So within this blog i am going to write my self-forgiveness statements and self-commitment statements in regards to my relationship with rain as i see/perceive/view it.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see/perceive/view rain as something special, just because i have chosen within myself to give rain a special meaning within myself as for the relationship i have had when i was a little boy living with my grandmother on the farm and how all the other farmers appreciated very much when it rained, and their ability to look at the soil and work the soil when it rains so the little water streams/small rivers that are formed when it is raining can be used properly/effectively to benefit as best as possible the soil, that will be used for plantation.
I commit myself to STOP myself whenever i see myself going into or about to go into my special feeling for the rain when it is raining, that brings all kinds of remembrances of the past when i was a little boy staying with my grandmother on the farm, and just BREATHE-----------------making sure i am touching something that is physically here so i don't loose myself within my mind shooting up memories to keep my occupied within it.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not look at the rain as one as equal as myself as what is here physically manifest, but as separate from me wherein i have given the rain more value than other manifestations of LIFE right here in this physical world.
I commit myself to wipe off within me the specialness that i have given to the rain, and start my process of seeing/perceiving/viewing and most importantly being one and equal with the rain as a manifestation of LIFE just like me right HERE.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge others for the way i see them seeing/viewing/perceiving the rain, and just because it is NOT in contrast with how i see/view/perceive the rain, i judge them by their very judgment of the rain, which is from my perspective a negative judgement.
I commit myself to STOP myself every time i am about to go into judging others to take a deep BREATH and make sure i am touching something that is physically here, as for example my own hands to remind me that i am HERE.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give the smell of the rain a special meaning as an interpretation of my mind within myself, that i have given the sound of the rain falling on the soil and rooftops a special meaning within myself, that i have given the wetness of the soil after the rainfall a special meaning within myself, that i have given the breeze that i feel on my body when it rains a special meaning within myself, that i have given the taste of the rain a special meaning within myself, that i have given the support of growth that follows after it have rained a special meaning within myself, within this glorifying the rain and giving the rain more value then the rest of the expressions of nature.
I commit myself to STOP myself every time i see myself going into my mind and call upon memories of specialness in relation to the rain, and BREATHE till i am clear and stable within myself and nothing moves within me as energy as the mind, so i can let go of my view/interpretation of the meaning the rain has for me, which is just a interpretation of what the mind within me as me has of the rain.