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Sunday, 23 November 2014

Day 333, Very Naugthy Children Part 4

Now I am going to start with writing my commitment statements within this blog in relation to the first blog about this problem I am having with my children. Here is the link to this particular blog I wrote:

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html




                                       




Self-Commitment statement:

When and  as I see myself going into or I am about to go into letting myself feel guilty, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, I make sure I focus on my physical breath here till I am calm and relaxed within myself and I am sure that there is not energetic movements within me, I then communicate with my children.

I see/realize and understand that I am feeling guilty for them becoming extreme naughty children, because I think and believe I have neglected them and have abandon them and leave them behind alone with the mother, even though I am aware that I had to leave.

Thus within this, I commit myself to whenever I am about to going into or I am about to go into to stop myself in that moment and remind myself that I have to breathe and make sure that I touch something with my hands, it can be anything that is close by and in reach or I can touch myself to help me stay focus when I am busy breathing and bringing myself back here to ground myself and then when I am satisfied and sure that I am just here breathing and grounded, I then move myself/direct myself to communicate with my children.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into blaming myself that my children has become extreme naughty children, I STOP----------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I see/realize and understand that I am blaming myself, because of what I perceive myself to be of my fault that they have become the way they are.

Thus within this, I commit myself to stop perceiving myself as the point of blame and fault initiator of the way they have become and make sure I find solutions as to how to communicate with them that will form a relationship that will result in what is best for all, by being stable and constant within the way I communicate with them.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into interpreting myself as being the only one who is to blame for the outcomes in relation to others in my life, I stop------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I blaming myself as in; taking everything on me, instead of looking at the whole situation constructively to come up with practical solution that will have a result that is best for all.

Therefore, I commit myself to constructively look at a situation and do what I can in that moment that will lead or have an outcome that will be best for all participating in that particular situation.

When and as I see myself judging and putting down other people's remark or advise on how to deal with my children, when they themselves do not have children that are in anyways like the mine, I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I am judging other people concerning my children, especially when I am aware that they themselves do not have the experience of dealing practically with children that are in this way, because I see the people giving me the advise as unreliable and/or without practical personal experience in dealing with children that are in this way.

Therefore, I commit myself to take all information I can gather and take them as information that are constructive and look how I can implement them with my children to see which one will work best, because I am aware that I haven't tried everything yet and all kinds of ways, thus it is to just try all of the advises that seem probable and see which will work best and keep the ones that I see are practically working out for me and the children.


When and as I see myself going into reaction of anger and resentment to/towards others for giving me advise and telling me that my children are just doing "kids stuff," as if they have experience with being in their presence to have such a judgement, I STOP.............take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize the anger to/towards people using the words: "kids stuff" is because of me interpreting them as judging me being incompetent and making the situation with my children seem as if it is something worse then it is.


Thus within this, I commit myself to not judge myself as being incompetent and as someone that makes things seem bigger then they are, and just look at the situation as it is in fact and out of that see how I can fix it and come up with solution that will have an outcome that is best for all, and to remind myself to keep looking at it without judging it, but simply as how it is right now, right here.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into judging other parents that give my advise of how to deal with my children that are extreme naughty, when they themselves don't have children like this, and wherein I judge their advise of not being valid, I STOP-------------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I judge other parents that don't have children like have giving me advise on how to deal with them as invalid, because of the very fact that they themselves do not have children that are in the extreme behavior my children are, thus within this their advise would probably not work, without me even try the parts out that I didn't put in practice yet.


Thus within this, I commit myself to incorporate and put to practice the parts of the advises the other parents give to me to see if it can work with my children too, and everything that works with them, I keep on building on them till I get a best way of dealing with them and not only dealing with them, but actually solving the problem that is existent within and as their behavior.



When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into judging psychologists of not taking me serious and giving me theories, that when I put them in practice don't work with my children and they then put it on me as if I am the one probably not implementing it correctly, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I relied too much on what the psychologists are saying instead of finding out in the moment of application what are the changes and where there can be alterations and modifications to suit my children best, so that change can possibly happen, instead of immediately writing them off as ineffective.


Thus within this, I commit myself to not write off advises or theories of psychologist immediately when they are not working practically, but to see if I can change them and modify them to suit me in helping my children help themselves changing themselves.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into  judging my children as being extreme/very naughty, without actually being there living with them, because of them living far away from me in another country, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I m clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that my judgement of my children are coming from hearsay from the mother and my older sister whom have had the experience of being with them, but yet I am also aware that this is their own personal interpretation of the behavior of the children and not that they have investigated the underlying currents and reasons of the why's and how's they are behaving in this manner, and if it is something that is more a momentary reaction to/towards certain situation or event or that it is the way they have become and are living it out.

Thus within this, I commit myself to mostly look at the situation of my children in regards to their behavior as what they will actually tell me within their own words and how they look at things from their own perspectives, and based on this I can only support them with advising them with what can work for them and what not and how they can be effective themselves in making sure that they in their own lives can live in a way that have a result that is best for themselves and also for others, thus that they are not a obstruction to others as themselves.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into fearing my own fear of letting my children come here to live with me, because I might fail in bringing them up, I STOP---------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am in fear of failing in raising up my own children, because I see my own life as a failure right now, being on myself, thus how could I be of any support to them in this kind of situation.

Therefore, I commit myself to not see my own life as a failure first and solve the problems I have first and when I am certain that I am ready and that I can let them come live with me, I do that. For now my focus is going to be on my own fear of my own self-perceived failure.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into feeling disgusted by people that say to me that they are lucky to have had children that are not like mine and that theirs are "good children", I STOP----------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I feel disgusted by people telling me that they are lucky to have children that are not like mine, because I am of the understanding that there is no such thing as "good" or "bad" children, that there are only consequences we have come to interpret as "good" or "bad" so we can fit into the society we have come to accept and allow as the way we live with each other.

Thus within this, I commit myself to not letting myself fall into the feeling of feeling disgusted with other people that say to me that they are lucky their children turned out to be "good children" and are not like mine, because within me I am aware where they are coming from and do understand their judgement, thus I just make sure that I stick to being stable and direct in a consistent and constant manner with my children communicating to them to rewards of living in accordance to principles of live, that are best for all, and that by sticking to that application within their own lives will one day be part of the way they express themselves and will be having as result always what will be best for all.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into the backchat of : " Are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "good" about the state of the world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse then us," I STOP---------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I am having this backchat within me as a form of a defense mechanism as to get back at the person that is saying to me that their children have turned out to be "good children," thus using what is in fact so, but just to get even with another in my mind, as if I am telling them in a way, that their children also did not turned out to be "good children" anyways, because the world is painting another picture that is real that is not in alignment and accordance to any children being "good children," nor anyone for that matter.


Thus within this, I commit myself to look at this defense mechanism I am using within my own mind in the form of a backchat to get back or even with people as a way to take revenge on them, and instead of this making sure I become constructive within and as myself to look for solutions that when are implemented will have a result that would be best for all participants involved.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into being angry at people telling me that everything is going to be alright, I STOP------------ take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.


I realize that I get angry at people that give me positive remarks and positive forms of consolidation, because within me I am aware that nothing in this reality happens by itself or in itself or by chance, it is all consequential.


Therefore, I commit myself to work specifically on the emotional reaction of anger itself, because I am also aware that it is unnecessary and that i just have to look at the reality as it is in fact happening, without judging it, and within this to see if what I am looking at is what is best for all or not, and if it is not, I am aware that I have to look for a solution that will bring about what is best for all here.


When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into letting a memory pass through where I see myself raising my voice to go above that of my children, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am having this memory in regards to my children, because in my mind it means that they are not listening to me and that I have to look for ways through my voice to make them listen to me, and this is because of myself not liking people raising their voice at me, thus now finding myself like forced to do to others what I don't like happening to myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to work on my own judgement and fear in regards to voice tonality and volume and how I have programmed myself to react to that in fear instead of looking at it in ways to can be a tool to help myself getting rid of my own fear and taking a stand within and as myself and direct myself here in a moment to do what is best for all.

When and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into not trusting myself that i can do something, I STOP--------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy.

I realize that I am not trusting myself because of the fears of failing I have created within myself and hold on to as memories so I do not get into changing myself and directing myself.

Thus within this, I commit myself to get rid step by step of the fear of failing that I have created to exist within me as me as the mind as energy, and that I become effective in having patience and endurance and that I just stick to the practical aspect of making something happen, till it happens and make sure to make sure to use the equality of equation of: " 1+1= 2 " as a measurement.



Self-Reward:

Within this writing I have come to see/realize and understand that most of what I perceive as problems with my children being extreme naughty are solvable and that I have only some fear issues to take care of by myself in order to be effective in communicating with them, and that things will change for me and for them when I have taken out the fears that are existent within me in regards of me being able to help them helping themselves in regards to their behaviors.





Thanks.



Larry Manuela



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are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," - See more at: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html#sthash.yqywpGcG.dpuf
are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," - See more at: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html#sthash.yqywpGcG.dpuf
are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," - See more at: http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html#sthash.yqywpGcG.dpuf







Sunday, 16 November 2014

Day 332, Very Naugthy Children 3

I am now continuing with more self-forgiveness statements, and possibly the beginning of some self-commitment statements.

Here is what I left off from the last post:

" I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility, because it implies commitment, and I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself not committing myself to anything or anyone, thus therefore avoiding responsibility to myself and others as myself as life here as one as equal as all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always wanted to commit myself but then again in the middle of the commitment when things are seemingly not working out as expected them to work out, I start to look for ways to leave or find an excuse to leave or making it possible for the other to find an excuse to put me out of the relationship with them, because in that matter I have then made it possible for me to not have to take my self-responsibility to/towards life."




                        





So now continuing with more self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to think and believe that I cannot take my self-responsibility and that it is too hard and difficult, wherein I postpone almost everything wherein I am personally involved, as in where I have to bring my contribution within my participation, therefore avoiding taking my responsibility towards myself foremost and also to/towards others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself into making it harder for myself in order for me to have an excuse to not take my self-responsibility to/towards myself here and to/towards others as myself here.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish/want/desire things to be easy and to try to look for an easy way out, when I am aware deep within myself that there is no easy way out, and that actual practical work is required to be done in order to bring about that which is best for all here, practically/physically and factually.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hide away within myself in order to avoid having to place myself in a situation where self-responsibility have to be taken by myself, just because I have interpreted it and define it within myself as something that is hard to do, instead of just doing it and get it over with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that just because something is appearing to be hard, it automatically means that it is something that I should not give it my time and day and thus avoiding doing it, thus within this devaluing it within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only take responsibility for things I value without seeing/realizing and understanding that the values I give to something or someone is actually tainted/limited not pure as in the life principle of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that, that which seemingly through/via my mind interpretation to be hard, is actually just that, a mind interpretation and not an actual physical manifestation as fact.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself in order to keep on going within the same mind-set and same patterns that governs my specific behaviors to/towards myself and others as myself and within this not actually changing me, to be and become that which is best for all life.


Thanks.


More to come in the next post....


Larry Manuela


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Saturday, 11 October 2014

Day 331, Very Naughty Children?? Part 2

I am now continuing with more self-forgiveness statements in regards to what I wrote yesterday in my blog.
I will place here the link and also beneath it a few lines of where I left off.

http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/09/day-330-very-naughty-children.html






                                                               





" I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very angry at people whom want to give me an advise that has to do with a future projection of positivity and telling me not to worry because everything is going to be alright, when I am aware that without me taking my responsibility to/towards my children and all children in this world and to do whatever it takes to make sure that the possibility exists that they will come to the realization for themselves that they have to choose life above anything and anyone else, would be a living  reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have memories of me being with my children and sometimes when they do not listen to me, that I have to raise my voice to go above their voice in order for them to then be quiet and listen to me.



                                                                          



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this." 


More self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself that they have become like this because it was me whom made the decision to leave them with the mother behind when I found out the mother cheated on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the mother for doing something whereof I had to made the decision to leave her and children behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always have doubts within myself about leaving them behind with the mother, if I had made the best decision, since I cannot trust the mother.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to because I cannot trust myself I project it on the mother, thus I see untrustworthiness within her instead of seeing solutions that denote responsibility within myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize and understand that I also have some points within me that cannot be trusted or are not trustworthy, but yet seeing the point within another has more impetus then seeing it within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be a point of support and assistance within solutions that would have been best for all involved in the past in regards to me leaving my children with my ex. behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the situation about my children as hopeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I cannot solve this problem and look for ways to not have to deal with it and yet also having mix feelings about it, because I am aware that I am responsible for them no matter what.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not pay attention to my children well, and blame it on the distance between us, as they are in another country far away from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a form a releaf because they are away from me where I can be myself without the direct relationship and responsibility in practical matters and   direct physical support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take the responsibility to my children and sometimes deliberately avoid to having to find myself in a situation with them where I would have to face myself having to take my self-responsibility towards myself and also towards them.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to deal with having to fix what is done already, within this implying; that I am giving up on life as it exists within and as myself and within and as my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the backchat within me as: " I don't want to deal with all this shit right now on top of all the shit I am already in," to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my responbsibility for my children through my mind as a shitty thing to deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see dealing with the problems my children are going through as shitty, because in my mind I am avoiding taking my responsibility to come up with the best possible solution that could be best for all involved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take my self-responsibility because I am aware that I then have to give up the life I have as living on my own away in order to have them with me.


I forgive myself  that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to sharte my life with my children as I have programmed myself into a comfortable wasy of living being on my own without anyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to give up my life alone for that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to take responsibility and then afterwards fail and find myself into more trouble doing so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find excuses for not wanting to take my self-responsibility to/towards life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just because of avoiding trouble I decide to not take my self-responsibility and in doing so, I then use "avoiding trouble" as an escapegoat in order to keep on being irresponsible to/towards myself as life and others as myself as life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pospone responsibility to/towards myself and others as myself because of fearing having to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility, because it implies commitment, and I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself not commiting myself to anything or anyone, thus therefore avoiding responsibility to myself and others as myself as life here as one as equal as all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always wanted to commit myself but then again in the middle of the commitment when things are seemingly not working out as expected them to work out I start to look for ways to leave or find an excuse to leave or making it possible for the other to find an excuse to put out of the relationship with them, because in that matter I have then made it possible for me to not have to take my self-responsibility to/towards life.


To be continued.......................


Thanks.


Larry Manuela




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Saturday, 20 September 2014

Day 330, Very Naughty Children??

I have recently found that my children have become very naughty children. They are out of control.
This bothers me a little because I am not there to really be of help and can't be there either. They live in another country.
The day the mother took that decision to leave with them, I already told her that, looking at how they were already behaving here, that things might get worse and whuala......this is exactly what happened.

I wanted to bring them here to me, but now that I know this I don't want to do this anymore, I have doubts about it, because I on my own have financial problems to cope with and then to have two children who don't listen and do what they find fit them best whatever that would mean, I don't want that.






                                                                   

So the question I ask myself is how am I going to take my self-responsibility towards myself and then to them, because this is not a simple challenge and no matter how I put it, I am responsible for them.

There are children that are "normal naughty" = they do kids stuff......but my children are beyond this.

My daughter is into boys right now, she is 14, but these boys are not just boys, they are sometimes man older man and I am talking about problematic boys/man.....street/ganster types. That is what she is attracted to, as most girls go through in their teenage years. She steals and love to bring trouble into peoples lives They're vengeful and want to make another pay all the time if they find the other hurt them either emotionally or physically.

My son is fighting continously at school just to be a bully and is contiously talking about wanting to kill people, and I am not talking about "kid stuff " here. He is 8 years old.


                                                       

I see that they have adopted within their lives all that are harmful towards themselves and others as themselves and brought it to an extreme level and live it out as if it is a normal thing to do and to be.

I am writing this, because I am aware that some people may have the assumption that this can be impossible and they are just kids doing kids stuff. If one was lucky enough to have children that are easy to talk to and they listen, then one can say it is just "kid stuff" but it is when one is really into the situation itself with kids that are already on the extreme end and  one have not gotten much of an influence in their lives that one will see that it is not as it can be with children that do listen more easily to their parents. So for those whom think/believe that this is just "kid stuff,"  and that the problem I am having with my children is just like any other parent in the world is having with their children, I can assure you it is not.

The worry I am having is how do I fix this problem when I myself is also having problems that have to do with money. Because by bringing them to me, means that I am going to be leaving them alone at home when I am working and cannot afford "babysitter" at the moment. And besides that---------- I work 3 shifts, thus they are going to be alone at nights and that would be a wonderful opportunity for my daughter to do whatever at home when I am not there.

So I can see that in this situation money also plays a very decisive role, because of lack of money I cannot make certain decisions well.
I am also aware that if I leave them there, they will be lost, and will be a challenge maybe to help them change themselves.




Self-forgiveness statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about my children becoming very extreme naughty children that are out of control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like it is my fault that they have become this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize and understand that what is playing out in my life is the outcomes that I am experiencing in my life where I have not taken my self-responsibility as I should have done and also within this in the lives of the children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to blame myself and the mother for what is happening with the children.

I forgive mysellf that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel emotionally sad about the whole situation, because I am aware that I do not want them to get lost along the way and ruin their own lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that it is my fault that they are the way they are and that it is my fault that they have made the decision to change themselves to be the way they have become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am too late to help them help themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the chance to really sit and have a look at what are the possibilities for me to take some kind of action that would result into that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the backchat: " I'm getting tired of this S***"  to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself because I am aware that because of not having enough money puts me in a position wherein I cannot do much to support the children as I would like to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that most people won't understand  the situation and will give some advise that most of the times can be applied only with children that do listen, that are doing just "kids stuff."


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people that do not have children that are extreme in a way of being naughty but do not appear like they are extreme, and that  these people will think and believe that what they apply with their children will work with my children to.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that most child psychologists have very nice theories but when it comes to the actual being in the moment with the child that does not listen the theory does not work and within this I feel like a little frustrated because I experience the psychologist then putting it on me that I must be doing something wrong in the application of the theory.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my own children to be very naughty without actually really be with them and live with them as they are now, because they are not living with me in this country.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear wanting to have them be with me, because I think and believe that I might fail, when the reality of the matter is they are not here, so how would I know if I would fail or not?


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if they were with me that they would not have turned into what they are now according to the stories I am hearing from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes experience a little bit of disgust to/towards people that say to me that they are lucky that their children turned out to be "good children," and that they don't have to go through all this that I am going through with mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when the people are telling me that they are lucky with their children turning out to be "good children," I am busy in my mind backchatting and saying to them in my mind: " are you serious, just look at the state of the world we live in, there is nothing "Good" about the state of the  world we live in at all, and the children that are now here are being programmed to be even worse than us," to exist within me as me as the mind as energy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very angry at people whom want to give me an advise that has to do with a future projection of positivity and telling me not to worry because everything is going to be alright, when I am aware that without me taking my responsibility to/towards my children and all children in this world and to do whatever it takes to make sure that the possibility exists that they will come to the realization for themselves that they have to choose life above anything and anyone else, would be a living  reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have memories of me being with my children and sometimes when they do not listen to me, that I have to raise my voice to go above their voice in order for them to then be quiet and listen to me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this.



more to come soon.........................


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Larry Manuela



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Sunday, 31 August 2014

Day 329, So Larry, Why don't you change? Part 6




Now I am continuing with more self-corrective/commitment statements.

Here are the links to the previous posts I did in regard to this particular point:


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-328-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-327-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-326-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-325-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/07/day-324-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.ht







Self-commitment statements:


I commit myself to remind myself everyday that real care and real compassion is to give unconditionally practically, because I am a physical being living in a physical reality where practicality is the expression of all physical expersions in their unique ways, thus caring and having compassion is to give physical practical support that will be best for all living expressions on this planet, including the planet itself.

I commit myself to remind myself in every breath to actually put my commitments in practice and make sure I live that which I have placed as commitments for myself to live, because I am aware that this living of my commitment is my self-responsibility to myself and hence to all what is here, by living this all the way deep within my beingness and within and as my human physical body.

I commit myself to whenever I see myself going into or I am about to go into distract myself about the minor things in the world and make of them a big thing in my mind, I stop.......................I take a deep breath and bring myself back here, till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy. Then within this clearness and stability I move myself to focus on myself about my own process so I can be the change I am aware needs to be lived in the world for myself and to be at the same time while living the change an example for others to see.


I commit myself to trust my own common sense and stop having doubts about my own common sense reasoning when I am aware within myself that what I am seeing as common sense is common sense as how I see the playouts in the my own personal world and the world at large, thus within this I commit myself to let the doubt go, because I see that the doubt is a distraction about me seeing/realizing and understanding within common sense reasoning.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into or I am  about to go into emotions/reactions/feelings/judgements/ideas, I stop...........bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and within this I make sure that I only move when I am sure that I am here and nothing is moving and to remind myself that I touch something that is physically here in whatever form to support me staying here within and as my breath and my human physical body and the physical reality.

I commit myself to look at what is going on here in the physical as it happens in the physical and do my best to not color it in using my mind itnerpretation of what I am seeing happening in fact in the physical reality, and to just use words that adress what is not what is best for all life exactly as it is in common sense perspective.


I commit myself to stop letting myself be carried away within and as my mind consciousness system and make sure that when I see myself going or I am about to go into letting myself be carried away, I stop------------- take a deep breath and bring myself back here till I am clear and stable and nothing moves within me as me as the mind as energy and from this clearness and stability I then make sure I move and and do what I have to do in a moment using common sense reasoning and actions that are aligned with that here and that would have an outcome that would be best for all.


I commit myself to remind myself that what I see as likes and dislikes are only my mind interpretations about reality and has nothing to do with reality, thus within this I commit myself to look at things as they are without judging them as ideas I have about reality within and as my mind consciousness system and make sure I stick to my breathing remaining within the confines of reality of breath and the physical here.



Self-Reward:

Within the self-forgiveness statements I have made, I have come to see/realize and understand that I have not walked my self-commitments as I should have in fact, thus now that I am aware of what I have done, I am also at the same time aware of what I have to do to make sure I live my commitments to myself, taking my self-responsibility for my life and all of life, within walking my process, step by step, little by little till it is done.



Thanks.



Larry Manuela



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Sunday, 24 August 2014

Day 328, So Larry, Why don't you change? Part 5



Now I am continuing with more self-corrective/commitment statements.

Here are the links to the previous posts I did in regard to this particular point:


http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-327-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-326-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-325-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/07/day-324-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.ht






                                                     



Self-Commitment statements:


I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into just doing nothing, I immediately stop take several deep breaths till I am clear and stable and within this I start writing and do my blogs to release myself from the comfortability in just doing nothing and make sure I move myself within and as my breath here.

I commit myself to push myself to get out of my comfort zone and make sure that I do just one thing at the time so I do not end up not finishing none.


I commit myself to not create perceptions/projections/interpretations/ideas about myself and manifest them here within and as my human physical body  in every moment and make sure to remind myself for keeping msyelf out of participating within them and push myself to focus on this till I am free of them and of manifesting them within and as my human physical body. I make sure I focus on my breathing and look for ways in the physical to do something physical/practical to keep myself from moving into mind constructs and programs.


I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into my mind to generate energy for my body to produce, I stop------take many deep breaths till I am calm and clear and stable here within me and from this clearness/calmness and stability I move and direct myself within and as myself, within and as my human physical body and my breath itself here one and equal to make sure I do in each moment that which is best for life.

I commit myself from the definition I have accepted of the word "comfort zone," which is a word that is in separation within and as myself here within and as my breath in every moment, thus within this I commit myself to redefine this word to be within me as a word that implies a living application that will be best for me and for everyone and everything else, thus that the word: Comfort zone, is the comfort of me being here within and as my breath and my human physical body as the actual zone that is here as me as one as equal as all as life.


I commit myself to make sure that I really push myself to live and become that which I am aware I must do and be/become to be the change I must be so I can change me and as I change me my change is at the same time an example for other as myself to see that change is possible if one dares to push oneself to do so beyond ones perceived limitations and fears.


I commit myself to not only look at where I have not place my responsibility in the world to what happens in life, but to also apply myself to be the point of responsibility within and as myself and also as I am living this within and as the world through as what I express myself as. And to make sure I remind myself to push myself to do so, using the physical reality that is here as my grounding point, my point of stability.

I commit myself to push myself to change myself till real shame dawn upon me to support me being carring and comnpassionate for real in this world to bring about that which is best for all life.


I commit myself to push myself little by little to integrate within me how the educational system really works in this world in order to understand it and stand equal and one with it here and thus be able to come up with practical solutions that will be best for all, where education will be to educate about expressing life in the best possible way in any given field or means to achieve this.


I commit myself to study the system of justice as it really works within this world as within this system, the words are being used to enslave myself and others as myself, thus by standing one and equal with the system of justice and learn the words that enslave me and others as myself I can free myself and thus help others free themselves. I commit myself to push myself to learn all that I need to learn to understand it so I can also stand within a solution within it that will have a result that will be best for all life.


I commit myself to use that which I already have as knowledge and information about religion and spirituality and ground them to equality for all, and look for all the common sense points within them and also the common sense points they lack within them and point them out so those whom are still trapped within these constructs can start to question what they believe are effective for people to participate in within this world. And in this manner I contribute to bring awareness within the world, so we can come together and carry on starting to built the road to equality together as one and equals, till all is one and equal.


I commit myself to study how the system of war works within the world system as to understand it and stand equal and one with and and from out of this equal understanding I can direct myself within and as it to come up with solutions so that war cannot be in this world no more forever more.

I commit myself to study the system of labour I have accepted and allowed to be here to understand it thoroughly so I can have a better understanding about it and within this make sure that I can come up with solutions that will be best for everyone participating within a system of labour, making of labour what it should have been, which is work we humans do to better our expressions and our survival on the planet in the best possible way.

I commit myself to study the technologies that are within this world, especially the technologies that are influencing our daily lives, so I can have a better understanding of it all, and out of this understanding can come up with solutions that will be best for life.


I commit myself to study and have a look at the system of art we have in this world to understand them and to see where it is I can contribute with solutions that will be best for all of life, especially the visual arts that are being used in this world in this moment to influence the emotions and feelings of people in order for companies and corporations to make money.


I commit myself to study the system of music that I have accepted and allowed to be here to understand it, so I can stand one and equal with it and from there come up with solutions that will benefit all equally, as I am aware that only when I have full understanding about something I can direct myself within it towards solutions.

I commit myself to study movies as in how they are make specifically and to look for the intention that lies underneath what is being told to the public and to study the art of movies or making movies so I can have a better understanding about movies and making movies and within this I can contribute to a solution that will be best for all, where movies are made with the purpose to educate people for real about our reality and not only for entertainment and to make money playing on people's emotions.

I commit myself to study how the ecosystem world, so I can give my contribution into coming up with solutions that are best for life on earth, and to really push myself to look for all kinds of information I can find about it, so I can integrate it within me and in so doing stand as equal as one within it within myself and direct myself towards solutions that are best for all.


I commit myself to study the system of banking that I have accepted and allowed to exist here in this world, and to make sure I understand it as it operates and stand equal and one with it, in order to be able to make a change that will result in an outcome that is best for all, using the knowledge and information about how the banking system works.


I commit myself to study how the family system really workd within and as myself and also within and as this world to have a better understanding about it and in so doing contribute in coming up with solution that will be best for all, using that which I have aquired through knowledge and information and bring into practicality.


I commit myself to study how food is being processed and distributed in this world in order to have a better understanding about it all and in so doing contribute in bringing to the table solutions that will have a result that is best for all, be it the human and the animals or plants that are involved within all of this.


I commit myself to study the system of bureaucracy as it exist in this world to understand it better and within this see where the flaws are in order to use what is within it that can benefit all equally and do so and making sure that the solutions are practical solutions that will work best for all.



Thanks.



Larry Manuela



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Monday, 18 August 2014

Day 327, So Larry, Why don't you change? PART 4

So now I am continuing with the next step, which will be the self-corrective/commitment statements.

Here are the links to the previous posts I did in regard to this particular point:



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-326-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/08/day-325-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



http://larry7yearwalk.blogspot.com/2014/07/day-324-so-larry-why-dont-you-change.html



So now up to the self-commitment statements:







                                                     


I commit myself to when I take knowledge and information in, to also direct it within me and make it easy for  everyone to understand it, meaning I have to make it understandable for even someone whom won't be interested or is well-read or well-informed. I commit myself to take my self-responsibility to digest the information and lay it out in a way that is understandable and easy to go through for everyone, and within this also look within myself to how to bring the knowledge and information in a form that is best as possible I can do in a moment for myself first and then for others as myself.


I commit myself to actually/really dedicate my time that I have to be/become the change I want to see in the world and to push myself when and where I see myself not moving or applying myself.


I commit myself to do what is necessary to be done step by step till I stand completely free of limitations within me that obstruct my process and delay my own process, so I can be the example in the world as to what it means to live the change one wants to see in the world for myself as a living application and for others as an example to follow and implement in their own lives.


I commit myself to work extensively on my justifications and sabotages to free myself from them using the tools of self-forgiveness and self-commitment done in self-honesty.


I commit myself to work out through the writing of self-forgiveness and my commitments to life to not only support myself but to also support others as myself for they may find within my writing similarities of patterns that they go through and hereby my writing support and assist them too.

I commt myself to dedicate the life I have here on this planet to bring about a world that is best for all, thus best for me too and to stay focus within my application of this till I am completely living it as the whom I am as a living example.


I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into or I am about to go into anger to/towards myself I immediately stop and breathe, I realize that I am letting the emotion as anger taking over my directive will, thus I breathe till I am clear and stable and then in this clearness and stability I look for a solution that will be best for all.

I commit myself to make sure to remind myself constantly that I have to live my commitments to the fullest so the integration of what I stand for and as can take place on a physical level in practical living.

I commit myself to push myself to stop myself to do just a little just to hold face, but to actually do what is necessary to be done and be done with it, period.


I commit myself to also dedicate my life that I have been given to make sure that such atrocities as poverty will never ever again be part of reality nowhere and for any being in whatever form, making sure I embrace the poverty concept till I understand it completely and then from their I can change it.


I commit myself to also dedicate my life that I have been given to make sure hunger does not exist in existence anymore for any being and to make sure to understand all the mechanism that leads to the outcome that is hunger so I can find a solution that will be best for all.

I commit myself to do more then what I am doing now, which is too little and make sure that I push myself too in moments I see myself not doing more when/where I can do more and just do it, till this becomes a living expression of whom I am.

I commit myself to really be completely self-honest within my writings about myself and to not leave certain specific aspects of myself unwritten just to carry on with them and put them on hold. Thus I make sure I push myself to really be self-honest about myself within my writings.



To be continued..............



Thanks.

Larry Manuela



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