DAY 368, Genetic Sexual Attraction (GSA) PART 2

So now, I am continuing with having a look at this point of GSA.

For those of you who haven't read the earlier blog, here is the link to it.

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.nl/2015/12/day-367-genetic-sexual-attraction-gsa.html


                                                                     

I left off yesterday questioning; " love," " bondage," and " sex,"  within these cases. With these exceptional cases, suddenly words that are regarded as highly powerful/valuable and wonderful and right and what not, are being seen as weakness, as powerless, as having no value, bad and negative, disgusting even for some people, however for the individuals in question experiencing them, the words are as they are being defined and agreed upon within humanity collectively. So what does this mean? Does it mean that because these are all words not necessarily lived, however more so, experienced as an energetic experience that they are deceptive? Can they be trusted? No matter which side one chooses, it is the physical part that is what is being used as measurement to give these words that have an energetic charge as an experience within, their value.

Now lets talk about what is the reason behind people treating these cases as incest. Understand that incest in this world, or majority of countries if not all is punishable by law. People can go to jail for this.
Within incest the words: " disloyalty,"  " dishonesty," " bullying," " physical/psychological abuse," and " morality"  come into play. Now understand we are still looking at the " how something that is being felt as good within the human beings, is sometimes to be not acceptable in certain circumstances?"  With this I mean, the experience of the feeling of love that occurs between these individuals is the same as others will go through when they also fall in love with someone else, it's the same experience, even though they( individuals in these exceptional cases) say that the feeling is deeper and the bond is more powerful. This of course is personal, within their comparison of what they had before as an energetic experience when were in other relationships.
So, how come we humans can agree on the experience of the feeling of love to be something good, only when it is in accordance with what we determine in a moment what " good"  should be?
Can one see where I am going with this? I am focusing on the " the feeling of love." I am showing you through walking through these questions, how the feeling of love even though it is experienced as something " good," " positive," " wonderful," " powerful," " beautiful,"  and what not, it is not equal in practicality, in what the human do with his/her body. The outcome in the physical reality is not always the words that I have shared here that we the human beings use and give to love.
It is as the saying goes: " How can something be so wrong but yet feel so good and wonderful inside?"

Now that we have seen this, what is the lie? Is it not the energetic experiences? So how come we are still measuring our relationships with these? We are measuring relationships based on energy inside of us that are not equal in reality.
To give an example, two people cheating with one another, will tell you that they feel very good inside, they may even love one another, but yet their action/what they are doing together is unacceptable and they are aware of it being unacceptable, however, the FEELINGS inside are being experienced as " positive" " good"  " wonderful" " beautiful" ...............and what not, all these wonderful positive charged energies are being experienced and coined out in words such as these for description and definition of what they're going through.

So the BIG question remains;" how come we are still trusting these things, these energies, when we can see that they are not trustworthy at all to measure reality with?"
Within this we can see when Self-interest steps in, because now we are going to fight against one another to convince or convict one another when these wonderful feelings turns out to be something " wrong," " bad," " negative," according to our own findings.
They will only be what we all describe and define them to be, when it suits us personally in our doings!!!!

Now, how can we solve these problems?

As one can see, this is not only the problem with these people within these particular exceptional cases, however what they experience inside, that which they are using for their defense is the same that all humans experience when they are in love.
So WHO are we to condemn these individuals, calling them names and ostracizing them, when we are aware that what they are going through on the level of experiencing love is the same what we experience in our own relationships we have. Why is their love wrong and ours right? Love cannot be two things, understand that the experience itself is the same inside these people, it is the same positive energy charge that they are going through.

Thus to solve this problem, we all need to start forgiving these feelings, these emotions, these energetic charges we are experiencing inside ourselves, and we also make sure to measure the physical reality with common sense. And common sense is, that which is best for all practically measured and lived, that will have an outcome that is equal and one, best for all.

At desteni, this is what we do, we investigate ourselves, we assess what we do and what we do not do and to see if what we are doing will have an outcome that is best for all practically. As I have walked with you here to show you how we as humans are using love to measure our relationships with, to give it value and importance and to see it as something good, when love itself is not equal in the physical reality as it is being felt inside, the feelings do NOT match the reality outside. The physical reality, how we treat each other in the physical reality IS our truth! This is the WHO we are! What we accept and what we allow.

Thanks.


Larry Manuela

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Day 340, A dream about an occurence with a woman I am attracted to.

I know someone that I find attractive in many ways, but she told me she is not ready yet to start anything with no-one, so I will just wait.
But anyways, she asked me yesterday what it was I once told her about what it would mean to be a real Christian?
So I repeated what I have told her before, but in her voice, because it was a voice message she sent me I could hear that she was maybe talking to someone about bible stuff and could not remember what I told her and I could hear the anxiety in her voice, its like she was explaining something or trying to explain something and said something to someone but now can't get herself out of the thing and became nervous, at least that is what it seem as I find, but of course it can also be something else.

                                                               

Anyways, I listen to that voice message many time that night, and I kind of like felt sorry for her. This is point number one by the way...lol

So that night when I went to bed, I had a dream about the whole thing and in the dream I went to her house and was talking to her and trying to make as much sense as possible as I can, and I was holding her and was wanting to kiss her. I remember like having a enormous positive energy experience in my chest area and wanted to kiss, but she will keep on telling me to not yet, she is afraid of doing that, but the no seem as if she is saying know but yet also does not free herself out of my arms, she kept on being in my arms, and because of this from my point of view, she wants me to kiss her but she is just not sure and maybe even though she is saying no, probably want me to take some action and just kiss her anyways. But eventually in the dream I decided to not kiss her, because I know that she told me she doesn't want to start anything with no-one and I did not want to force her or better yet, manipulate her to divert from her decision, just because I am attracted to her, so I just hold her and even slept in the bed next to her just holding her close to me, because I "felt" that is what she needed in that moment. I also remember in my dream telling her to not to worry about my erection, because it is normal for me to have a erection when I am attracted to a woman and I got close and things seem to go into that direction, but it doesn't necessary mean that because I have an erection we have to do something, because after awhile if I do not respond on the erection it will eventually go flat, and she said, o.k.



                                                                   

So now before I continue with the deconstruction of this dream I want to point out for those whom may not be familiar with dreams and that dreams are actually ourselves. With this I mean that everything in the dream is oneself and/or what one perceives about oneself or others as oneself. The judgments one have about oneself or about others. Thus dreaming about someone else has nothing to do with the person that one is dreaming about in fact, it is all to do with one's;" dreams/desires/wants/wishes/fears/memories....etc etc..." The memory of the person in the dream is just the trigger-point ones mind itself uses in order to start the whole production of energy on the going.

I will place here the points I see about myself that I am aware I need to deconstruct these points within myself:

**    The desire I have to be with this woman
**    Wanting/desiring to kiss her lips
**     Believing that I can save her from whatever she might be going through emotionally
**    Wanting/desiring to have sexual intercourse with her
**     Feeling enormous positively charged energy within my chest area/ solar plexus
**     Feeling great respect to/towards her about keeping my word to her
**     Having this enormous patience to just wait till she comes to her senses
**     Desiring to protect her in whatever way I can
**     Feeling sorry about her, that she gets put to a challenge by others



So these were the points that may appear to be about her, but are actually my points I have to workout about myself within myself.

Self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even though I am aware of what she told me, to still desire her in a way, just because I am attracted to her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that just because I am attracted to her give me some reason or validation to have a desire or want within my mind about being with her.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that my desires I have to/towards her are all my own desires and are energetic in nature and are telling me that I am in separation with actually really getting to know her, because I have desire in front or between us, thus not seeing/realizing her as she is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide within myself this little feeling of positive energetic experience I have whenever I talk to her or is in her vicinity, but yet try to not let myself completely go into the whole feeling and understand it and turn it around within myself and use it constructively to/towards myself and to/towards her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the backchat: " This, woman if I will be with her, I am going to make sure that she will be the last woman I am going to be with on this planet within my life-time that I have left on this planet."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see her as the one that I was waiting for all of my life, without having any idea of what she would want with me or not or even if she would even want me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself get sabotaged by my own mind without seeing/realizing and understanding that even though I am very much grounded when in her presence or in her vicinity or by just talking to her and I am comfortable with myself with her, still I let little energies rise here and there and do not work on them all the time, till I am just here grounded/ stable as I am when in her presence.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire very much to be with this woman, instead of actually really just be here grounding myself in really really getting to know her exactly what I am aware I must do, because no matter what I do I am aware that I am stable and comfortable around her or in her presence and this is a great support for me within my process from consciousness to awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish/want and desire to kiss her lips many times, but I do not say it, but it appears within my mind as thoughts and also as fantasies accompanied with pictures of me kissing her lips and experiencing her lips to be soft as I believe they must be feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish/desire and want to have sexual intercourse with her, just because I am attracted to her without seeing/realizing and understanding that my sexual desire/wish and want is energy fluctuation within my mind and has nothing to do with practical spending time with her and really getting to know her and also in no ways validate my attraction to/towards her.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still want to interpret my attraction to/towards her as because I am attracted to her means that I also must have sex with her without seeing/realizing/ and understanding that there are more to her than just someone I am attracted to and also would want to have sex with, even though I am aware that within myself she means much much more than a woman that I would want to have sex with above all, because when I first met her sex did not appear within my mind neither when I was in her presence, I actually really enjoyed just being with her in fact. Thus  within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my sexual desire to try and manipulate myself into trying to sabotage myself into turning the attraction into something else and as if this something else is of more value than actually what I am aware of when I am with her which is being comfortable and grounded within and as myself when with her and actually really really wanting to get to know her for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be patient waiting for her, because I believe that this has something to do with respect when in reality I am aware that real respect is about treating and living with another as equals as life practically right here and that the only thing i have to be patient about with myself about her is just embrace patience itself, living it as I am waiting for her, because in actuality I am waiting for myself and project it to/towards her as if I have to wait for her, but in reality it is me that have to move and learn what it means to be patience here in this physical/practical world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret and still have the ancient believe that a man needs to protect his woman or prospect woman he is with or can be with, without seeing/realizing and understanding that I am in that moment actually validating just a old construct of believe system about relationships within my mind and using her just because I am aware I am attracted to her, thus silently trying to push this believe system through my own mind for me to fall into old relationship patterns I as of now did not workout yet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that she needs to be protected and that I am the one that needs to protect her.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if I am feeling the desire to protect her gives my attraction to and towards her more value as if I am telling myself that if I do not have the desire to protect her my attraction to her means nothing.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that attraction and protection of the one I am attracted to have something to do with me measuring the value of being with her or as if this make a stronger bond.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if I feel sorry for her that that will make me somehow care more about her, when in reality it is just an energy experience as emotion that I allow to arise within me in order to built on it to sabotage myself into falling into old relationship habits of having feelings about another, and driving me away from what is actually real, which is me being comfortable and stable when with her.

I forgive myself that I haven't seen/realize and understand that feeling sorry for her has no actual practical support to her in this physical reality and that if I really want to support her as best as I can I must be practical and physical and in fact here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that by feeling sorry for her gives me more impetus to find her even more attractive without seeing/realizing and understanding that I am within my mind trying to sabotage myself into moving from what is real and here to limiting myself with energy, which needs to be generated and produced by my own body in order for it to even be within the sphere of my experience.



Will be continuing with more in the next blog.........


Thanks



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Day 300, Who am I in relationship with the word: " Cloud." part 15

Now moving to the next word, which will be: "Clouds."

I suggest reading the very first blog where I said I will be walking a list of words one by one about understanding myself as who I am in relationship with these words. Here is the link:

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/02/day-286-what-is-understanding.html


So let me have a look at as always forst what the dictionaries are saying about this particular word.

¹cloud

 noun, often attributive \ˈklau̇d\

: a white or gray mass in the sky that is made of many very small drops of water

: a large amount of smoke, dust, etc., that hangs in the air

: a large number of things (such as insects) that move together through the air in a group

Full Definition of CLOUD

1

:  a visible mass of particles of condensed vapor (as water or ice) suspended in the atmosphere of a planet (as the earth) or moon

2

:  something resembling or suggesting a cloud: as

a :  a light filmy, puffy, or billowy mass seeming to float in the air <a cloud of blond hair> <a ship under a cloud of sail>

b (1) :  a usually visible mass of minute particles suspended in the air or a gas (2) :  an aggregation of usually obscuring matter especially in interstellar space (3) :  an aggregate of charged particles (as electrons)

c :  a great crowd or multitude :  swarm <clouds of mosquitoes>

3

:  something that has a dark, lowering, or threatening aspect<clouds of war> <a cloud of suspicion>

4

:  something that obscures or blemishes <a cloud of ambiguity>

5

:  a dark or opaque vein or spot (as in marble or a precious stone)

6

:  the computers and connections that support cloud computing <storing files in the cloud>

 See cloud defined for English-language learners »

See cloud defined for kids »

So there it is. When I was a kid I used to wonder at the sight of clouds passing by in the sky, and asking myself what specifically is their purpose, because these clouds are going to become rain somewhere . But there are clouds that are very high in the atmosphere where they are not going to become rain drops, but yet they will dissapear and do become waterdrops in the ocean. Now there are different types of clouds and with the knowledge of these clouds one can predict what will happen on the land sometimes, not with precise prediction, but near precise. Precise it will never be, because it is an predictions and predictions are coming from an unkown point of reference. The types of clouds we have named because of their altitute and their form formation gives us an indication as to what to expect on the land and also on the oceans, and we can measure the humidity in the air, we can measure also the temperture and with that also the speed of the wind. We have the following cloud formations:


                                                                           

Cumulus: cloud formation below 6000 ft.
Stratus: cloud formation below 6000 ft.
Stratuscumulus: cloud formation below 6000 ft
Altostratus: cloud formation between  6000-20000 ft.
Altocumulus: cloud formation between 6000-20000 ft.
Cumulonimbus: cloud formation from near the ground to above 50000 ft.
Cirrus: cloud formation above 18000 ft.
Cirruscumulus: mackeral sky( patterned as a Mackeral's back) above 18000 ft.


All these types of clouds are formed in what is called in science: " the Troposphere"

Thus cloud formations happen only in this sphere in the sky. The low cloud formations are the group of clouds where out of which rain will fall on the soil or on the oceans. This is what I remembered from my Meteorology classes when I was studying to become a captain of a sea-vessel. One have to know these in order to prevent going into storms on the sea or at least know what kind of storm one will be dealing with, and how the ocean is going to react because of the clouds above.
Now I am not going to go into the whole science here, because if one is interested one can find all the information about clouds for oneself on the internet, there are many cool explanations with nice pictures telling the science of cloud formation.
So the main purpose of clouds are to make sure that it rains and also to cool the earth down and keep certain radiation from the sun bouncing back into the atmosphere above.
We often use the term: "that person have a clouded mind," implying that the person have lots of thoughts going on in his/her mind, his or her mind is very busy. What we often miss about our mind and its inner working is, that the mind is not composed of only thoughts, the feelings and emotions are also part of the mind. So to have a clouded mind we will also have to integrate the rest of the compositions of the mind, which are the feelings and emotions. And just like in the troposphere we have the low-clouds, the middle-clouds and the high-clouds, so is it too within our minds, we have the low-thoughts/feelings and emotions, the middle-thoughts/feelings and emotions, and the high- thoughts/feelings and emotions.
So when I have a look at myself as to what happens within my mind, it is exactly like what happens in the cloud formations in the sky, the only difference being that the clouds work with nature and my mind is working against nature. My "clouded-mind " is in direct support of the mind itself alone, to protect it, to keep it going with its rains of toughts/feelings and emotions, where the sky of my complete mind is not visible anymore, or at all.




Self-Forgiveness & Self-Commitment Statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cloud my mind with thoughts/feelings and emotions so much so that I am lost within the clouding of my mind and preocupied with it that I cannot see the whole of what I am as the totality of what my mind consist of and exist as in a moment.

I realize that by clouding myself with thoughts/feelings and emotions I am not going to be aware of the totality of who I am as my whole mind.

Thus within this, I commit myself to through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life in self-honesty to continue one by one day by day deleting these thoughts, feelings and emotions till the sky of my mind is visible to me within and as myself and I can then start to use to whole of the mind and place what i want to be in it so it serves life on earth and not the mind in separation to life on earth.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never use what is outside of myself as what I see with my human eyes to learn more about what happens in myself and use that to change myself in accordance with was here, because what is outside of myself as what I see in nature itself as how nature functions as far as I can understand it, is always going to be what is best for life on earth. Thus by studying what is outisde of me as in nature, how life functions in practical terms in nature, I will learn from that to also function as an individual that support nature in the best way possible.

I realize that I am taking what happens in nature as how it functions for granted, because I separate myself from nature through my mind and thus interpret what I believe nature is doing, instead of integrating it and use it as a way to transform myself to act in the best interest of life on earth, in the physical reality.

Therefore, I commit myself through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life, done in self-honesty to pay more attention to the functionality of what happens outisde in nature and to use what I see without the intepretation of my mind to change myself into a being that also in its own workings will do just like in nature what will be best for life on earth.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cloud myself with thoughts about nature, wherein I tell msyelf that I cannot understand nature and its working in its totality, just because I have separated myself from nature and its working through my very mind and its inner workings.

I realize that the fallacy I accept within myself that I cannot understand nature in all its splendor, comes out of the separation I have created within and as myself from nature by separating myself in thoughts about nature which are just interpretation of a mind that is not equal to and one with nature.

Therefore, I commit myself to work on myself to eradicate this separation through thoughts within my mind, through forgiving myself these thoughts that are just interpretation of nature out of separation, and make sure I commit myself to learn from nature so I can change my current self-created/accepted-nature of separation from nature to an equal and one living and expressing myself WITH nature.




Self-Reward:

Within this blog I have come to see/realize and understand that I am not using what I see in nature to help myself to change myself into a human being that will do exactly what nature does, thus------------- to do what is best for all life on earth. knowing this now, I can now go about looking at nature as in how it functions and use what I can use out of my current understanding of nature to integrate that into my living application that will be equal to what is happening in nature as support to life on earth.



Thanks.


Larry Manuela


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Day 289, Who am I in relationship with the word: "Emotions." Part- 4

Within this thread I am going to explore for myself the next word I have placed in the first blog I wrote about: " what is understanding."

The next word in the word-list is: " Emotions"

Now before I go into the writing of this, I must state here that not all the words I have placed in the word-list will be words that I can use the information of the interdimensional portal to see more on that level or/and other people within desteni. And some words will need only a re-definition, like; 'car, airplane, house.'
Also I must say that, I am not in the position to go deeply within the understanding of emotions as within the interdimensional level, thus will walk what I understand about it and till all of it becomes more clearly understood within myself and thus I live the understanding of it as whom I am.

So now to Emotions.

This is what this word is being defined as within this world. I have chosen this time; Dictionary.com

e·mo·tion

  [ih-moh-shuhn]  Show IPA

noun

1.

an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.

2.

any of the feelings of joy, sorrow, fear, hate, love, etc.

3.

any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., and usually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat or respiration, and often overtmanifestation, as crying or shaking.

4.

an instance of this.

5.

something that causes such a reaction: the powerful emotion of a great symphony.

So as we can see here above according to these defintions  emotions are something that happens in the inside of us as something we experience in the form of energy, but yet the energy itself we do not see it within us, we just experience it, and these experiences are learned and passed on from generations to generations. We cannot see how it is energy is being created within our bodies itself.


Now I will look at what the portal have said about these emotions and se what I can understand out of that.

I will use the following blogs for that:

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-let-my-emotions-get-best-of-me-part-1.html

Within this blog a specific point about emotions was laid out and explained, but within it, there are cool mentionings of what an emotion is, so I will be placing these here, and I quote:

"  EMOTIONS, reactions / emotional-reactions such as anger, frustration, hatred, fear – is ENERGY reaction produced by a Mind/Consciousness and humans are constantly-continuously in fact existing in/as this LIVING STATEMENT of accepting and allowing ENERGY as emotions and feelings, in fact, to get the best of you, your AWARENESS. "

Now within this one quote here I am going to workout for myself what I have come to understand within it through self-forgiveness statements and self-commitment statements.

Self-Forgiveness & Self-Commitment statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not really see/realize and understand what emotions really are on all levels as they exist within me as me as the mind as energy, from conception all the way to living it out.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into not allowing myself to see all that is to see within and as myself about what emotions really are on all levels within and as myself, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am allowing myself to not fully investigate within myself  what emotions really are on all levels because of my own self-accepted believe of limiting my understanding and thus my seeing within and as myself as what I am letting myself go through as emotions.

Thus within this, I commit myself to investigate my emotions fully and to also remind myself that I need to be patient with myself, because it is not something that I can understand at this stage within a moment and that my understaning of my own emotions needs my forgiving of myself of what I have been accepting and allowing within and as myself to exist as me as the mind as energy.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the reaction/ emotional reaction as anger, is energy reaction produced by my mind/consciousness that I am constantly and consistently exisiting in and as to get the best of my awareness.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into reaction/emotional reaction as anger, I STOP------------- take a deep breath and bring msyelf back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am constantly and consistenly allowing myself to participate into reaction/emotional reaction as anger, because I am allowing myself as the part of me that is aware of everything about me to be lead astrayed by the energy that is produced by my own body.

Therefore, I commit myself to make sure to through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitments to life, to not only stop myself in moments when anger appears or before it appears, but to actually have a look at where it is coming from and what caused me to react in such a way and more specifically how to make sure I do NOT participate into it again in other moments and do my best to find out what memories are existing within me as my mind consciousness system that are holding on to defense mechanisms as emotions to protect my self-interest of certain/specific character/personality within me.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the reaction/emotional reaction as frustration, is energy reaction produced by my mind consciousness system that I am constantly/consistently exisiting in and as to get the best of my awareness.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the reaction/emotional reaction as frustration, I STOP------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am letting myself get into the reaction/emotional reaction as frustration when I am not in full understanding of something or my bringing it out in words as explanation is not being understood by another and thus this energy reaction continues.

Therefore, I commit myself to through my writing of self-forgiveness and out loud speaking of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life, to make sure to before I speak something to really calm myself down within breath and slowly bring out what I want to express as best as possible as I can with the words I can stand by and as, as what I will be communicating and if another still does not understand what I am saying to just choose in that moment to not go into the reaction of frustration but instead choose to stick with my breathing as in focusing on my breathing, and then again communicate and look for other words that may be shared that bring clarity to my communication to/towards another as myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the reaction/emotional reaction as hatred is energy reaction produced by my mind consciousness system that I am constantly/consistently existing as and in to get the best of my awareness.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into reaction/emotional reaction as hatred, I STOP-------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I go into reaction/emotional reaction of hatred to/towards the actions of all of humanity within myself and thus not seeing/realizing and understanding that in allowing myself to participate within this I am in fact perpetuating this hatred that exists within this world through others as myself and thus in fact supporting that which I within myself hate about myself and the rest of the humans for what we do and not do.

Therefore, I commit myself to through my writing of self-forgiveness and my commitment to life to not only investigate this hatred more deeply but to also come up with practical solutions that will assist and support me to not participate within hatred and also to make sure that I within my participation within this world does not perpetuate this reaction/emotional reaction within this world through my example if I were to allow myself to go through it and live it out.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that the reaction/emotional reaction as fear is energy produced by my mind consciousness system that I am constantly/consistently existing in and as to get the best of my awareness.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the reaction/emotional reaction as fear, I STOP-------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am reacting in/as fear whenever there are unresolves issues about my own fears within and as my own mind consciousness system about the fear that exists within me that I do not understand as of yet why it exist within me as me as the mind as energy.

Therefore, I commit myself to look more into my fear in relation to unresolved issues about my own fears and investigate/introspect it more deeply and slowly but surely clearing all the fear that exists within me as me as the mind as energy.

Self-Reward:

Within this blog I have seen/realized and understood that Emotions are existing within me, because of my acceptance and allowance of them within and as me to be produced by my mind consciousness system, and thus giving them permission to direct my participation within and as my world based on what is directed of/from them for me to act out upon or react upon in the real world/phyical reality. Thus now that I am clear within myself as to what extent it is I am busy letting myself get carried away by my own self-created emotions, I can apply myself beforehand and make sure I do not let myself be directed by/through them and make sure to remain here in breath and and my human physical body and from this starting point direct me to apply myself within and as such standing as myself as the breath and as my human physical body here.

Thanks.

Larry Manuela

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Day 285, Work/Communication with the children = Debt based Money Problems- Part 2

In this blog I am continuing where I left of from the previous blog.
Here is the link to that one blog: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/02/day-284-workcommunication-with-children.html

Self-Forgiveness & Self-Commitments statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not find the job that I have interesting/not of my liking because, the machine is having the same technical problems all the time and they are not being fixed properly and this makes my work on the machine more stressful, because the pressure is on me to produce more, when I can't produce more when the machine is not running well.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into judgement of my job and looks for ways to blame it within and as my mind, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind.

I realize that I am judging and blaming my job by finding it not interesting and out of the confines of my liking, because it has some technical problems that are not being fixed, thus stress ensues.

Thus, within this I commit myself to look at my job as a point to support myself within the system and not judge it or blame it just because there are problems and it is not function well. I make sure that when there is problem to remond myself to stay focus on my breathing and just make sure I engage into some other little work that take my attention away from the point where the problem is where I keep on stressing, and make sure also that I am physically busy doing something and just take it to the technical staff to come and solve it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be sad and feel guilty, because I cannot communicate with my children properly as I would like it to be.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into being sad and feeling guilty, because I cannot communicate with my children properly, I STOP---------take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that because of not proper communication with my children makes me feel sad and also guilty, when all I have to do is communicate the situation in a way/manner they can understand and take it from there as it is, and that this is the situation I find myself in and its going to be so for awhile and that I am in a solution to it that is going to be a route/section.

Thus within this I commit myself to just stick with the physical tasks that i have to do within the system to support myself and to get out of the problems I am in with regards to the debts  that I have created for myself and when all is set, I can communicate this all to the children as practical as possible and make sure when I do so, to stay stable within my breath and direct myself to communicate in clarity without fluctuation in voice nor energetic feelings of emotions,just share the my situation as it is and what it will mean in regards to my communication to/with them and that's it.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make debts in the past and due to this have to now face the consequences related to these debts I have made in the past, be them unpractical debts or debts that I just had to make to survive within the system.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into making new debts, to Immediately STOP,------------take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that because of me making debts, have severe consequences that are not best for all, and thus that I have to STOP this and change the way I deal with money.


Thus within this, I commit myself to make sure I learn and teach myself to work WITH money and not make it something I have to fight against and treat as if it means nothing to me, and thus spent money like it has no value, and just use it as what is just actually needed and that is it.




Self-Reward:

Within these two blogs I have seen/realized and understood what I have done within and as myself, within the decisions I have made within my past and also see now that I am in the consequence phase of them, what it is I need to do in order to correct these mistakes and just face what is coming to me in common sense, and be humble with myself and with others within the whole process and to stay vigilant and focused too, so I do not let myself get abused because I am being humble with myself with others. I make sure I keep the common sense points sharp.


Thanks.


Larry Manuela


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