Day 385, The Good Guy Thingy, PART 2

within this post I will be doing my self forgiveness statements in regards to and in relation to the previous blog. For context read the previous blog here.


                                                                                     

Self-forgiveness statements:             

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to represent myself as a good guy within and as my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that being a good guy has something to do do with real goodness in the physical reality, which is that which is best for all of life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use/abuse the good guy personality to get away with the fear that exist within me as me as the mind as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that by being a good guy character within and as the mind I am allowing fear as fear to exist within and as me and into the outside world as well, wherein I am abdicating my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being not liked by other people, thus in fearing this, I give the good guy personality existence within me in order for me to NOT go into/through the consequences of having to deal with/confront/face that which is uncomfortable because it goes right in to/through my self-created self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to go through lots trouble if I was to be self-honest all the time, because I am aware that, in a world of dishonesty I will hated, will be feared, will be bullied, thus to avoid all of this occurring to me I choose to not stand as the principle of what is best for all life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people wanting to get back at me, because of me being against their self-interest, which is not what is best for life, thus knowing that I will be attacked makes me choose my own self-interest using survival as a tactic to make sure I do not choose what is best for all life in every moment, but give in/give up disrespecting myself and thus all life to avoid going through/facing my self-created fear, fearing my won fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the fear of being persecuted because of me having to stand up for life, making me back down a little, taking it slow, just to give myself more time, when in reality I am aware that the time I have / i got is the moments of breath I have in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what might happen if I would be HERE in real time as the breath of life that I have been given, being equal and one with all that is here as this physical reality as this human physical body that I am here now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that to stand within and as the principles of life, automatically place me into a position/situation wherein I can be abused, I can hated upon, I can be bullied upon, which are all true, however, having to create fear in regards to these consequences is not what would be best for me.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/nor understand that to accept fear within and as myself is equal and one as accepting fear within and as others as myself as other people in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see being a good guy as something of weakness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see being a good guy as something as weakness, because I am aware that this good guy personality allows others to walk over them a little or completely, which is a form of weakness, but is in actuality connected to the fear of being physically abused, physically mutilated, physically hurt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the personality of  being a good guy to fall into the category of something that is positive, something that is good.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that, that which I allow myself to be as this personality/character in the mind, as a good guy, is an invention/creation of myself to make sure I do not challenge reality as I really see it as it exists here within and as this physical reality/physical realm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing reality as it is, because of certain circumstances/situations that can have an outcome that would not be best for me, instead of seeing/realizing and understanding, how I can come up with a way, a manner within which I can come up with a solution that will not have to put me immediately in a situation where I can  be physically hurt or abused.




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Day 324, So Larry Why don't you change?

As you can see, this title is referring to myself. I am asking myself, why it is I am not changing as I would like to change myself as what I am aware must be done in order to be the example I must be, so that the way we live with each other and everything else can change to?

Before I continue about myself I want to place two videos of two people whom did effect my life and the way I looked at life in a very deep way.

First I place the video of Jiddu Krishnamurti with the title: " Why don't you change."

And the video of Bernard Poolman, with the title: "  2012, finding your purpose in the journey to life."

So there you have them, two of the many videos that have supported me in all the times I let myself be down so to speak. Within this abusing myself and thus being abuser of all life.




Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even when I am aware that I have to change, I still postpone my change in sitting and waiting and just taking in information and knowledge and not really actually doing anything with them that will result into that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change as I would like to change myself to be an example in this world no matter what, as to what it means practically to be the change I want to be in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do what is necessary to be done in my life to change myself to be/become a living example of the principle of that which is best for all life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe my own justifications and my self-sabotages to keep on continuing allowing myself to not change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through me not changing myself as I am aware I have to, I also within the big picture let down all of the ones that will find similarities within my writing that they go through within their own lives, thus within this not taking my self-responsibility to actually walk my own process and thus my process which is also at the same time a support to others that may go through the same patterns and constructs I am going through, to assist and support them.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself through my procrastination accept and allow all what is here in this world as the manifested physical mind to be here and continue to exists as it exists without me changing me in order to be effective enough to become a member of humanity that will come together and change the physical manifested mind as the systems we have accepted and allowed to be here as the way we live on this planet as human beings.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate within me anger to/towards myself because I am aware of myself not doing what I am aware I must do to change myself in order to be the change humanity needs to see in the world.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to live my commitments to the fullest as I wrote them in the past, and therefore not proofing to myself all the way that I can change myself in every moment of every breath by actually walking and sticking to my own commitments I have made that will have a result when I live them, that will change myself into a human being that lives by and as the principles of that which is best for all life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do too little, just because I am aware now or by the very first time I saw the common sense of what I am accepting and allowing to happen to how life functions here in this world practically, which is not what is best for all life, so in order to hold face I do just little, because within me I am aware what is needed to be done and within my mind I let myself fight my own change, thus I deliberately sabotage myself in order to not actually really change in the moment by just taking the decision and see what has to be done physically/practically within common sense that will result in me living that which is according to the principle of that which is best for all life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed poverty to exist because I do not care enough as in physical/practical care to make sure that poverty is not a living condition on this planet for any life-form.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed hunger to exist on the planet for countless beings, by accepting and allowing a system to exist where such living condition is existent for many many beings.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even when I am aware of what the heck is going on, still I do not place myself and do more then enough to change myself in order to be a living example of the change that is being seen as impossible and make it visible and thus possible for all to see within the whom I become and the how I live my life in relationships with everything else with only one principle as an outcome, which is; ' that which is best for all life," no matter in what form life has manifested itself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be really self-honest within my writings about myself within and as my process, and deliberately leave certain aspect about myself for later, when I am aware that the later will not come, because I will keep on not writing about it, postponing my own change.




To be continued........................................................




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Day 313, The desteni of living - My declaration principle.

The Desteni of Living

1. Realising and living my utmost potential
2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all
3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa
4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others
5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others
6. Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well
7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others
8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own
9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me
10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have
shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what is means to LIVE
11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone
12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today
13. Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves
14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one
15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.
16. Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come
17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth
18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in
our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.
19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath
20. Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me
21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without
22. The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23. The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth.


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In future posts to come , I will be walking each principle as how I live them, and how I practically corrected myself and changed and is still in the process of correcting myself as I go along applying the principles.

Day 230, Not Wanting/Willing/DARING To Communicate. Part 5

So, here i am continuing with the walking of the dimension in regard to this point of communication.


For more context, from what i wrote a day before, here is a little excerpt:







Self-Reward:



I can see now that i am fearing exposing myself in order to not get rid of what i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become as a mind consciousness system, thus now that i can see myself within my writing i then will be more vigilant and attentive in other similar moments/circumstances when these arive/present themselves, in order to little by little move myself out of this pattern and also to STOP myself from being like this, till i move myself as myself as my directive WILL, within the principle of Oneness and Equality, that which is BEST for all LIFE.




Problem:




Imagination-dimension:


*** Imaginging saying what i have to say, and then due to that getting into conflict/friction with her, just because i exposed myself.


*** Imagining myself being very annoyed/bothersome with expressing myself as the mind consciousness system with myself or with another due to the fear of Maybe/possibly having to work on it.


*** Imaging the other also going through the experiences of being annoyed and/or being bothered by what i have to say.





Solutions:





Self-forgiveness statements:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine saying what i have to say to her, because i belief that by saying/sharing myself to her, i will be getting into conflict/friction with her, just because i exposed myself as the mind consciousness system, something i need to stop and correct within myself and that i need to see for myself in words and actions first, before i can stop myself as this LIE that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become wherein i am completely unaware as the whom i am as LIFE, as the human physical body/form and as my breath of LIFE in every moment.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think/belief that i really NEED to see myself in words and action First, when in reality i can see all of this if i pause and stay within and as my breath, and just be HERE so i don't communicate words of separation to SELF as myself and others as myself.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use words in separation to myself as SELF as LIFE, and therefore create an outcome that is NOT best for all.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine being annoyed/bothersome with myself to share myself as the mind consciousness system that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become with another as myself, as i fear having to maybe/possibly having to work on it as myself as what i have become.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my imagination as to see something annoying/bothersome as a way to try and see how i can avoid working on myself, because i know within me that this means that i have to change me.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to Fear changing me, because changing me means according to myself as a mind consciousness system that I won't exist anymore, as the various of stages of what i have been is not here anymore. Thus within this i realize that i fear that which is as me as a system as a memory within my mind consciousness system, without seeing/realizing/understanding that Me as the human physical form as an expression of LIFE has always and is still HERE. Thus i Forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR to Be HERE.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine another as myself also maybe/possibly going through the same experiences of being annoyed/bothersome if i am to say what i have to say as me exposing myself as the mind consciousness system.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to link imagination to fear of not exposing myself as a mind consciousness system.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to even have an imagination about another as myself being annoyed/bothersome, just because i am annoyed/bothersome within myself with my own thoughts.





Self-commitment statements:



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into believing that sharing myself with/to her i will be getting into conflict/friction, when this all part of myself imagining stuff that are not even happening at all in the moment, To STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE, till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and from this clarity andstability i communicate to her in a way that will be BEST for both of us, thus taking my directive will and direct myself in a way where i can communicate better to what is really happening within myself and so i can deal with the fear of exposing myself in order to get rid of the self that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become as a LIE.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into trying to create a need within myself that i need to see myself as in the words and actions first, which when one is not constantly and consistently in Breath is not possible to do this, and thus i immediately STOP, take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE, and continue focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and from this starting point I then Speak, use words as myself right HERE in breath one and equal.


I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into using words in separation to mySELF, i STOP-----------take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE and focus on my breathing till i am clear and stable and grounded and within this clarity and stability i then use words as myself within my breath one and equal.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into using my imagination based on what i myself experience within myself and by believing that using this imagination avoid me from having to facing myself as the mind consciousness system, I STOP------------take a deep breath and Earth myself back HERE and hold my hands together to remind myself that i am HERE and also to keep on focusing at the same time within/as my breath till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and from this starting point i then act/move/communicate with another as myself.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into Fearing myself because i am about to stop and change myself, I STOP-----------take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and i continue breathing and focusing on my breathing till i am clear and stable and no fear exists within me as me as the mind as energy, and i am totally clear i then act/move/communicate.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into imaging others as myself maybe/possibly going through the same experiences as i do, when this is an assumption and a belief, I STOP-----------------take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.



I commit myself to when and as i see myself going into or i am about to go into linking imagination to fear or to better yet strengthen the fear within myself, I STOP-------take a deep breath and bring myself back HERE till i am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy, and then i can communicate with another as myself within and as my breath and my human phsysical body/form, one and equal.






Self-Reward:





within this i gift myself the gift of using my imagination to NOT sabotage myself and/or strengthen my own self-created fear of exposing myself, but to actually use it to See/realize/understand myself as the whom i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become in this world in a moment, so that in these moments i can then STOP myself and correct myself to function effectively in communication and within the principle of what is BEST for all.






Thanks.






Larry Manuela

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Day 167, When Happiness Turns Into Sadness. Part 9

 So now i am going to move into another dimension which is the Consequence dimension.

                                                                  



Here are the links to the previous writings in relation to this one:


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-166-when-happiness-turns-into.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-165-when-happiness-turns-into.html#




http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-164-when-happiness-turns-into.html





http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-163-when-happiness-turns-into.html#




http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-162-when-happiness-turns-into.html#


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-161-when-happiness-turns-into.html




http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-160-when-happiness-turns-into.html




http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-159-when-happiness-turn-into-sadness.html



So what are the consequences in all of this thoughts and back-chats and the rest of the dimensions i walked.


First, it makes me stay within the realm of the mind, an alternate reality, which is not a reality that is equal and one with this one. In the reality of my mind, i can do and go to every place, there are no consequences at all within the mind itself. But on a physical level things are not so, my body is experiencing discomforts, and i am most of the times AWAY and NOT here as being here, as my breath and as my human physical body and the rest of what is here as the physical manifesed reality. So i am totally separated from all that is here as that which is the physical, my body and other humans bodies, the animals, the plants, nature in it's totality and the whole earth.


We have been given this CON as Consciousness so much value, that it have now the power over ourselves as LIFE, where we have to fight back if we ever want to birth ourselves back into the physical, the substance of LIFE. So to me this means, that i have to stop my participation within the programmes that are running rampant in my mind. Within this I am the only one who can STOP me from participating in giving these programmes in my mind the directive principle in my life.


Self-forgiveness:


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create more and more of consequences  for myself that, not only accumulate/amount for and to/towards myself but also for and to/towards others as myself  for we are all physically HERE one and equal, so what ever happens to our physicality HERE, it happens to all of that which is physically here through/by our relationships and interconnectedness. So within this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to neglect and devalued my own physicality and that of others and this whole physical reality in it's totality just to have an illusion within my mind as an experience.



I commit myself to make sure that i keep on with this process of removing myself from these programmes that i have accepted and allowed myself to be/become in this world as the ''whom i am''  as the mind as the energy and just make sure i am one and equal in every breath within and as my breath and my human physical body and then within and as this whole physical reality/existence one and equal.





I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to bombared my body in accumulating of stresses and body strains due to my participation in thoughts/feelings/emotions that are disastrous to my human physical body in ways i am not even aware of till  i start to feel physical discomforts of pains/ailments.


I commit myself to make sure that whenever i see myself going into my mind and start to participate or about to participate in my mind to just STOP, take a deep breath bring myself back HERE and make sure within this process to touch something that is physical so i remind myself  that i am HERE, and don't get lost and carried away by the currents of my mind delusions as thoughts/feelings/emotions.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT pay attention and LIVE together with and as one as equal with the rest of the humans, the animals, the plants, nature in it's totality and the earth itself, because i have given some programmes within my mind more value than all that is HERE, isolating/separating myself totally from that which supports me in everway always.


I commit myself to make sure that i focus on my breathing and my awareness of my body so i can become with each passing day more and more as one as equal within and as the totality of what i am as this human physical, and as this human physical body what i am as the whole of the physical existence that this body consists of and exist as a part of ALL this manifested life substance.






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Larry Manuela



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Day 68, Sadness

Now let's have a look at this word. ''Sadness''

what does it mean for real to be sad...??

When is someone Sad..??

Why is someone sad..??

what are the ingredients for someone to be sad..??

 

 

Now in the word English Dictionary ''sad'' is this:

 

sad  (sæd)
— adj  , sadder , saddest
1.	feeling sorrow; unhappy
2.	causing, suggestive, or expressive of such feelings: a sad story
3.	unfortunate; unsatisfactory; shabby; deplorable: her clothes were in a sad state
4.	informal  ( Brit ) ludicrously contemptible; pathetic: he's a sad, boring little wimp
5.	(of pastry, cakes, etc) not having risen fully; heavy
6.	(of a colour) lacking brightness; dull or dark
7.	archaic  serious; grave
— vb
8.	( NZ ) to express sadness or displeasure strongly
[Old English sæd  weary; related to Old Norse sathr,  Gothic saths,  Latin satur, satis  enough]

 

So as you can see, the definition of this word ''sad'' is all related to what goes on within oneself as an EMOTION, how one feels..!!   Why is this important..??

I am questioning if the emotion of being ''sad'' is necessary and relevant in this world and in reality..??  Does it change what is going on or what will happen, when it is happening..??   So why is something we feel so important and not only important but MORE of importance to what is HAPPENING itself for real, when it has to do with us taking action or not..??   Why would we rather ''FEEL''  sadness but yet not STOP ourselves within that which is ''sad'' in this world..?? It is like we are giving in into the contentment and acceptance and allowance of the ''feeling of sadness''  Like showing/presenting the sorrow, and the unhappiness that one experience within oneself as if this is what will make one appear as if is taking action, and in so doing be someone who cares or have compassion. All these i asked myself when i were sad.  Is my sadness a decoy that i have accepted and allowed myself to go through, to use so I don't have to take my responsibility and stand up and change ME into a being that truly, practically/physically/in fact does what is BEST for all LIFE...??  Why do i fear taking my responsibility for all LIFE, THE most important thing EVER...!!!   Why does my feelings make me abdicate my responsibility to that which truly supports me HERE, in this world,in this reality, in this existence,which IS LIFE, and not just ME, but all that is here as in LIFE and of LIFE, as ONE and as EQUALS..??

Self-forgiveness:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad, when i look at the poor people in this world, and NOT do anything about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i looked at the people whom are drugging themselves away into their own destruction, hurting their own bodies, and not do anything about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i looked at the bump in the streets and not do anything about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i looked at the people praying their asses of, for some self-interest stuff, when i know through/within myself that they will not act practically to bring a change in this world for real, and not do anything about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad for the people in WAR, either as soldiers, or as victims of war, the ones that are killed as the ones that are innocent, without doing nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad, when i looked at pictures and movies that show the reality of starvation and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look at woman in prostitution and even participate in buying into prostitution and feel sad about it, but yet not doing anything about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look at people whom are working hard to ''earn'' a living in this world and feel sad about it, but yet do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look at my son, and know within myself that if I do not stand for life now, i know his future will be fucked for what i have accepted and allowed to be here while i am here, and feel sad about it, and yet do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i look at all the children in this world, because i know that unless I who have realized that if i Don't change ME as an participant in this system and then stand within/ as the change within this system their chances to have a life on this planet is nihil,and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i look at how we as humanity are treating the other life-forms as the animals, the plants and bugs, and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see the struggle of survival all in the faces of women and men, and know that it is the system that i am supporting, that is NOT supporting them nor ME, nothing that is as/of LIFE, but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad, when i watch a sad movie that tells a true story where abuses and rape and all kinds of atrocities are portrayed and showed, but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad, when i look at politicians in this world doing whatever it is in their power to save the SYSTEM, but yet not LIFE, and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i look at people living in houses that i will not even call a house, that i will not want to live in a situation like that myself, but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i look at people from different races hating each other for their skin colors, or for their culture, or for their so-called traditions, or for their beliefs, but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad, when i see people fighting each other just because of anger, of hatred, of jealousy,of competition, for control.......but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see/realize/understand how in all my sadness i had/have  had for people and things in this world i really never felt sad for LIFE itself, how i saw how separated i was and is of LIFE itself where it has not even the value in my eyes where i can feel even sadness for LIFE, that which really supports me in EVERY way..!!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad when i look at mothers caring in vain for their children, when their caring will not lead to a world for their children to live in peace, but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad for the rich people in this world when i look and them, for they will do whatever it takes for their belief system as MONEY to continue,just because in the belief system of MONEY they are the ones that are on the safe side, forgetting totally how life is supporting even them that does NOT support LIFE equally,and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad for famous people in this world, for they will do anything to keep their fame intact, but yet will NOT do anything to support LIFE itself, and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad for people that make music and movies that are NOT supporting life, but are only supporting a belief system as MONEY, where just a few are protected and the majority are NOT, but yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad how we as humanity have come to invent something we called ''economy'' that was supposedly to support LIFE of beings, but yet it has turned out to be that which is abusing lives of beings, and yet i do nothing about it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be sad, for when i saw within myself that all the meditations and philosophies i have ever partake into have never ever done anything that is of support to that which is of UTMOST value, and this is that which is: ''LIFE''

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the energetics of my mind,where such things as ''sadness'' have reign and influence through my own acceptance and allowance of it, to rule over my decision making, instead of ME taking my directive principle and act in ways that are always BEST for ALL LIFE.

 

I commit myself to through my writings, self-forgiveness and my commitments to LIFE to show that emotions like ''sadness'' are in truth irrelevant when it comes to us taking real practical actions that will support LIFE, in ALL way, always..!!

Thanks.

Larry Manuela.

3D character animation borrowed from:  http://char-anim.blogspot.nl/2011_02_01_archive.html

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