and stability I move and take action and make a decision, that will be BEST, and to make sure that the decision i make is really what is BEST, i ask her what is her perspective on the decision, because i can make a decision, but it doesn't necessarily mean that it will also be what is BEST for her too, and IF it is NOT the BEST the decision, then we can workout an agreement on what will be BEST for both of us in regards to this particular point.


I realize that due to my accepted and allowed superimposed belief system imprinted within me, I tend to look only at things within my LIFE that can lead to an Positive Outcome, according to what my Mind CONsciousness System interpret/see/view as ''Positive,'' because in my Mind CONsciousness System that which is ''Positive'' can lead to that which is ''good deeds.'' Thus within this I commit myself to when and as in see myself going into or i am about to go into having interpretations/views/what i see according to my Mind CONsciousness System, I STOP------------------------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure i focus on my breathing and don't let myself be fooled by placing my attention to/towards what is within my Mind CONsciousness System as Memories, as the Past, and a Past that is a LIE too, because with all the Positive in this world, still the Negative is HERE and is the MOST obvious and the one that is the reason why the other is being seeked and believed, thus i keep on focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and then from this clarity and stability I move and take action devoid of energy fluctuations within myself as myself as the mind as energy.


I realize that i let my decision making be influenced by a simple thing like: '' what to cook in a cooking pan,'' just because of what i have as memories within me, either from my own or of what i have seen, that turned out to have an Negative outcome. Thus within this I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into letting myself be controlled by my own memories with its ''Negative outcome,'' I just STOP my participation in it and make sure i take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE, till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and then from this clarity and stability, i then move and take action, devoided/absent of/from past memories full of Negative outcomes.



Self-Reward:


Within this blog i have seen/realized/understood that i am using my imagination linked to memories that are functioning as protection of ''my upbringing/my culture'' and thus i make sure that i do NOT make choices that will compromise this Belief-System within and as myself. Thus hereby now that i see what i accept and allow within and as myself i am now able to STOP my participation when similar situation will come up again, so i can then gift myself the gift to stop myself in participating and correct myself in that moment, instead of trying to keep on holding on to a Superimposed BeLIEf-System that have nothing to do with Reality at all.





Thanks.



Larry Manuela

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Day 182, The Good And The Bad Of Being Selfish.

Many of us when we look at the word selfish, we take the negative part of it, or the part that is so-called: ''bad.''   We are NOT looking at the positive part of it, the ''good'' part of selfishness which is still just selfishness no matter what. Thus being selfish does NOT change wether one is positive or negative about it in ones living.  Many people if one is to say to them that they are as selfish as anyone else, will immediately feel attacked personally, and will say: '' i am NOT selfish..!! ''   



Now for this to be clear, i am going to use examples, and you the reader will see for yourself that the selfishness stays the same no matter what action you're taking either it being a positive or a negative action, the outcome for your experience within yourself is the same, the same purpose. It is about the person always choosing to care only for him/herself.




The positive examples of being selfish:



**  doing ones job to get ones money, even though in the system the money is necessary, but it is only ones money, it is NOT the person working for the support of all of humanity for example with him/herself included.  Herein many will defend themselves with the whole taxes thing. Many believe that because they are paying taxes they are supporting humanity or at least the ones in their country, so that should be more then enough, thus they are NOT selfish because they are paying taxes, meaning they are allowing taxes to be cut from their salaries, so they are giving------- which behind this lies another thing that many won't say, the point of thinking/believing it is their money they worked for, thus if they are letting the government taking a little bit from them, they should be considered understandable people or people whom care, but do they really..?? The reality is; one would rather have all the money for oneself because there is this brainwashing that it is the money one worked hard for, so all of it should be for oneself. The more the better isn't it...???  This point can be justified in many ways, but the bottom line as one can see which is ''being selfish'' stays the same.



**  Falling in love and being in love is another one, a big one for many. But many don't see that the whole experience of love they are going through is only their own, only the person that is going through this love is experiencing this feeling of love, the other they are having a feeling about is NOT going through what they are going through at all. And in this experience it is being assumed and more so demanded, that the other person must continue doing or being whom they are as one have fallen for them, thus remain like this for  one to continue going through the feeling of love in oneself alone. One cannot give this love to NO-one. It only makes one manipulative to get more of it by using some tactics to keep on having the other do the same things they do that makes one experience this feeling. Thus the moment the other changes one will have problems, because the other is not anymore what one needs in order to get the engine of generating all these wonderful feelings of love within oneself, and in this the arguments will start and the questions, because one will start to doubt that the one that is telling one that he/she loves one is not being the one that he/she used to be that make one produced so much feelings of love.  So herein as you can see selfishness plays a role again as always.

                                                                      


** Giving alms to poor people. Within this is again about how one feels about oneself and the level of self-importance that one gets, because oneself is thinking/believing that this is a ''good thing to do''  that one is a ''good person''   and a ''good person'' is acceptable mostly everywhere. This may look like one cares, but the reality is; that it is to feel good only about oneself doing these things. Some people even say it, that they do it, because it makes them FEEL so good doing some work of compassion according to them, but yet.............are you seeing these people making sure that poverty is prevented so it never exists....??   This would be real care...!!  So now poverty have to exists for all these people that would LOVE to feel good about themselves, to go and try to help some poor people here and there and see themselves as individuals whom are at least ''doing something about the problem''    But they don't see/realize/understand that they are actually SUPPORTING the very problem by doing what they see as ''being good''  ''care about another''  ''having compassion about another''. And herein again one can see the selfishness, it all about the ME, the I.  Because when one does this it is only  oneself that will go through the experience of feeling good about ones action taken in the helping the poor, because helping the poor is a ''positive movement'' something ''good.''

                                                              


**  If one is a owner of a company and one is providing work for many people one will look at this as '' being a good action/deed'' in the confines of this system, because in this system it is accepted and allowed by US that only through work one is capable legally to get a little money, that is NEVER enough to meet all the basic survival needs for the body to stay healthy and functions to its optimum, to live a dignified life. As owner one will be the one that gets MORE money and will become rich using on the backs of the ones working for one. The idea of becoming an owner of a company was not because one wanted to support LIFE with an idea, oh no, it was solely to make MONEY, and who wants to make lots of money..??  The one that will be the owner..!!  See again self-interest steps in.


                                                  

                                                                


And as we can see in these positive examples all these positive actions lead to a negative outcome. Thus selfishness is EVIL, and have always an outcome that is NOT what is BEST for all, and what is NOT BEST for all is always EVIL. The world is THE proof of this, everyone claims they are NOT selfish but yet what is BEST for all is NONE existent..!!



Now we move to the negative ones. These are easy to recognise, since everyone can see them.



The negative examples of being selfish:


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      Having a piece of chocolate and not wanting to share with ones brother or sister.


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    Having a car and wanting no-one else to drive it but oneself alone.


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   If there is money to be shared one always want more then the rest.



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    Being jealous of ones partner, because one believes ones partner is ones property, someone one owns. In other words ''love'' is something one have to own.


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       Wanting/wishing to own piece of land to say it is MINE..?!!





So we can continue mentioning many of these negative ones, but these are easy to see as i already mentioned, because these are the only ones most people see as when the word SELFISHNESS comes to mind. It is being seen only as in the negative sense. Never seeing/realizing/understanding that being selfish is in both of them and it is always with the same outcome what is BEST for oneself alone, it is NEVER what is BEST for all. Understand that what is BEST for all have never ever been considered, let alone to be LIVED by all practically/factually..!!



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