Day 331, Very Naughty Children?? Part 2

I am now continuing with more self-forgiveness statements in regards to what I wrote yesterday in my blog.
I will place here the link and also beneath it a few lines of where I left off.

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html






                                                               





" I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very angry at people whom want to give me an advise that has to do with a future projection of positivity and telling me not to worry because everything is going to be alright, when I am aware that without me taking my responsibility to/towards my children and all children in this world and to do whatever it takes to make sure that the possibility exists that they will come to the realization for themselves that they have to choose life above anything and anyone else, would be a living  reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have memories of me being with my children and sometimes when they do not listen to me, that I have to raise my voice to go above their voice in order for them to then be quiet and listen to me.



                                                                          

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this." 


More self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself that they have become like this because it was me whom made the decision to leave them with the mother behind when I found out the mother cheated on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the mother for doing something whereof I had to made the decision to leave her and children behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always have doubts within myself about leaving them behind with the mother, if I had made the best decision, since I cannot trust the mother.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to because I cannot trust myself I project it on the mother, thus I see untrustworthiness within her instead of seeing solutions that denote responsibility within myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that I also have some points within me that cannot be trusted or are not trustworthy, but yet seeing the point within another has more impetus then seeing it within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be a point of support and assistance within solutions that would have been best for all involved in the past in regards to me leaving my children with my ex. behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the situation about my children as hopeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I cannot solve this problem and look for ways to not have to deal with it and yet also having mix feelings about it, because I am aware that I am responsible for them no matter what.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not pay attention to my children well, and blame it on the distance between us, as they are in another country far away from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a form a releaf because they are away from me where I can be myself without the direct relationship and responsibility in practical matters and   direct physical support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take the responsibility to my children and sometimes deliberately avoid to having to find myself in a situation with them where I would have to face myself having to take my self-responsibility towards myself and also towards them.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to deal with having to fix what is done already, within this implying; that I am giving up on life as it exists within and as myself and within and as my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the backchat within me as: " I don't want to deal with all this shit right now on top of all the shit I am already in," to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my responbsibility for my children through my mind as a shitty thing to deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see dealing with the problems my children are going through as shitty, because in my mind I am avoiding taking my responsibility to come up with the best possible solution that could be best for all involved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take my self-responsibility because I am aware that I then have to give up the life I have as living on my own away in order to have them with me.


I forgive myself  that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to sharte my life with my children as I have programmed myself into a comfortable wasy of living being on my own without anyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to give up my life alone for that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to take responsibility and then afterwards fail and find myself into more trouble doing so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find excuses for not wanting to take my self-responsibility to/towards life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just because of avoiding trouble I decide to not take my self-responsibility and in doing so, I then use "avoiding trouble" as an escapegoat in order to keep on being irresponsible to/towards myself as life and others as myself as life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pospone responsibility to/towards myself and others as myself because of fearing having to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility, because it implies commitment, and I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself not commiting myself to anything or anyone, thus therefore avoiding responsibility to myself and others as myself as life here as one as equal as all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always wanted to commit myself but then again in the middle of the commitment when things are seemingly not working out as expected them to work out I start to look for ways to leave or find an excuse to leave or making it possible for the other to find an excuse to put out of the relationship with them, because in that matter I have then made it possible for me to not have to take my self-responsibility to/towards life.


To be continued.......................


Thanks.


Larry Manuela

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Day 306, Who am I in relationship with the word: " Atom." Part 21

Continuing with the next word here, which will be the word: " Atom."

on the searchcio.techtarget.com they have as definition for the atom the following:

" An atom is a particle of matter that uniquely defines a chemical element. An atom consists of a central nucleus that is usually surrounded by one or more electrons. Each electron is negatively charged. The nucleus is positively charged, and contains one or more relatively heavy particles known as protons and neutrons. "






                                                            

I suggest to listen to the interview that I will place here below, in order for one to have another perspective on the atom. And this perspective requires one to REALLY be " open minded," because in this interview the atom itself will speak through the portal, and will give perspective on its manifestation, its design, and its functionality, its history and its purpose in creation. This interview was just the introduction, more will come in the future.

    

Self-Forgiveness & Self-Commitment statements:


I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the atom is really actually part of myself as myself, because I never stood as one as equal with and as the atom as myself, all I know about the atom is from knowledge and information told by others as myself and the knowledge and information is not an awareness of the atom as myself, its an observational perspective rooted in separation.

I realize that I am at the moment and also in the past not at all aware as msyelf as the atom which is part of my human physical body as myself, because I never was aware as myself as my human physical body, and now that I know this, I am aware that I have to forgive myself all the way, everything that is preprogramming and programming within and as my mind and stand as one as equal with it in order to move to my human physical body and eventually all of what my human physical body consists of and exist as.

Therefore, I commit myself to little by little to do my self-forgiveness statements and my commitments to life done in self-honesty to work out all the points that exists within me as me, till i reach a point of equal and one standing with  and as all that I am here, and to remind myself to be here within and as my breath and also that it will take time and dedication from my part to work it all out.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fully accept the current defintion and knowledge and information about the atom as what the atom is without ever investigating it and question it for myself, because I have made a habit for myself to trust the scientists and that they know better, so whatever it is they find must be so, when in reality I do know that what they know is only from an observational point fo view, which means a view done in separation to whatever it is they are observing.


I realize that I trust the knowledge and information given by the scientists about the atom without question, because it is still the only knowledge and information closer we have to what the atom actually is, and instead of taking self-responsibility to investigate it for myself within and as myself, because the atom is here part of me I rather go along with the the knowledge and information given by others as myself who also only have knowledge and information about the atom.


Thus within this I commit myself to spent more time questioning the current kowledge and infromation about the atom to come to an understanding about it as is now and from there use that knowledge and information to find more about the atom on my own, and to remind myself that this to will take time and dedication and patience and that I have to forgive myself on all points that are limiting me of not understanding myself as the atom as being part of me as me as my human physical body.



Self-Reward:


Within this blog I have come to see/realize and understand that I am not aware as myself as the atom at all, because I am living in complete separation to everything that is here as me and as part of me, so what I have to do is make sure to work out every point that I have lived in separation and become one and equal with everything that is here in order to have a complete understanding about everything that is here from a equal and one standing within and as everything that is here as life as one as equal as all. Within this I am also aware that all of this will take time and that it is not something that happens just like that by studying few kowledge and information about the subject, but that it becomes a very intense real physical application in real time investigating myself thoroughly and continue walking my points and clearing myself from my self-created limitation and separation.





Thanks.



Larry Manuela


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294, Who am I in relationship with the word: "Death." Part-9

Now I am  going to bring to my understanding the word: "Death"

The merriam-webster.com dictionary is saying the following about death:




                                                                     

death

 noun \ˈdeth\

: the end of life : the time when someone or something dies

: the ending of a particular person's life

: the permanent end of something that is not alive : the ruin or destruction of something

Full Definition of DEATH

1

a :  a permanent cessation of all vital functions :  the end of life — compare brain death

b :  an instance of dying <a disease causing many deaths>

2

a :  the cause or occasion of loss of life <drinking was thedeath of him>

b :  a cause of ruin <the slander that was death to my character — Wilkie Collins>

3

capitalized :  the destroyer of life represented usually as a skeleton with a scythe

4

:  the state of being dead

5

a :  the passing or destruction of something inanimate <thedeath of vaudeville>

b :  extinction

6

:  civil death

7

:  slaughter

8

Christian Science :  the lie of life in matter :  that which is unreal and untrue

— at death's door

:  close to death :  critically ill

— to death

:  beyond endurance :  excessively <bored to death>

 See death defined for English-language learners »

See death defined for kids »

As I see these definitions up here, there is one that I can live with/use practically. Which is the first one in the full definition part, where it says: " a permanent cessation of all vital functions: the end of life."

The reason I find this one a definition that comes close to what death is, even though death is just the unknown, and why is death unknown? Because it is only when it happens to us, thus individually, that we go through it ourselves only then in that moment it is and will be known to us, thus the experience itself, the going through the moment of death, that will be for each to know when they will be in that moment.

So that definition is saying that; a permanent stoppage of the vital functions, thus that the heart have stopped, the lungs, the brain. And after this part it ends with: " the end of life."  This part is very important, because it is implying that the body itself is life and life have stopped for this particular body. But then is it the life that have stopped or the body that has stopped living, expressing life? For me the latter makes more sense. So everything that the body has become, thus the form it took, goes back to become the dust of the earth, the substance of the earth, and is the earth alive or dead? I can conclude in common sense that the earth is alive and stays alive even when lots of lifeforms are dying on it or in it. So it is NOT life itself that ended when a body dies, it is that particular body that ended in expressing itself as one of the manifested lifeforms. Thus what the body was will now be part of the earth again to be used to support other forms of life on earth, and maybe even form other form of life on earth. So within the physical this death when I look at it, is only a transformation of all the parts that were together as one individual whole as in this case a human form to go back again to be part of the substance of the earth as we have called it: "the dust of the earth." As the dust of the earth one is no more a packaged form as what it used to be as the human physical body.

But now we as human beings have a dilemma with this body of ours. Because we are NOT living as our bodies for real, we are not equal and one with and as it yet. We are living in our minds as mind entities through the body, thus using what the body consists of and exists as to experience what we believe we are as these entities in the mind, but the actual living as the body, all of it......thus that I am my body literally, ALL of it equal and one, aware of myself as it in every moment is a no go for us humans as the moment.

I suggest to read the heavensjourney to life blog on this within the following links:

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/04/life-and-death-engineering-day-10.html

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/life-and-death-day-359.html

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/05/life-and-death-part-two-day-360.html

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/accept-and-allow-contract-with-death.html

Self-forgiveness & self-commitment statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that death is something that is in separation to myself when I am aware that death is something that is personal to me as the entity in my mind, as I do not in fact know that I as this entity I believe myself to be will continue when the body cease to exist as it exist as an expressive physical manifested life-form.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into thinking and believing that death is separate from me, even though I am aware that it is personal to me as the entity that I believe myself to be within and as the mind, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am separating myself to death within and as my mind as the entity within and as my mind that is the ego, because I have separated myself also from this very entity too, thus I am existing in total separation to everything I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

Therefore, I commit myself to little by little through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life in self-honesty to make sure to I become aware as me as the mind, as the eg, as that which I understand death to be till I am one and equal here living within and as them as me and through this having the practical living understanding of everything I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death within and as my mind, and creating all sorts/kinds of believes to hide this fear and thus making myself live up to death and what will happen after death.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the fear of death within and as my mind, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that because I have created this fear of death within and as myself as my mind consciousness system, I then live upto and for death itself and does not actually live upto of for/ as life itself, thus not actually living at all.

Thus within this, I commit myself to make sure to remind myself by sticking to my breathing here in every moment that I am here to express myself as life and to give myself the opportunity to birth myself in the physical as life and investigate/introspect all the reasons I have created within and as my mind that I live upto death, through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life to not accept and allow myself to live upto/for death but instead live upto and for/as life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create fears within and as my mind about how I could die.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the creation of fear about how I could die, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I created the fear about how I could die and because of this accepting and allowing my life to be based around this fear about how I could die, and thus not actually living for/as life here, but just to live to avoid how I could die in accordance with what I think/believe I could die.

Thus within this, I commit myself to release myself from this fear about how I could die through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life in self-honesty and make sure I make this part of my living and the reminder that use is my breath. To focus on my breathing and remind myself that I am here and that I do not have to fear death nor fear how I could die, because what matter is how I live here in support to as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept death as part of me, and thus part of my living here.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the acceptance of death as part of me, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that by accepting death as part of me I then makes believes about it within my mind and also think about it, and see that I accept and allow this believe and these thoughts to fead the fear of death that I have created within myself and then preocupied myself within and as this fear and thus living as this fear and not living here, expressing me as the body as a manifested physical life form.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that my body is an expression of life in fact, because I have placed the fear of death on it, just because of what I see happens in reality to other humans that die, thus focusing more on what will happen to the body then to actually be the body and that expressing me as the body means that I am the body.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into not expressing me as my human physical body, but choose the fear of death to be my preocupation in my mind and thus living up to death in my life, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy. 

I realize that I am not expressing or giving myself the opportunity to not express myself as life here, because I am constantly and consistently preocupied within and as my mind with the fear of death and living and constructing my life around that instead of living life here.

Thus within this, I commit myself to stop participation and preocupation with death and the fear of death within my mind and start participating with living and practical solutions about how I am living here in this reality/existence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to honor death within and as myself either consciously or unconsciously and because of this live upto trying to prevent what I don't even know exactly when it will happen to me, but yet wasting my time creating more fear within and as myself and living in and as fear itself instead of living life here and expressing myself here.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into honoring of death by the contineous participation about death within my mind, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I see within myself that I am honoring death because I am living my life upto it, participating in fearing it, thus my whole living is about death and trying to avoid death instead of actually living here in every moment of every breath.

Thus within this I commit myself to honor life and life in accordance to this honor in every moment of every breath and if I see myself not doing so, to remind myself through my own breathing and focus on my breathing and what I am physically participating in and as here.

Self-Reward:

I have seen/realized and understood within my writing here, that death is part of me and death will happen to me and that I do not have to fear death, instead accept and embrace it to understand it within me and thus when I do so the fear stops and is no more and then this gives me the space within and as myself to live here  and express me here instead of living my life in fear of death.

Thanks.

Larry Manuela

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293, Who am I in the relationship with the word: "Life." Part-8

Now continuing with the next word which will be: " Life"


                                                                         

Here is the link to the first blog with the list of words, if one have not read the yet:

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/02/day-286-what-is-understanding.html



Lets see what the dictionaries say about this word:

life :

1  a :  the quality that distinguishes a vital and functional being from a dead body

b :  a principle or force that is considered to underlie the distinctive quality of animate beings

c :  an organismic state characterized by capacity for metabolism, growth, reaction to stimuli, and reproduction

2

a :  the sequence of physical and mental experiences that make up the existence of an individual

b :  one or more aspects of the process of living <sex life of the frog>

3

:  biography 1

4

:  spiritual existence transcending physical death

5

a :  the period from birth to death

b :  a specific phase of earthly existence <adult life>

c :  the period from an event until death <a judge appointed for life>

d :  a sentence of imprisonment for the remainder of a convict's life

6

:  a way or manner of living

7

:  livelihood

8

:  a vital or living being; specifically :  person <many liveswere lost in the disaster>

9

:  an animating and shaping force or principle

10

:  spirit, animation <saw no life in her dancing>

11

:  the form or pattern of something existing in reality <painted from life>

12

:  the period of duration, usefulness, or popularity of something <the expected life of the batteries>

13

:  the period of existence (as of a subatomic particle) — compare half-life

14

:  a property (as resilience or elasticity) of an inanimate substance or object resembling the animate quality of a living being

15

:  living beings (as of a particular kind or environment) <forestlife>

16

a :  human activities

b :  animate activity and movement <stirrings of life>

c :  the activities of a given sphere, area, or time <the political life of the country>

17

:  one providing interest and vigor <life of the party>

18

:  an opportunity for continued viability <gave the patient a new life>

19

capitalized Christian Science :  god 1b

20

:  something resembling animate life <a grant saved the project's life>

So, there we have it, lots of definitions about life. Isn't that a little confusing, to have so many definition of something that is just one thing; LIFE.
In desteni we say that life is; Oneness and Equality.

I suggest to listen to this youtube video Sunette did on what is LIFE, short version.

As one can see in the definitions up there from the merriam webster dictionary.com that we have categorized life in different manners and within different dimensions where life exists, but yet we can't see that it is the same life everywhere in everything and through everything, always HERE, even in death.
We have neglected life big time and we still do. We only live through our minds as consciousness as energy and believe we are even less then the mind, because we are not even aware of ourselves as this mind, this consciousness, energy.



Self-forgiveness & Self-Commitment statements:


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that I am not aware at all as myself as life.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into not seeing/realizing/ understanding that I am not aware at all as myself as life, I STOP---------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothng moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am not aware of myself as life, because I live within and as my mind and not as life as one as equal.

Thus within this, I commit myself to through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitments to life, to make sure I little by little, step by step make myself aware of myself as life, till I am aware as myself as life, to be patient with myself, because I know it is not something that will be easy nor something that will take a little time, it is something that will take me years, so I just walk and do what I have to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that life is only when I am born till I die and through this think and believe that life have a beginning and an end and project everything based on this believe.

When and as I myself going into or I am about to go into thinking and believing that life is only at birth till death and that it as something that begins and ends and project this in this world, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am thinking and believing that life begins at birth and end at death and also that life have a beginning and an end because of this, because this is all I have ever known about life and it is only from an observational point of view, it is not from a point of standing equal and one with and as life itself to see/realize and understand what life actually really is here.

Thus within this, I commit myself to through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitments to life to really actually start to live in accordance with what is life here little by little, step by step starting with a simple thing as focusing being within and as my breath one and equal and from there move with it, flow with it as me till I am equal and one with life as life.


I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that life is so much more then what I think and believe it is and also what I interpret and perceive it to be through my mind consciousness system as energy.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into having thoughts and believes about what life is and also interpret and perceive it to be whatever it is  through my mind consciousness system as energy, I STOP-------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am thinking and believing what life is because that is all I ever knew about life, thus that I am thinking about it and believing about it or intepret and perceive it through my mind and nothing else but these. Thus never really actually live as life here at all.

Therefore I commit myself to little by little, step by step to work out all the believes and thoughts, perecptions and interpretations I have about life to make room for actually for real starting to live as equal as one with and as life.


I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that life is here in/through all and everything that is here.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into allowing myself to not realize that life is here in/through everything that is here, I STOP------------- take a deep breath and ground myself here within and as myself, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that the only reason I am not aware as myself as life and then see that life is here in and through all  and everything is because I have separated myself from life through my mind, believing that I am what is within and as this mind as programs as consciousness as energy.


Therefore within this I commit myself to stop all these programs that exists within and as my mind little by little, step by step through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitments to life in self-honesty till I one day become aware of myself as life here and to remind myself that I need to be patient and just live through my breath time that I have and just do it.




Self-Reward:


Within this writing I have seen/realized and understood that I have allowed myself to define life through my mind consciousness system and only within and as my mind consciousness system without ever giving myself that gift to give life as me a chance within and as myself so I can see/realize and understand for myself that I am indeed equal and one with and as life. Thus now all I have to do is forgive all these believes I have placed in front of myself to blind myself in order to not see myself as life when in reality I need that very life itself to maintain my separation to life intact, thus allowing myself to abuse myself as life and all of life equally so. Thus I must change me from separation to equal and one living as life here.


Thanks.


Larry Manuela

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Day 231, Not Wanting/Willing/DARING To Communicate. Part 6

I am continuing with the next dimension which will be the Reaction Dimension.


For more context i will place here a little bit of the previous dimension i walked yesterday:




Self-Reward:





within this i gift myself the gift of using my imagination to NOT sabotage myself and/or strengthen my own self-created fear of exposing myself, but to actually use it to See/realize/understand myself as the whom i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become in this world in a moment, so that in these moments i can then STOP myself and correct myself to function effectively in communication and within the principle of what is BEST for all.







Problem:



Reaction-Dimension:



*** Anxiety within me of not wanting to share myself as whom i am in a moment.

*** Feeling nervous around her,because i interpret her behaviour as taking everything personal.

*** Fear of communicating with her, because of thinking/believing, she will take what i have to say personal.

Solutions:




Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to NOT wanting to share myself as whom i am in a moment due to anxiety that i created within myself as myself.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use anxiety as a means to NOT share myself and thus i freeze and do not move, within and as myself to see the whom i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use anxiety to avoid not having to deal with the whom i am as a lie in a moment, functioning as my own mind alarm so i don't have to confront/face myself as this mind consciousness system.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to project my belief about her to/towards her as me seeing/viewing/interpreting her taking everything personal, without seeing/realizing/understanding that this belief is existent within me as my mind consciousness system as a judgement to/towards her, thus i am in fact judging me, because the judgement is the whom i am in the moment i am busy judging, it is all happening/taking place within my mind consciousness system as energy experiences.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think/belief that by judging her i am right, that she is taking everything personal, when in reality it is just my own judgement about her that only exists within me as me as the mind as energy, and wherein i also want to be right about my judgement about her, as if my judgement have some validity when it comes to what is in fact REAL as LIFE HERE in every moment.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that by participating in my own self-created judgement about her, i was in fact living as the judgement lost within energy within/as my mind consciousness system, not being HERE at all within/as my human physical body/form and my breath one and equal.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself into participating within/as my own self-created judgement about her, because in being within/as judgement i am in fact NOT HERE, i am not living as LIFE HERE in every moment of breath, i am in my mind consciousness system following my own self-created belief of her taking everything personal.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating with her, because of my own self-created belief about her, that she might take me personal, thus i rather not say what i have to say, because according to my own self-created belief about her maybe/possibly taking what i have to say personal might/could lead to conflict/friction, and conflict and friction are what i must avoid at all costs when it comes to maybe/possibly getting exposed as the mind consciousness system that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become within this world, this reality.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to link fear of communicating with her, to taking things personal, because if i am standing within and as my breath and my human physical body and i communicate from that starting point there is nothing to be feared, because i am then communicating as myself as the words as LIFE right HERE in a moment, and if someone else react upon what i say, it is their own mind consciousnes system at play and not mine. Thus within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react upon what i myself belief, that another as myself and in this case her, is going to react upon if i say what i have to say, without seeing/realizing/understanding that a sharing of herself within breath as what she sees within my words as me NOT being HERE in a moment, is my own mirror for me to see myself within and as when i am in a moment of NOT being HERE.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame her and place her as someone that takes everything personal within/as my mind consciousness system in order to not see that all of this is my own reaction i have about her as a belief i created within a moment about her, and that this have nothing to do with her at all in fact.





Self-commitment statements:



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into creating anxiety within myself to immediately STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and then from this clarity and stability i can then communicate from the starting-point of being here.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into using anxiety as a means to NOT share myself, i STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and from this starting-point, i move/walk.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into using anxiety to try and avoid not facing/confronting myself, I STOP--------take a deep breath and bring myself nack HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and then from this stability and clarity i move and walk within and as my human physical body/form and my breath equal and one.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into projecting my belief/views/interpretations about her to/towards her, i immediately STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and remind myself in the moment of breathing that my beliefs whatever they may be are NOT what reality is, and i keep on focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and from this starting-point i then communicate with her, when i clear and stable within energy fluctuating within me as me as the mind as energy, but just as me being HERE one and equal within/as my breath and my human physical body/form.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into avoiding sharing myself as the mind consciousness system in order to not face/confront myself, I STOP----------take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and within this clarity and stability i then find a way to communicate with her in self-honesty what is going in within me in humble way within and as myself with her so that i can see myself and work on myself and maybe/possibly she can assist and support me in seeing more of the lie that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become so i can deal with all of that through writing of my self-forgiveness statements and my self-corrective statements.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into reacting upon reactions of others either it is out of my own self-created belief or real, i immediately STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and from this clarity and stability i can then walk/move in communicate in an equal way and with humbleness to/towards another as myself and establish real practical communication that is BEST for all.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into any sort of blame to/towards her or others as myself, i immediately STOP-------------take a deep breath and bring myself back here and make sure i continue focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and then from this starting-point of clarity and stability i then commuincate and share myself with her and also others as myself equal and one.



Self-Reward:



I see within myself within this writing that i am judging/blaming another as myself for my own mind delusion that only i can create within myself, thus now that i have seen/realized/understood what i am accepting and allowing within myself, i have now the real choice to STOP myself when i see myself going into or i am about to go into judging and blaming others as myself. Thus my gift that i have given myself within this writing HERE, is to NOT judge and blame others, and to look within myself when i happen to fall in these mind traps and get out of them immediately so i don't create consequences that will NOT be what is BEST for all.



Thanks.



Larry Manuela

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