Day 233, Not Wanting/Willing/DARING To Communicate. Part 8

Now coming to the last dimension in regards to this one point. This dimension will be the Consequence-Dimension.

And for more context i will place all the links of the previous posts related to this one point and wherein i walked all the dimensions of that one point, to work it out for myself.


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-232-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-231-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-230-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-229-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-228-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-227-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2013/04/day-226-not-wantingwillingdaring-to.html


And for a little bit of what i wrote yesterday, here is an excerpt:



Self-Reward:


The Reward i give myself HERE, is to make sure that i will become more attentive in the words i speak and also attentive to what my body gives me as signs as when something is wrong in the sense of me NOT being HERE and lost within and as my mind consciousness system. So now when mty body reacts, i can immediately assess within myself IF the body reactions have to do with me NOT being HERE as my human physical body itself one and equal, within and as my breath.





Now, up to the last dimension that will be the Consequence Dimension.




Problem:



Consequence dimension:


*** I create an outflow of consequence where me and her are in a state of being uncomfortable with each other in how we interact and behave with each other.


**** Avoiding communication with each other


*** avoiding eye-contact




Solutions:



Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to due to me not wanting/willing/Daring to cumminacte with her as i should makes me create an outflow of consequence wherein me and her are in a state of uncomfortableness with each other in how we interact and behave with each other.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see/realize/understand to what extent my none wanting/willing/daring to communicate can lead to an outcome that is NOT BEST for both participants. Thus within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT have made a decision that has an outcome that would have been BEST for the both participants.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to due to me NOT wanting/willing/daring to communicate makes me and her kind of avoid communication with each other instead of looking at the point as to why we are acting and behaving like that and sort it out immediately, taking our directive will either it comes from myself or her, but as long as it is exposed so we can see it, because one may see something the other does not see in a moment, and being quiet about will not change the situation or bring awareness to the point of inequality or separation. Thus within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT take my directive will when and as i see myself having a reaction or a belief about something to immediately bring it out as to look at it as to understand why it exists within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to avoid eye contact with her, just because i interpret from my mind consciousness system that she is avoiding eye contact with me, thus i do the same, instead of asking the question as why that is happening, thus why it is we are avoinding looking at each other in the eye.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT take my directive will to ask in a moment when something is not clear to me, what it is that is not clear and why i and another is then reacting due to a point that is unclear or not understood.





Self-commitment statements:


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into NOT wanting/willing/daring to communicate to immediately STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE, till i am clear and stable and out of this i can then have a look within myself as to why it is i am NOT wanting/willing/daring to communicate and when i find the reason within myself as to why i am not communicating i then find a way to bring it to exposure through either in moment forgiving myself or if it is somewhere i can write it down in a format as self-forgiveness writings i do so, and after this i correct myself to make sure i don't repeat this again where i create an internal fight within myself unnecessarily that leads to a none communication between two participants or more.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into NOT making in the decision in a moment that can have an outcome that will be BEST for both participants, i STOP take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE, till i am clear and stalbe and out of this clarity and stability i then look within myself why it is i am not making a a decision that will be BEST for all and then correct myself and just make the decision in a moment in common sense that i am sure will be BEST for all, and IF it is something that i need to ask the other for her permission i do so, because my decision can be what is BEST for me, but it can also be not what is BEST for the other, thus i have to take into consideration what the other will find of my decision and If it is NOT what is BEST for her, then the two of us can work out and agree to a point wherein what is BEST for both is acceptable and practical and doable.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into avoiding communicating with another as myself, i STOP take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure i focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and then from this point of clarity and stability i look within myself to see why it is i am avoiding commincation with another as myself and when i find it within me i work on it to make sure i correct myself and take my directive will when i see something is NOT what is BEST for all, thus in this case avoiding communication and then find simple practical/doable ways to communicate with each other that will be BEST for both.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into avoiding eye contact with her, i immediately STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and in this clarity and stability i can then look within myself as to why i am avoiding eye contact with her and when i find the reason within myself as my own truth i then forgive myself in that moment and correct myself directly as to work out the point of avoiding eye contact with each other.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am in a point within myself where i see that something is unclear to me i immediately STOP take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and make sure i focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and from out of this starting point i can then investigate within myself why it is something is unclear to me and what exactly is unclear to me and that it is something i have to ask another to assist and support me, so i can see it within myself for myself i then do so IF it is not, i just don't.




Self-Reward:


The reward i can give to myself HERE is that i can see that i can assist and support myself by looking within myself in a moment when i know within myself that i am NOT wanting/willing/daring to communicate with another as myself, because there is something that i myself have accepted and allowed within myself to be as judgements and reactions/backchats/internal conversations/thoughts and thus STOP it in a moment investigate it and then correct myself and make sure that the correction i make is one that i can trully LIVE practically that will be BEST for me and another as myself.





Thanks.




Larry Manuela

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Day 180, How Do We Prevent Language As Being Separation..??

Yes prevention is the BEST cure..!!!

Have a look at all this language to what it has lead mankind. We have been unable to communicate with each other properly because of this language barrier. All the languages and dialects we have that are between 6000 and 7000 according to wikipedia, are one of the very roots of our problems, assuring we never get to SOLVE our problems, because our communication skills are impaired by all these different languages, that are unnecesary if you ask me.

                                                           


So how do we prevent poor communication impairness..??

When we truly see the importance of communication and especially when it comes to LIFE matters, it is utterly important to communicate well, and also in a simple form but yet a form where one can explain what is to be communicated in the BEST possible way.


Now we are in the the information age, with all these information technology and you name it. Herein this English language is the language that is being used. Now understand to let go of your preconceived ideas about the English language about what the Englishmen did in the past and still the elite in this group are doing.....let all this shit go..!!!   Look at this as just as the language itself nothing else, thus we are looking at the availability/the usage/practicality of the language as it exist right here, right now..!!  Since we are using this language broadly we can introduce this language to be the language all of us will learn so no matter where we go, this language is the language we will use to understand one another, so we don't have to go through all the none sense of looking for people to translate one language into another, because this translating process is most of the times tainted, you see..?? The traducer most of the times will give that which he/she is translating, his/her own view/perecption/interpretation of how he/she understands something, and then again based on this same network of languages that the traducer may have as his/her own language, thus meaning that the traducer in our example here is not a person whom language is English, but some other language, and thus this person due to this will look at something in a different way. Now understand i am not saying we all have to look at things in the same way, what i am sharing is that we MUST be able to communicate about these things we see differently so it is clear to all what it is we see, you get this,-------------- in other words, what it is we understand differently and be able to work out solutions that will be BEST for all participants, can you see this...??

Do not let fear interfere with this, because i can understand your fear and also all these psychopatic conspiracy propaganda that is going on in this world about all this new world order thingy of the elites. Let all of this SHIT go..!!  Look at the practicality of having everyone knowing one language that we all can communicate with, with each other regardless of where we come from and in what culture we were born into, so we can start to come to terms of understanding one another mutually and be able to wipe out this division/separation that has caused us to suffer so much and abused one another because we cannot communicate with one another and thus cannot understand one another.


Thus understand: '' PREVENTION IS THE BEST CURE.....!!!!! ''




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Day 160, When Happiness Turns Into Sadness Part 2

So here i am going to walk the dimensions of fear in self-honesty so i can resolve the issues within myself and you the reader can see how you can resolve yours to.

                                             

This is what i wrote yesterday:    http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-159-when-happiness-turn-into-sadness.html


So what are my fears within all this story, let's have a look..??


Fear dimension:



* Fear or loss

* fear of not being able to communicate with my son

* fear of what he might become if i am not an influence in his life

* fear of him turning his emotional turmoils into destructive behavior to/towards himself and others as himself


* fear of my son being brainwashed into any culture in this world, for they are all serving one purpose and one purpose only, and that is to separate one from another.

* fear of my son loosing himself in his mind, and never be able to birth himself as life as the physical, because he is far away from me and i cannot have any influence in his life for him to see that the way we live with each other is unacceptable and that he is the one, like everyone else that HAVE to change in order for all of us to change the world. We are the participants in this world that make the world the way it is, so as participants in inequality now, we must change our living with each other into EQUALITY, where LIFE is honored and NOT the opinions we have about life.





Self-forgiveness:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing  my son to exist within me as me, because i know within myself that when he is far away, it will be more difficult for me to see him and hear from him, and this add to the consequences as when something happens to him mentally or physically i will not be able to assist and support him using common sense reasoning for him to realize what the heck is going on and why it is he is feeling the way he feels, because no-one else with him will be able to do this, because they just don't know, don't understand these things, they are as lost as he is. Lostness can only teach lostness.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the fear of not being able to communicate with him to exist within me as me, for i know my son listen to me, because he is very attached to me, as i can already see, that even in the little moments i spent with him and i say things to him that make sense, he never forgets and always wants to proof to me through doing his best at whatever that he have me in his mind, something i don't really approve of, because within this he is learning to depend on his feelings instead of learning to walk within and as his human physical body and be one and equal with and as his human physical body and his breath.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what could become of him when i am really far far away from him, because i know he is an emotional kid, something that is NOT the way one should be living by in this world, and measure ones reality according to it, for it is NOT what is physical and HERE as LIFE. I realize that this what i write here is very difficult for others to understand, because others see and believe themselves to be these feelings/emotions/thoughts, because this is all they ever were and experienced themselves as, and have used to walk the earth as: ''the whom I am.''  So within this i forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to have patients with others as myself as i am aware that they do NOT understand what i understand as of right now.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my son will turn his emotional turmoil into destructive behavior to/towards himself or others as himself for he will not know how to deal with these. Within this i realize i see three secnarios that can play out in his life because of being an emotional kid............ 1) He can by being emotional about things start to question things in life, because of this, because this is what happened to me to, when i was a kid, i was also emotional as he is now..............  2) He can by being emotional about things start to fight the emotions themselves within himself and also become someone who is always looking for troubles and.......3) even can become a bully or someone that becomes a person that everyone just walk on.   So within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my son using what is within my memories as what are happening and did happen in this world to myself and others as myself as an example for what could become of my son, without seeing/realizing/understanding that all of that is NOT what is HERE now within and as the physical as the body of my son that is HERE within and as this physical reality and that this is just my own mind projection i impose on him and this whole physical reality.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my son will be brainwashed to accept any culture in this world as being part of the whom he is, because i am aware that to have a sense of belonging to any culture in this world means that one accept and allow separation to exist within oneself and within the world at large, and as long as there is separation there cannot be ONENESS AND EQUALITY, that which is BEST for ALL life.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my son will not be able to birth himself as the physical, because i will not be having as much as a communication with him in order for him to HEAR common sense reasoning, and he will be lost in his mind with all the people around him that are just like him personalities in a mind, that are using logic and opinions, which points are NOT to be trusted as measurements for life. Within this i forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that whatever happens within my son as energy that it will be his own doing and he will have to take his self-responsibility for that, and that i can only assist and support him in that by helping him develop his common sense reasoning so he can for himself what is REAL and what is NOT and choose than what is REAL,which is that which is this physical reality and NOT his mental garbage that is the thoughts/feelings/emotions/opinions/judgements/internal conversations/energetic reactions/back-chats/imaginations/projections/needs/wants/desires/believes.


So within this i forgive myself that i haven't seen/realized/understood that i am being selfish in regard to my son, by having future projections about him within myself as wanting/wishing for him to birth himself as the physical right HERE as his human physical body, for i am aware that this is NOT my decision and is and will be only his, and his alone and from no-one else for each stand alone in this, they are either going to choose life or abdicate life for an illusion as the mind.


Tomorrow i will continue with self-commitment statements in relation to these self-forgiveness statements...............



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Larry Manuela




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