Day 387, Lost at sea.

I have been, for a very long time now lost at sea, as I placed it here in my heading. Lost on this vast ocean with no horizon in sight, no land to set foot on. In my little boat, being rocked and carried away by the wind and the ocean currents. May I reach land or may I not? I ask. Is the question intended to just question myself alone or is the question intended to practically move, take a stand, to set foot on land.                                                                     

                                                           
Now, even in my lostness I can still not, NOT see me. I cannot hide me, I cannot put me aside. Me is here for me to see. Lost at sea, metaphorically speaking cannot make me loose sight of me. I am always here seeing what I am doing, what I am accepting and allowing within and as myself.

But seeing me and not applying me, correcting me as I drift along will certainly not prepare me, when my little boat crashes on the rocks of the land. Shreaded boat and broken body is all that will be left scattered around.

So, what have I been doing all this time?

Well very busy I would say, compromising myself, however yet also deep inside being aware that I am just fooling myself, slowing myself down.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to devorce myself from myself, from my process of walking myself back to HERE, forgiving me and being here in every moment of breath, walking my talk, and taking my self-responsibility to myself and all as myself as life, equal as one as all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself and to participate into the virtual reality of sexual distractions in this world, on the internet, separating myself from myself within the truth of myself wherein I see, realize and understand what I am accepting and allowing myself to particpate in and act upon delibertaly for my own self-gratification and self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate women on the internet to participate with me in my own seeking of self-gratification and self-interest and use the point of them volenteering to participate with me within it all as a justification so I can continue with my own self-interest and self-gratification I want and desire of them, being perfectly aware that I need their permission to do so, thus manipulating myself to manipulate them into making sure they give me the permission I need from them in order to get what I want and need and desire from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always prepare myself, before I start with visiting the websites I participate in, seeing/realizing and understanding how I am manipulating myself into making this whole sexual virtual reality thing a ritual and thus a pattern, feeling myself getting all excited because of myself knowing that I am soon to embark on these website and meet with " like-minded" people again, to engulf myself into this whole mind fuck.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to secretly wish I could meet one of these ladies in real life so I can do all these wonderful lusty things we say to each other on the internet.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to focus more on the young ladies, because I have noticed that there is a change that happened within the system in terms of people lusting more and more and the young ones,are more and more, more freely emersing themselves into this on the internet, because just like me, they too see the easiness in having sexual  mind games on the internet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get myself extremely horny before I even get on these websites.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at the little bio's and accept and allow good judgement to exist within me in context to what I believe this particular lady would want to say or do on the internet, and if she would want to do that with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put on a personality or character I believe they would want to speak with or chat with in accordance to their specific desire/ sexual fantasy and that would satsify in turn my own sexual desire purely based on energy, with mixture of desires to want it to also happen in real life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always chat with these ladies with the desire to meet them in real life in the back of my mind, which is the real desire I have, and that I only use the website to see if I can get one to go that far with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find this chasing after ladies on the internet such a trill, just because I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to maybe/possibly get a chance to get the real deal in real life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get very excited when I get a lady to move from the main sex chat webbsite to go with me on SnapChat, which means I am now in accordance to my mind consciousness system, much closer to my target, which is to be able to get to have a chance in the real physical world, doing all these fantasies for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get even more excited when the lady is from the same country that I am in right now, making myself think and belief that because of that, I might be able to score a chance to meet them much easier.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spent lots of time on the internet chasing my sexual desire, abdicating my responsibility to myself and to all of life as equal as one as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly and deliberately let my guard down so to speak in order to procrastinate more and more, and finding ways to come up with excuses and justification to protect my procrastination.


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Day 383, day 4 of SF on aloneness

Within this blog,  I am going to do self forgiveness on what I wrote about in the previous blog.





                                                                               

                                                                                

Self forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still be sexually very energetically busy and that I keep on finding ways to keep on, with the keeping on of engaging in energetic mind sex, with this, accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself in relation to how I have define sex for myself within myself and through what I have done in conjunction with how I have defined sex for myself and outwardly live it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept from myself that it is totally o.k. to have sex with anyone that is a woman or looks a lot like a woman, because using them is where I will feed my sexual energy, always looking and paying attention to what they say in order to find a point of weakness where I can commence and eventually get into the sexual talk and see where they are within it and from there build on that little point, till they break/accept the invitation, which is actually a manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very manipulative when it comes to sex with women and try and justify it, just because the women give me their permission to do so, however even though I am aware that without their permission there will be no sex talk or anything sexual, I am also aware that I manipulate them in order to get their permission, I have become a permission seeker freak, to use it to work for me, in order to satisfy my energetic mind sexual energy.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that in trying to manipulate others to have sex with me in any form or any other way or shape,  to satisfy my mind sexual energy, is actually me giving in into the programming I have created within and as myself as mind sexual energy seeker, depending on another for my mind sexual need of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing this mind sex energy that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do  whatever it takes to make sure I am always vigilant in bringing about ways to get into this mind sex energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly groom this energy within me, creating within me experiences of feeling alone, just to make sure I go and do something about it outwardly that will have me satisfying this mind sex energy I have created myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do whatever it takes to make sure that my self-created mind sex energy is always, when it comes to relationships with women I find attractive,  to be the first thing to be triggered within me in order to give value to what I am seeing outwardly that coincide with what I have accepted and allowed within myself as what I need in order to experience this mind sex energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as this mind sex energy as all that I am now,  without seeing, realizing, and understanding how and why I created myself within and as this mind sex energy in order to stop and change what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge this mind sex energy as something bad, wrong and negative however yet not making a clear decision about what I see and judge myself as bad,wrong and negative in order to find out about how I created it to stop myself, to first release myself from it and to then redefine for myself how I should be living in a way that does not bring harm to myself or abuse to myself, nor to others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stand within and as the harm and abuse that I am standing within and as- as separation within and as myself as an example in this world through projecting this separation I am within outwardly, to and towards people and things, so that the separation within me continues to exist as what I have accepted and allowed as me - as if it is not coming from me or lives within me, when even though I am aware that only I experience my inner experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and justify certain harms and abuse as less worse than others, forgetting at all that abuse is abuse, and always have an outcome as consequence that is equal to what it is and represent through and via me and all humans in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself a lot when it comes to mind sex energy, giving in into it and giving up on my process of being and becoming equal and one within and as the physical here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the giving in, into mind sex energy, because I am aware of the addiction I have created within and as myself to and towards this mind sex energy I indulge within and as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and justify for myself that there is nothing " wrong" with this indulging within and as this mind sex energy, meanwhile being aware that it is not what is best for me nor what is best for all of LIFE.


To be continued.......................


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Larry Manuela

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Day 377. Why Is GIVING Such a Problem For us The Humans?

Many of us humans, know that we have a problem with giving. We have created a society where if one is in the act of giving, it is being seen as a abnormality, something outside the norms, and we have managed to change the word; giving in some cases and call it charity, as if when one do this charity,  it is seen as an act of being noble and even an act of caring.

       

As one can see that which we have given other names to, is so, so we can see ourselves as beings that are caring, is actually telling us something about the way we live, the way we have come to shape our societies, where the act of giving is not a norm, has become something we do once in awhile in order to feel good about ourselves, because deep down we are aware that the way our societies are shaped is not healthy and goes against the nature of life on this earth, which is TO GIVE!!

Our foods are a gift
Our bodies are a gift
Our earth is a gift
All the resources we use to built and create things with in this world are gifts of LIFE.
Our breath is a gift
Life itself is a gift

Have a look. Do we pay the foods we eat? Do we pay the earth for the body it gives us to express within and as? Do we pay the Sun and Moon?  Do we pay the air we breathe? Do we pay the water itself we drink and wash ourselves with? Do we pay the resources we use? Do we pay life ?  Whom do we pay? Is it not the humans we are paying with the fruits of our labors and the fruits of our talents? Why does the human believe so much so that it even went as far as creating a system wherein it needs to be paid because it has contributed to something? Why is contributing to society not a gift, but something that one rather be paid for? Why do we see giving as something weak and not valuable and in some cases even wrong when everything we need that we are using in this world is a gift to us?

Life support itself through all that it is through giving.

Now we are going to school to study something, because we have made of our lives something that needs to be paid for. Everyone is doing something in order to get paid, and with getting paid, I do not necessarily mean; getting money, however the fact that one thinks and believe that one needs to "get" something because one have done something, contributed to something, this pattern is related to wanting/wishing to be special.
The idea of wanting to be special have brought lots of problems we now face in this world.
The whole wanting to be better than others in whatever, or thinking and believing that one is more than others or has more value than others stems from this want, this wish, this desire to be special.
As we can clearly see specialness can only exist in separation, and not in Equality and Oneness of life HERE. Specialness is conflict and friction, not necessarily something that is " bad/wrong/negative," however something that requires energy to exist, it cannot exist HERE in Breath, in effortless flow of life as Equality and Oneness.

Thus the solution to our problem as humanity is to start living the word: " GIVING." Enough with living the word: " PAYING!!"  Enough with living the word: " SPECIAL!!"


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Day 361, The anger that consumes me, Part 2

O.k. Here I am with the continuation of the blog that I wrote before this one,  For context, I suggest to read that one here if one will here.

This where I left off in previous blog:



" When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into reacting against something in anger within my mind consciousness system, I stop................take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that by allowing anger to exist within me, within my mind I am thinking and believing that it means that at least I am caring somehow, because " I am thinking about others that have less than me," as if "thinking about it is caring." 

Therefore, I commit myself to just stop myself thinking about those whom I have judged as living in circumstances and situations that are challenging, and actually start to get myself involved more practically with the actual doing, moving to/towards solutions that will bring about a change that will be best for all life." 

Self-commitment statements continuing:

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into participating in anger within and as myself and allowing it to be fueled up within myself, by myself, I stop........................ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am allowing anger to be fueled within myself by myself, because of a deep seated self-created believe that somehow if I am angry at something or someone, I am being against that which I, myself has judged as faulty/wrong/bad/negative, within my own mind consciousness system, thus being angry against all of these is a " good/positive/right"  thing to do/to be, when in reality it is a war I am creating within and as my own mind, using projection judgement about what I see happening in the world, that have some similarity, or are totally similar to that which I have judged as faulty/wrong/bad/negative, thus reason enough within my mind consciousness system to be against it. However instead of working it out practically, I dwell in it, and allow it to consume me.

Therefore, I commit myself to really push myself into actually moving myself and doing what needs to be, because I already have the tools to work with, now rests the applying part. Thus I work on the applying part little by little till it becomes like brushing my teeth facing each point within myself, bringing myself to clarity and clearness, the point of understanding.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into in a creepy/strange way, enjoying being angry within and as myself to/towards myself and others as the whole world, I stop----------------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I enjoy in a " creepy/strange way,"  being angry within myself, because I have become addicted to the energy of anger within me, and justify it with " being right"  about being angry at certain outcomes and certain groups and certain specific people in this world, including myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to first release myself from this anger that consumes me and that I see, that I even enjoy, because it gives me a point of wanting to be against that which I have judged as " faulty/bad/wrong/negative specifically, using the tools provided by desteni as in Self-Forgiveness and Self-Commitments derived from common sense introspection.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into being angry at humanity at large because of what I see I have accepted and allowed to happen to life on my watch, I stop--------------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am putting the blame on humanity for where I lack doing something that is practical solution-wise and will have an outcome that will be best for all.

Therefore, I commit myself to push myself to look more into coming up with practical solutions that is best for all that I am capable of doing in a moment and in this manner learn little by little how to be like this, and taking little by little more complicated practical solutions as part of my living expression.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing a self-created imagination of what might become an outcome that is even worse than what exists now on this earth, I stop--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am fearing these imaginations of possible outcomes within myself not so much because of what can happen to humanity and/or to life on earth, however more so, because of self-interested reasons as in, myself having to go through these or members of my family having to go through these.

Thus within this, I commit myself to only look at the self-interest that exists within me from the perspective of measuring myself as to see/realize and understand where I am taking self-responsibility to life or not, and doing what needs to be done to actually bring about in this world, that which will be best for all life, and in this way transforming self-interest into that which is the best interest of/for all.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing losing a job in this world, I stop-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am fearing losing a job, because of what I already am aware that will happen when one looses a job in this world, especially in this day and age, where it is very challenging to get a new one, and having many other factors relating to it which makes it even more challenging, and bringing it all to the base, it is about being aware that one will be in a situation where one will be having to go through less money or no money, or at least not enough to cover all the monthly expenses that will not change to accommodate ones situation, which I find unfair given the amount of time gives to the system when one DO have a job in the system. One support the system 100% when one is working, however when one falls out of the system, the system will only support one 60 to 40 % depending where one lives, in which country and in some countries, it is basically ZERO support.


Thus within this, I commit myself to focus only on that which I do in each moment physically when it comes to my job and make sure I learn everything that needs to be learnt in order to get better at what I am doing, so I can support myself better within the system even when I loose a job, the possibility to find another one is greater then.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing being in the middle of a humanity gone mad, I stop------------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am fearing being in the middle of a humanity gone mad, because of what I can imagine could happen as what I already see happening in the world at the moment, only much worse than that.

Thus within this, I commit myself to focusing on solutions to the problems that are here, and focusing on bringing out more information about solution than information about the problem that is already here and is getting worse, so that my contribution to the world is one of solution and not one of focusing on what the problem is without a practical solution.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into thinking and believing that I cannot live oneness and equality within and as myself, I stop------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am  thinking and believing I cannot live oneness and equality within and as myself, because I judge it as something too big for me to live as if it is out of my reach, when in reality I have been given all that I need to live this, which is LIFE itself. LIFE is right here within as me. All I need to do is realize myself as this life and than all this thinking and believing will be no more.

Thus within this, I commit myself to focus more on LIFE that is the gift that is right here within me, which I for 100% am aware that I can trust this life no matter what, and the form of life that this life is expressing itself within and as and through, which is my human physical body. All I need to do is actually LIVE the trust I already have as common sense and remind myself that this trusting of life is going to take application/dedication/time/patience and grounding of me as self as life here. Thus baby steps to/towards myself in my application of remembering the who I am as LIFE here.

Self-Reward:

I see/realize and understand that my anger was related to/towards world events and outcomes due to my participation within the anger that I generate within myself as myself, in so doing supporting even in small ways the anger that is existent within this world through humanity at large, because of the anger comes in separation making one wanting to choose sides, as in thinking and believing always that whatever side one chooses is the " good/right/positive"  side when in reality the only choice to choose if choice was a matter, would be to choose the side of LIFE, which will not be the side that is "  good/right/positive"  or  " bad/wrong/negative,"  however, will be the only choice that will be BEST for all of life.

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356, A dream with the word: "Incentive" as a password part 2

Now continuing with the second part of this dream, which will be the part where I am going to make commitments to myself in regard to what I have found within myself within the dream I have had.

For insight into what I wrote about the dream click HERE


                                       

Self-commitment statements:

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into seeing myself getting lost within my mind, I stop take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and grounded and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am using this perception of my mind as to tell myself that it is possible to get lost when being here having a living in life, and this actually divert me from seeing here, being here.

Therefore, I commit myself to make sure that I breathe in the moments of thinking and believing that I might get lost being here and instead focus on being here within and as my breath and making sure that I stay here as one as equal with the breath and my human physical body, becoming aware of me being here as here is where life always is and I here expressing as life can never ever be lost.

When and as I see myself camouflashing in my mind my perspective on being poor or being in a poor neighbourhood, I atop take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stalbe and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize I am camouflashing being poor or being in a poor neighbourhood, because I fear being in a situation of poverty.

Thus, within this I commit myself to make sure to do whatever it is necessary within my ability and  to release and let go of the fear of being poor or being in a poor neighbourhood, because I am aware that I do not need fear fearing being poor nor being in a poor neighbourhood, because the fear of them if I would be in them is not going to change the reality of me being in them if it is to happen.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing my own unclearness, I stop---------- take a deep breath and bring myself here, ground myself, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am fearing being unclear because of the embarrassement I believe I can go through about being unclear

Thus within this I make sure to work this point out and just remain here focus when the moment arrives and I am in a situation  in a moment of being unclear and breathe, and focus on my breathing making sure I stay here look at how I am busy inside of myself and just stopping myself and not let myself get caught up within all of this energy.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing someone else knowing my personal password, I stop-------take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am fearing that someone else would know my personal password, because of what they might get me into, having lots of trouble within the system where I am compromised.

Thus, within this I commit myself to change my perspective on my thoughts and believes about my password being known by someone, and if there appears any fear within me in relation to this to remind myself in that moment to just breathe and than look for something practical to do, as long as my hands are touching something physical here, to remind me that I am here within this physical world, this physical reality, keep the focus on physically being here.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into making an issue about passwords, because I see that passwords in this world at the moment are to protect secrets from one another, and to support self-interest, I stop take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am having an issue with passwords because I am aware within myself that I use passwords to keep my self- interest intact and to have certain specific secrets being hidden from others, by protecting whatever it is I see need protection from others, making me live, expressing untrust within and as myself thus giving to the world that which is untrust through me as I live this, adding to the untrust that exists within and as humanity as a whole.

Thus within this, I commit myself to workout my self-untrust, put it on paper to see what I am busy doing to myself and thus unto others as myself, and to remind myself that it takes time to workout this point because I have made myself/create myself to be like this throughout my life, thus it will not be something to just delete like in seconds and that't it. I must have patients with myself.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into my mind and judge sex as something dirty, I stop----- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize I am judging sex as dirty, because of me cheating within and as myself doing things within and as sex that I should not be doing to myself or others as myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to make sure I stay focus with what the physical sex itself not only means to me, but engulfing myself into really doing my utmost to understand it on a physical level and ground myself more and more within and as my body as a whole whenever I engage into the act of sex.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into manipulation tactics to lure women into hacving sex with me, I stop------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am going into manipulation tactics to lure women into having sex with me, because it suits my self-interest which is the experience of orgasm.

Therefore I commit myself to work on my standing within and as sex with women and to set my priorities straight in order to become more phyiscally grounded within and as phyiscal sex, instead of mind-sex using the body for its goal.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into treating money as if it means nothing, I stop------ take a deep breath aand bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am treating money as if it is nothing because I have created within myself an issue about money itself within myself, because I do not agree with how the money in the world is being used, as it does not support life in the best possible way for all living beings on earth.

Therefore I commit myself to live to look for solutions and ways to implement the solutions to our money problem so that money is a real practical support for life on earth through how the human spents it.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to react on money and do something with it that implies; 'doing sonething good' with my money, because of feeling sorry for others that are in worse financial situation than I am, I stop-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I react on people with money problems as myself, that are in a worse situation than myself and thus, this makes me want to help them and within this I most of the times ignore my own situation.

Thus, within this I commit myself to have a real self-honest assesment of my finances and only if I am out of trouble myself I can help another, otherwise I compromise myself and my money problems will never end.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into blaming myself and the whole human race, that we are too late and that no-one wants to really hear about equality let alone live it, I stop--------- take a deep breath and ground myself here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I judge that no-one else is actually really ready to hear about equality, and let alone live it, because of what I perceive on the web and in my personal life that only a few people talk about it and do something for it to come about, however the majority that is also needed for it to be a real force on earth looks like they're not interested in this at all.

Thus, within this I commit myself to give myself and others as myself the chance to realize more of what is really here as the physical reality on earth, and the only way this can be realized is to continue spreading the word, spreading common sense till all see equally what is actually here and then we can walk really together, supporting one another as one changing everything that is here, that does not in anyways whatsoever support life in the best way possibe and make it so, that it becomes what is best for all LIFE on earth.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into a belief system of "everything is lost" within myself, I stop------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that this belief-system is a construct within me that I use against myself in order to make myself not move or do something that is a solution to what will be best for all life.

Thus within this I commit myself to through writing make sure to workout this belief system using self-forgiveness to release myself from such construct within myself and also to remind myself that this working out of myself through writing and applying self-forgiveness takes time, because it is a construct I have created throughout my life.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into giving up on myself, I stop-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, grounding myself till I am clear within and as myself.

I realize that the thought of giving up on myself, gives me the neglect to not move myself and change myself practically as I really want to, and thus compromise myself in order to stay stagnant.

Thus within this I commit myself to work and more and put much much more attention to what I am allowing within me to direct me, instead of me directing me, and make sure I release myself throughn writing of self-forgiveness and applying my commitments to slowly but surely change myself into a human being that really cares about life and that lives to bring about that which is best for all life.



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Day 344, Is the earth really a sphere as we are being told/taught?

There are people up to this present day still of the believe that the earth is flat, like a disk, or that it is concave, some even believe that the earth is hollow. There are many theories out there. But this one about the earth being flat, the ones whom are believing this I find have some very strong arguments. The reason I am writing about this, is because I find it interesting and also to look at, what are all the things we have been lied to. Because many things we think we know, because we were taught it to be so are not in actuality really so. Working from the perspective of: 'investigating all things and keep that which is good," as Jesus once said, is of paramount importance to also include such a topics within my investigations.

What we are being taught in schools all over the world are the following theories(facts?).

We are taught that the earth is rotating and turning on its invisible axis every one day, with an average speed of 1675 Km/hour, which is 1,040 miles/hour.



Now lets have a look at this theory.

Most of us when we were kids while sitting in our parent's car would put our arms out of the car, sometimes even our heads to feel the wind pushing us. Now understand that a car most of the time will be at a velocity of 60 to 80 Km/hour.....at this velocity one will feel the wind wanting to push one's head backward or one's hand backward and one would have to fight the wind so to speak to keep on holding it in one place. So now imagine we are on a planet where there is no "INSIDE" on it, we are fully OUTSIDE. Because the theory goes that we don't feel the velocity of the earth's rotation because it is just like driving in a car, we also don't feel the velocity of the car, which is true. The only point being, that we are IN the car, if we were to have a pickup car and you will be in the back of the pickup car and would stand up, you will feel the wind trying the push you back, you would be having it difficult to keep on standing or keeping your eyes open, because the wind will blow too hard in your face and upper body. So keep in mind that we are not INSIDE of the earth and wind is blowing outside, we are completely expose on the surface, OUTSIDE..... there is no chassis protecting us like in a car. So how come we are not experiencing this enormous wind blowing when we are outside, we are talking about the wind blowing at 1675 Km/hour here, harder than any hurricane we have ever witnessed up to this moment. So why don't we feel this contra wind blow so to speak?  There are days where it is totally calm, no wind blows at all, so how does this happen when the earth is rotating at a speed of 1675 Km/hour? So the whole point about this is the WIND that we do not experience like we would experience if we would move at great speeds, we will experience a wind that push against us, and depending on the velocity we are traveling the harder the wind will be experienced.

Those protecting the status quo will tell you that the reason we don't feel any movement is because of the balancing of forces between gravity acting as centripetal force and earth pushing upwards on you.
                                                                            

As one can see on this picture here above where they are showing what Centripetal force is, one can go in that ride and tell me if you are not going to experience the WIND. Thus this theory does not rule out the wind-experience when one is moving in great speeds.

                                                       

We are taught that not only that the earth is rotating at 1,040 miles per hour, but that it also rotates around the Sun with a speed of 67,000 miles per hour and on top of all this, the sun is also traveling around the center of our Galaxy at a speed of 600,000 miles per hour.

The earth circumference is 25,000 miles. Taking this into account at 6 miles one must be able to see the curvature of the earth and the object must be 16 feet below the eye sight, according to the equation. But this does not happen and was even tested. They tested this in England on a river that is 6 miles long and flat all the way, and they could still see the boat at 6 miles away from the point of departure, it did not go below eye sight of 16 feet as the ones that are telling us, teaching us are saying about the earth being a globe.

                                                       


                                                           

The Causeway Bridge on this picture is 28 miles long over water, or 38 Kilometers long. So at 6 miles this bridge must be going down the curvature of the earth as shown on the image below here in green. So where does the bridge "curve"? One will find that this bridge is all the way through flat, does not curve to meet the circumference of the earth. Thus this means that at the letter "H" is where one will start to see the bridge curve and will not be seen anymore, it starts to curve, looking at the image below here. from "O" to "H" is the 6 miles I am taking about where the curvature must happen according to what we are being told and taught in school, so where is it?


                                                   

The ones believing that the earth is flat are saying that; because of the strong gravitational field of the earth,light of the Sun take a curved pass around the gravitational field of the earth and this will make things that are flat appear curved but also make things that are curved appear flat, thus one must be careful with using light to measure things in high gravitational fields.

A very strong point I find that the flat earthers have is the following.

They say that if the earth was a globe as we believe it is, when we were using plumb-bobs to construct buildings we would not find a straight line to the center of gravity to measure and built a straight up building if the earth was a globe, because you will then have a building that will look slim on the bottom and very wide at the top, which I find is a very strong point.   

Now imagine if we would extend the line that runs from "O" to "M" and we will move "M" all over this ball, we will see that at the circumference at the point where "M" is in contact with the circumference one will find that at the bottom if one uses a plumb-bob, it will be slimmer at the bottom and wider at the top of the building.


                                                               

                                                           

What we can also do is just stand one day in an open field and when there is no wind and throw a ball straight up in the air, and one will notice and find that the ball will fall straight back from the point where one threw it in the air. Now if the earth was rotating and specifically at 1675 Km per hour,  that ball would never fall back where one threw it in the air, because one will move away from the moment one throw the ball up with 1675 Km per hour speed, thus the ball will never land where one threw it up. Now this does make sense, if the earth beneath ones feet was moving or rotating as they say. So the theory that says; it is because of the gravitational force of the earth makes it that the ball lands exactly where one threw it up in the air does not make sense. because if it was windy, that ball will not fall back in ones hands, so the gravitational force seems weak when it is windy? Does this make any sense?

The moment men went high enough in the air to see if the earth is actually a globe or not, is when we all believe that to be true, because of the pictures that were taken, that we can rest assure now that the earth is a globe, but don't forget that these pictures were taken from space as they say and light that travels through space will curve at the gravitational fields surrounding any object. Thus the pictures are correct, but from the perspective of the light curving around the gravitational fields of the earth, thus what we are seeing is not really really a globe, we are seeing light that bends/curves around gravitational field of the earth, and thus will make earth seem as if it is a globe.

The gravity that holds us on the land is the same gravity that holds the tonnes of water as ocean on the bottom of the ocean as the scientists are telling us. So how can the gravity not crush us? because the tonnes of water is much heavier than us. So how can the same force of gravity hold something that is heavier down as it also holds something that is lighter down and without crushing that which is lighter, putting to much pressure on the object that is lighter. Earth has an equatorial surface gravity of 9.81 m/s². Does this make sense? would that be enough the hold the tonnes of gallons of water on the bottom of the ocean and also at the same time be enough to NOT crush us that is lighter than these tonnes of gallons of water as the ocean?


Now lastly about the point of the Hubble telescope, they say that the Hubble telescope can look in the universe as far as  14 billion light-years.  Now 1 light-year is 10 Trillion Kilometers, thus that would be 14 Billion x 10 Trillion= 1400000000000000000000000 Kilometers. So here we are having a telescope that so-called can look into the universe that far away and just Google the earth images we have you will see that all of them look like a realist painter did them.


Here is a link to look at all the pictures from NASA taken from space, and have a very good look at all of them.
https://www.google.com/search?site=&tbm=isch&source=hp&biw=1366&bih=667&q=earth+from+space+nasa&oq=earth+from+space&gs_l=img.1.4.0l10.4866.11748.0.14028.16.9.0.7.7.0.124.789.7j2.9.0.msedr...0...1ac.1.61.img..0.16.828.oes7seC-Ve8

Conclusion: 

To me it does not really matter what form the earth is, but what does matter is that if we are being lied to or not. As long as the government goes and the military, these two are two organized bodies that have hidden and lied over almost everything, and understand none of us have had the opportunity to actually go in space and look at it ourselves, all we have is pictures and today in the world that our technologies have evolved we can see that it could have been very easy for NASA to Photoshop all its images from space, and another point is also people are not allowed to fly over the South Pole, which I find strange and questionable, because here we are sending (man on the moon?) and sending probes on Mars and yet we cannot fly over the South Pole, does this make any sense?
So the best thing to do is for us to work together to bring about the best living conditions for everyone in this world and when we the people have the power and we are then really free we will investigate all these points and see what we will find, because then no-one will be able to tell us we can't go there or go here or only certain people can have access here or there, we can all freely explore our world and actually get to really know her.



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Larry Manuela

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Day 342, The Charlie HebDo scenario words and phrases used.

Within this blog about this incident that took place on January the 7th, 2015, lots of words of Hate and separation and that breed violence,have been said and fed to the public to entice the public even more into reaching within themselves and pluck out as it were all the hatred that they have been accumulated throughout their lives, to get them to accept some form or retribution or revenge that according to some MUST take place. Now understand that this blog I am writing here is not to criticize people and blaming people. This blog is for us to have a look at the specific words we use in our daily lives and also words we allow to be part of our daily lives. I will also be copying and pasting some comments on some of the videos leaving out the names of ones writing these comments, just for purposes of letting is see what kind of words we use and how we breed violence within ourselves expressed through words.

I am going to use some words in capital letters and some colored in RED in order to show the words that are not words that should be lived by all of us in this world. And when I get to the solution parts, I will highlight these solution words in GREEN.

I will start with this topic by placing few of the videos done about  incident.

Within this above video the TomoNews US, a Youtube Channel news that specializes in making animated news headlines.

Their video is called: 

" Paris terror attack: Jihadists shoot dead 10 Charlie Hebdo magazine staff, 2 police" 

  

So with this title of the video itself we can see 3 words that have been used over a few years now to work on the fear of people, and these 3 words have gotten more weight since the 9/11 incident that took place in USA.

Now here are some of the comments placed beneath this video:

" Typical for ARABS ..99% of all muslim-terrorist are ARABS ..

this kind of shit is typical for Arabs# It's not a 'muslim' thing, but an Arab thing." 

"  fuck you fucking racist motherfucker do you know the fact that USA acually killed 500k innocent children in Iraq for oil??? it's a FACT and there are sooo many proofs! Terrorists killed 3000 ppl in 9/11 while USA killed about 2 million ppl in Iraq and 500k of them was children!!!!!! Which is worse now? muslims or americans? PSS FACT: USA also used nuclear weapons in Iraq and even until this day it effects ppl there!!!! " 

" I'm not american. And I'm a muslim, and I hate Arabs.

 You're like cancer. You're destroying Islam from inside." 

" I'm not trying to push an agenda, but if those staff or someone who was recording the shooting had a firearm to protect their fellow person this tragedy could have been prevented, or at least had a more preferable outcome."

Now here is a link to another video, and this one I cannot place it here since it is not a youtube video, but a video made by : "The Telegraph." 

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/europe/france/11337006/Charlie-Hebdo-Paris-attacks-A-timeline-of-events.html 

So lets have a look at the words that are being used here that are words that breed violence and hate, even though they may appear as cautious. Within that report the following were said and I quote:

 

" With one of the gunmen saying shortly before his death that he was funded by al Qaeda, President Francois Hollande warned that the danger to France - home to the European Union's biggest communities of both Muslims and Jews - was not over yet. 

"These madmen, fanatics, have nothing to do with the Muslim religion," Hollande said in a televised address. "France has not seen the end of the threats it faces." 

Now I am going to place two links here and for those that will watch this, understand this is for purposes of investigating the words that are used and what is being said and what is being aimed at with the words, what the kind of outcomes can come out of these words as consequences in reality.


First I am placing a few information about the AK-47 itself. This piece of information is taken from wikipidia.

" The AK-47 is a selective-fire, gas-operated 7.62×39mm assault rifle, first developed in the Soviet Union by Mikhail Kalashnikov. It is officially known in the Soviet documentation as Avtomat Kalashnikova (Russian: Автомат Калашникова). It is also known as Kalashnikov, AK, or in Russian slang, Kalash.
Design work on the AK-47 began in the last year of World War II (1945). After the war in 1946, the AK-47 was presented for official military trials. In 1948, the fixed-stock version was introduced into active service with selected units of the Soviet Army. An early development of the design was the AKS (S—Skladnoy or "folding"), which was equipped with an underfolding metal shoulder stock. In 1949, the AK-47 was officially accepted by the Soviet Armed Forces^[9] and used by the majority of the member states of the Warsaw Pact.
Even after six decades the model and its variants remain the most popular and widely used assault rifles in the world because of their substantial reliability even under harsh conditions, low production costs compared to contemporary Western weapons, availability in virtually every geographic region and ease of use. The AK-47 has been manufactured in many countries and has seen service with armed forces as well as irregular forces worldwide, and was the basis for developing many other types of individual and crew-served firearms. More AK-type rifles have been produced than all other assault rifles combined.^{[3] "}




 Now I am going to place two links about two videos placed on the website LiveLeaks.com

On this website they are claiming that the incident was a Hoax or staged. Because they are saying that when the one of the terrorist shot the policeman on the sidewalk there was no blood coming out and where there should have been some blood at least coming out.
Now all these videos and words used are going to play a major role in peoples believes if what happened and what did not happen and at the end of the day, we will not really know what exactly happen, because the real truth is, we were not there and we don't actually know whom these people that committed these crimes really are.


I will place two links to this website where they showed the images before youtube and others blurt the whole scene where the policeman was laying on the sidewalk and was shot apparently to the head.

If it was a hoax or not, what this video is showing, I find that they do have a point and have to be considered a good piece of investigation in relation to the whole incident.
Thus the first link is where they let us see that there was no blood coming out of the body of the policeman and the second link is about a accident that happened in Yemen where a AK-47 went of and killed 3 people and you will see the blood there immediately. Thus here viewer discretion is advised.

http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=98f_1420759102





This is the second video link:


http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=092_1385087034


So what we can learn from this incident and many others that went before this one, that when we use certain/specific words, because we are in a state of emotions, we will breed hate and violence, that can lead to consequences as what happens in our world today and also in the past and will continue to happen if we do not change ourselves and become Self-Responsible human beings.
The bottom line about all that is happening in this world are due to US not taking our responsibility to/towards life. We do not honor life, we do not respect life. Some may have "good intentions,"but these good intentions mostly lead us nowhere, because they are not effective enough, because they are not practical enough or mostly not practical at all.


We must take our power back by first of all when we see that we are reacting to news or any other information outlet, to take long deep breaths, ground ourselves and then start researching all the information and as I did here with just a little research look always at the words that are being used, and ask yourself are these words that will have an consequence outcome that can be a best outcome for all practically or not and one will understand something about oneself and about the world we accept and allow ourselves to live in. Because all this barrels down to what we ACCEPT & ALLOW ultimately.

Everything that happens on earth that we will term: " bad/negative/wrong," are our own creations, our own acceptances and allowances.
We are the ones that accepted and allowed that we must be slaves to a system that we ourselves have created and now we act as if we cannot change this system. I am using the word "system" here, but this word in itself as I am using it here is plural. It stands for all the man-made systems. What we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves is what we are putting within and as the systems we create, thus the systems we create reflect what we accept and allow within ourselves.
All the words I have marked in red here are words that have an actual real manifestation in this world where they lead to certain actions that will ultimately harm life or are harming life.
These words we use are not words that honor life or give life respect, oh no, these words are dishonoring life and are harming life through us, the bearers or words. Through our words we live, through our words we deceive ourselves, blind ourselves, harm ourselves.

Conclusion: 

 In order for us to discern information effectively we must learn to use our common sense and look through the maze of information especially now in this information era, where information can change the course of where we will lead ourselves to either rise or fall. 
Thus I implore you to investigate all information and make sure to use your common sense and head the words that are used to ignite or work on your emotions and when that happens and you know it, you become aware within yourself that you are reacting emotionally, to forgive that within yourself, because one must understand that no-one can place an emotion within anyone in this world, you can only manipulate people to harvest their own self-created emotions in a way that will have certain outcomes, with certain specific goals, but yet these individuals must give you their permission, either passively without knowing which is what happens in most cases or forcefully. But yet again if one pays attention to oneself one will notice that the emotions are happening only within oneself alone.

When one becomes aware of this, that no-one can place an emotion within one and that it is oneself that can create it within oneself, one will start to see that it will take all of us humans to forgive ourselves for our creations, of what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves that is having a physical manifested play out in the world outside, the reality we live in where we portray as "good people" vs " bad people" without seeing/realizing and understanding that these people are both within each of us within our minds, within our personalities.
Thus I leave you here with some questions that at the same time our own answers.

Questions:

 

When I am capable of hating is it not the same for another as me?

When I am being angry at another or even at myself,  am I not being violent?

When I am arguing with another to proof my point of view, am I not at war with another?

When I use words deliberately to get people to stand next to me, to manipulate people to also go against what I am against at, am I not breeding hatred?

When I within my own mind judge other people and races and believe systems as something terrible am I not doing the same as them judging me and my race and my believe systems?

 When I allow men/women/children to be killed in this world, what does this tell me about myself? Am I a coward or am I afraid to stand up within and as myself and say: " no more!" 

 Why do I think and believe that it is always someone else that is the "bad guy." an not me, but yet I do not come up with any practical solution that will make sure that "bad guys" are none existent in the world we live in?

Why do we human kill each other in the name of our believes and our opinions, our projections about others?

Why does the words we use end up being real manifestations in our reality here on earth, and when we see this, why do we not stop it and change ourselves and change our words and thus through words change the reality we live in, using words and living words that will support and honor and respect life in each one of us and in everything?

Why with all the mothers and fathers "feeling love" to/towards their children have love not been a way of living by the children, as the word implies living in peace with oneself and one another and having compassion and care? Do we see this in the world at large, or are we going to continue sorting out little and very small incidents where some of us have had some intention of compassion in a small way or did some compassionate work here and there in the form of charity, to use that as a proof that we care and have compassion, when we are aware that in the greater scale of things, in the lives of ourselves as humanity, in the lives of the animals and plants, these little small contributions of compassion and care are nothing more than a "feel good experience" or to proof ones believe as it being something "good."?

Solutions:

All these manifestations of harm in some form or another are, if we are true to ourselves; manifestations of our own accepted and allowed mindset. We are seeing and going through consequences of accepting and allowing the fears we have within ourselves to take form and become real physical manifested forms in reality. Now these forms can be many forms, and this incident of what happened in France is just one of them, because the people that committed them were just like you and me, they also experienced hatred sometime in their lives and have decided to act on it, between me and you they are just the doers, but yet their starting point is the same. Thus it must be understood by all of us, that if we want to change the world, we must start by ourselves, changing ourselves one by one till all this is done, it may take time, but it will take less time than the time we have dedicated our lives accepting and allowing our status quo wherein the world is like it is right now with all of us here. Self-forgiveness is the tool here and this must be done in Self-honesty. We must stop at looking at problems and start looking at solutions and find ways to bring about these solutions and especially solutions that will benefit all life equally, not just the human life, but literally all life. Than and only than, words like: "respect, love, compassion,care," will have a practical meaning, where they are manifested in the way we live with each other and everything else and within the systems we will create.


Thanks.


Larry Manuela

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